Slut Confession #161 (Babyslut as Masochist)

Master,

i instructed babyslut not to speak to her switch boy. but as soon as i told her not to speak to him, she acquiesced. i think she likes territorial behavior on my part. i do not know why that should surprise me. i am absolutely drawn to territorial behavior directed towards me. it is one of the only types of dominant behavior that vanilla guys engage in. her reaction tells me that she craves You and your dominance and enjoys it vicariously and unknowingly through me.

i told her that i thought we should make it a goal for her to become a live-in pet in july. she took well to that idea and is also going to make it a goal.

babyslut is always punctual about calling me, but says she has two alarms go off at 10 pm and keeps it written on her hand in order to remember. she is always on time for work and school, but claims she cannot remember to do her homework or eat. i see that she can only comply with externally imposed structure and has no internal sense of direction. common for submissives, i suppose.

i hate being a submissive for some reasons. i do love belonging to You, but that is because i was made to belong to You. if i had a choice, i think i would choose to be capable of independence.

babyslut becomes engrossed in each task she takes on, but does not seem to be able to maintain any organization or self discipline. she says she cannot even do laundry because she has to wait by the machine or else she forgets it is in there for days. she says she cannot remember to write in her planner or read her planner and that if she is distracted by anything, she forgets to eat. i find this interesting because she has never been even one minute late in calling me and if i tell her to call an hour later, she calls exactly an hour later. clearly, she needs to be owned.

babyslut tells me that she is a masochist, which will be interesting because You are not a sadist. she says she gets turned on by cutting herself and choking herself. indeed, babyslut has the makings of a much better slave than i.

babyslut says she likes to jump rope for exercise and jog. she began to become distracted by some random television show, while speaking to me. she had taken nyquil for her cold and was acting drunk and disoriented. like me, she never ever drinks and is opposed to alcohol in any form.

i think she knows how erotic her sincere obedience is. still, i imagine that her mind is filled with filthy thoughts.

meanwhile, my other sluts are being bad. skinnyslut has not responded to my last email. amateurslut has not responded since she wished me a merry christmas, but then i do not believe i gave her instructions. the french slut seems to be the most reliable out of them aside from babyslut, who is the absolute best.

i pray that You will not lose patience while guiding me to be an effective Domme. i pray to earn your Cock again. i love your Cock. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut