Slut Confession #151 (Losing Whore Layla)

Master,

it looks like whore layla now belongs to someone else, at least temporarily. my guess is that this will not last forever but she cannot come play on thursday. i know this must infuriate You as You required me to meet this goal before christmas. i try to tell myself that it is not that much of a loss since whore layla was so difficult in the first place and troubled as well.

she wrote this to me:

There's no doubt that I would like it (playing), Mistress... but, the commitment has already been made and she has made it abundantly clear that there is no getting permission, there is no playing with anyone else. I agreed to that and in the event something comes of this whole thing, I'd like to not forsake that commitment. Plus, I have a horrible conscience that inevitably forces me to confess everything, and I'd surely take a beating if not be dismissed altogether for such an offense.

i am working on acquiring many other sluts for You. a college slut has asked me to call her tomorrow. i will do so. she lives in the midwest. she says she is 5'8" and 120 lbs and bisexual. if she seems like she would be a good pet, would You bring her to us so that i could train her in person?

i also have arranged to meet the french slut during the first week of january. another slut from upstate wishes to speak to me as well. she is a student, so perhaps i could arrange for her to come here in the first week of january as well. i feel angry for not taking advantage of whore layla when she literally threw herself at me. i deserve something far worse than punishment for this. i am not sure why i only began to be a better pet in the last week or so.

i am not sure if You notice the change but i feel completely different now. i feel as though i finally understand what You want and how to please You by finding sluts to serve You. in truth, many bisexual sluts seem to find me. the potential problem is that they are not necessarily located anywhere close by. if You are interested in arranging for them to travel though, then the number of sluts i can acquire for You increases exponentially.

i think before i was somehow confused about what to do and how to do it. You said one million times that i had to find a submissive slut for us, but somehow the words made no sense to me. it was when You said that your previous pet would find many sluts and train them until they were ready for You that i understood.

i finally was able to conceive of what i needed to become. i need to become a Domme of my own right and i need to train sluts for myself. when i see myself in this role, i am able to pursue my goals properly.

Master, when You told me that You did find the slut who needed total ownership appealing, that also helped me understand the type of creature You want to own. before i was not certain if You wanted a changing supply of new sluts for the sake of change or total ownership of additional sluts. now, i believe You want both.

i found this profile, which is even better than the asian slut's profile. she says even this:

i am seeking real slavery where the owner is GOD to the slave and where the slave is just a worthless "it" reduced into an existence of services and use in the most debasing, degrading and suffering ways.

thus, i sent her the story i wrote. she seems to be exactly what You would like although she does need to be owned directly.

i am kicking myself for not having whore layla serve You while she was available. i am an idiot. but not anymore. now, i have become a good pet. and i am finding many sluts for You. next year, i have made a pact with myself to have at least ten sluts serve your Cock and to acquire at least one total possession for You.

Master, i just pray to your Cock for You not to give up on me. please grant me another month to serve You before You determine that i am a worthless fuck animal that does not deserve to be trained. please Master. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut