Slut Confession #157 (Waiting for Punishment)

Master,

i am very appreciative of your detailed message to me. i value input and communication from You so highly. in a way, it means as much to me as your Cock because your words are what lay down your rules and reveal your thoughts to me. i know You will
punish me justly and appropriately and i am grateful that You will do what it takes to make me a properly behaved pet for You.

i do not want to deny myself your satisfaction as it does mean everything to me. Master, i am not sure how much it matters to You if i revolve completely around your Cock and depend completely on your Cock for happiness. perhaps You want mainly that i show effective obedience to You. i see that i am slow and inadequate at completing goals for You even though i want to be a good pet very badly.

i recall that You once asked me if i thought i was insane. i was surprised to hear the question posed by You as I presumed that You shared the same basic deviant tendencies as i do. and when You asked if i thought i was insane, You also asked "have You read your slut confessions?" it makes me wonder what i say that seems insane to You. i am disturbed that i do not really know why i should be seen as crazy. i think that You would like a less angsty and introspective pet who was more efficient at obeying your orders. i am grateful that You tolerate my deranged slut mind.

babyslut had told me yesterday that she might not be able to call today and today at 10 pm on the dot. she texted that she would not be able to call. she also asked, "forgive me, ma’am?" i think i will tell her that i will forgive her only if she sends me a detailed report of what she thinks when fucking her cunt and if she does not that complete this to satisfaction, then i will impose punishment. i am eager to be able to punish her physically through a light spanking. i would not want to hurt her and i don’t believe she ever intends to disobey me. she also texted me earlier and said "the only thing i want for x-mas is to keep you in my life." (it was part of a chain letter, but it was still sweet.)

Master, the only thing i want for x-mas is to keep You in my life. (the message ends with "send this to someone else You love," but i do not dare to give You orders.)

i emailed skinnyslut and amateurslut. i asked skinnyslut for pictures and gave amateurslut my phone number.

today, my uncle was telling me about new technology that allows supervisors to monitor their employees at home through virtual representations of the employee. the virtual representations show how many words the employee types, what they are doing on the internet and where they are physically. my brother told me of how GPS devices can be implanted into a person’s fingers to divulge their exact whereabouts at any
time.

all this information made me wish that i could be kept under surveillance in every way at all times. i actually always fantasized about such a concept. throughout my childhood, i imagined the Master being able to know every detail of a slut’s position and actions by looking at a computer screen.

Master, i do not believe i have done anything to merit cumming today, so i will not fuck my cunt. i pray to your Cock to accept the punishment You choose gracefully. i pray to your Cock to show You that i am a trainable pet. i pray to find us the best pet possible. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut