Slut Confession #40 (Midday Masturbation)

Master,

it is interesting to see the slut confession number increase. how high do You expect it to get? 100? 10,000? only time can tell. well, i suppose its technically within our control.

i also often write emails to other people in all lower case. it is interesting that even after years of education and habit, the writing style You have required of me has already become the dominant paradigm. i am excited to experience whatever You have planned for me. your ability to inspire so much devotion out of me with even an occasional gesture of approval or acknowledgment is amazing. i have always been a rather high maintenance and time consuming partner. well, You put an inordinate amount of time into me considering how busy You probably are, but i don't see You often.

Master, why do You think it would be good for me to have a girl of my own to experiment with? well, i know You don't tend to answer the why questions. even for that i would ask why, but...anyways. sometimes when i don't understand You, i remember that my father does the same thing that You are doing that i don't understand. somehow this comforts me. because i know my father is a reliable person despite the fact that no one gets him. and because it reassures me that You are not uniquely psychopathic because there is at least someone else that operates somewhat like You do (and sometimes i worry, still). not that it keeps me from obsessively thinking about You.

i still keep the pen inside me throughout the day. sometimes, i go to the bathroom to play with it a little. everyone must think i have bladder problems or something. but no. i just have a really wet pussy. i sometimes go through two pairs of panties a day because i soak them so much. soon i will not be able to email You at work because my supervisor will be sitting right next to me and that just will not work. right now the physics nerd that sits next to me doesn't really matter, but my supervisor matters. i will be sad when this happens.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #39 (MILF Slut)

Master,

i hope your day went well today. i believe i have been productive today.

i was unable to see gina although i did call her and she suggested we get together soon. i also have another idea for a suitable girl. really, once i understood that the girl doesn't necessarily have to be a known kink fiend, this became much more possible for me. i worked hard at the gym today and i am surprised by my energy levels.

i have to tell You that i went into the steam room before working out as i like to get myself well hydrated. the steam room and sauna have these signs that warn against sexually harassing other members. now, my gym's men's locker room is a known gay pick up fest, so i can see why the sign is up.

well, while i was in there, this older woman (maybe 38) was in there naked, and i tried not too look at her tits. they were so huge. fake i think, but overall her body was rockin. later on, while i was changing, she came and said that my hair was beautiful and that i must hear that all the time. she kept complimenting me about this and that. i don't know if she was hitting on me. it's always hard to tell with girls since girls are just so friendly. but then later when she was leaving the gym, she walked past me and said bye and i was kind of out of the way from where the exit was. so, maybe she has a gym crush on me. next time i see her, i will try and talk more to her. i will ask her name and try and hang out. maybe the girl's locker room is a lesbian pick up joint and i just never knew it. i am excited about girls, i think.

i want to please You in any way You require and I am going to try very hard to make sure that i make my asshole as available and pleasurable as possible for You. i worry You lose interest in any future ownership of me and instead revel in your perfect little secretary (if there is any woman i would tie down and hurt).

Master, i beg You to be brutal with me and discipline me with a leather device.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #38 (Sluts of Color)

Master,

i am so nervous about finding a girl. in theory, it's been something i have always wanted to do, but now that i must do it i am scared of all sorts of things--rejection, not liking it--who knows.

i think anna will be a good choice for me to begin with because i am mainly attracted to non-white sluts. whenever i am in the gym, i can't seem to get into the plain white girls. i just can't get used to that pasty skin. i will call gina tomorrow and ask if i can come over after work. then i will breach the subject of anna. anna doesn't live with the girls down the street, but she is close to them or at least used to be. and then gossip will spread about how i want anna and then i will call anna and tell her i want to come over to her house and i will go there and we will eat each other out.

i am somewhat afraid to present a girl to You who is not truly into submitting as i think You might scare her. i find You very dominant, which is still something i am getting used to as i have always before pursued vanilla relationships with men who were aggressive in bed. i do not understand what You think when i disappoint You.

i am going to head to bed earlier than usual, Sir. goodnight and stay cool.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #37 (Unworthy Cumslut)

Master,

i believe because i have been an unworthy cumslut and You therefore chose to ignore me somewhat.

i had an interesting day today. i went through all of the pictures of me serving You as your cumslut and i decided that the recent pictures are my favorite. think i look purely submissive in that picture. i like how my black lingerie matches the collar, highlighted how the collar is the most important clothing item on my body- the whole outfit is dedicated to match the collar. i also like how my face for some reason looks slightly gaunt and my eyes look sunken- as though i am a slave kept deprived for your cock, which would be an intense slavery indeed (one which I surely would go mad under). but the image is provocative. and of course i love how i look so dedicated to your huge cock and how my eyes look innocent and fearful of your authority. i do think this photo is a bit of a work of art.

other than that, i spoke over the phone with my ex, brian, who i keep in touch with. i did not divulge anything about our relationship, but i told him i was having trouble accepting You in my ass. doug told me that the solution to this problem is to stop whining and take your cock in my ass. for some reason, he always says things that i think You would approve of. i think perhaps i should concentrate on how horny i am and that will help me be thankful for what You do to me.

as for my goals, i am free for training during the rest of the week and i pray You will forgive my failures enough to discipline me. i will tell my friends down the street that i want to hook up with this bangledeshi girl, anna- who is rather attractive and shapely although i have never wanted her despite the consistent opportunity to have her. my friends don't really like her because they think she is obsessed with sex to the point where her personality consists of nothing else. two of my female friends (petite attractive female friends) have had sex with her. max, from what i know, is not into bdsm, but perhaps because of her extreme lewdness and insecurity, she would be trainable. ideally, i do not want max for any number of reasons.

another bi girl i could probably have is my old roommate's girlfriend. she lives in florida and my best friend invited me to come down to florida for a weekend. my male roommate always said diana was hot and i concur although i can't put my finger on why. anyways, diana is also slutty (and in an open relationship in theory) so she might hook up with me although i would have to make sure that it wouldn't ruin my friendship with my former roommate. Master, girls are very complicated creatures. there is a lot of drama and beating around the bush that goes on between two women. and then they have long relationships and hold grudges at the end. girls like the opposite of You, Sir. i like You. girls are a pain.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #36 (Falling Short)

Master,

i feel guilty and inadequate tonight as i could not please You and i believe that i want to. You always comment on the difference between the things i say and the things i do. i feel as though i make You believe in a
fictional kitty that does not exist in reality. i wish i were the kitty in my mind and it pains me to know i have disappointed You. i feel so inadequate as your cumslut although i am more functional as a whole than a have been in a long while.

the more i disappoint You, the more i doubt my own ability to succeed as your cumslut. i suppose i am somewhat selfish with my body (which really belongs to You). i need to learn not to think of my own pain before i think of how much i love your cock.

You have told me to be thankful for your cock in my ass and i feel i can never be anything but a disappointment until i learn to properly present my tightest fuckhole to You. i understand that i must be thankful that You have chosen to use my fuckhole for your pleasure and if i concentrate on this thought enough, then my own discomfort should become easily bearable.

i feel that i need You and would miss You intensely if you told me to be away from You for an extended period of time again. i trust your judgment about these things and if You deem that i am unworthy of any part of your presence for the time being, then i suppose i must do some serious introspection. i wish to work on my goals as i know this is the only way of being less displeasing to You.

i must find the submissive slut i fantasize about. well, used to fantasize about. now i only and incessantly fantasize about You. i think about how You spank me (and get extremely wet when i think of You spanking me while you wear dress clothes).

i went out with my cute small asian friends this weekend and i tried to smack their butts while dancing and their responses were somewhere between confused and offended. sigh.

i want nothing more than to be trained as your cumslut. i was so scared when you said "do you think you will ever wear this collar again?". i do not know what i will do with myself if you will not have me. i do not think you are too cruel or too demanding. i wish i could satisfy you properly with my ass.

i enjoy seeing what a cumslut i am for You. i will gladly and gratefully suffer umpteen humiliations for You, Sir. but some are a bit tough for me somehow. i will try and overcome my limitations in pleasing You because i am your cumslut and i really really need to be trained.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #35 (Unavailable Fuckholes)

Master,

i cannot repeat how sorry i am for keeping my fuckholes unavailable to You yesterday.

i stayed out with my friends till about 4 am yesterday and they insisted i go eat brunch with them in the morning. i left the city at 2:30 pm and came back home at almost 8 pm due to a traffic accident. i know it is not an excuse for being unavailable, but that is the reason. i have difficulty telling people 'no' and i thought it would be rude to leave my hosts abruptly.

i will repeat the words tomorrow at every chance. i think of You so often these days that i think it must be unhealthy. if i am not concentrating on a specific task in front of me, my mind immediately wonders off into fantasies of You. and then i repeat the words, automatically. i have never thought of anyone nearly as much as i think of You. i want to be with You every minute of every day and it pains me when You will have me and i am inadvertently not available. i find it extremely soothing to look at pictures of your Cock and i thank You for sending me wonderful pictures of me serving your Cock.

i look forward to hard training on monday even though i know it will be painful. i know that i displeased You several times last week and i am thankful that You will discipline me for my negligence so that i can become a more devoted cumslut.

i arranged to have a tutor for my class help me after work- around 7 pm. do You want me to cancel this appointment? i need help on completing an assignment due tonight, but i really fear making myself even more unavailable to You. i desperately wish to be dripping or covered with your cum when i go to work in the morning.

i think a cumslut's only purpose is to earn Master's cum. i need to be trained, Sir.

thank You,

kittyslut

Slut Confession #34 (Kink Search)

Master,

i felt so happy when You responded to me today. i was having trouble motivating myself to do anything without knowing that You thought of me. i guess when i feel that You are not there, i feel overwhelmed by my sense of failure towards You.

i masturbate excessively when i am upset. i suppose it is a way of distracted myself from a problem. and it also makes me feel closer to You since i can feel your pen inside of me. i definitely hope i am worthy of further training tomorrow.

i try to work on my goals for You. tonight, i went to a party with many many petite asian girls. i tried to search for some with gothic like accessories and such, but i did not one i found could be suitable.

why can't people just wear signs on their heads that denote their sexual tastes? it would make things so much easier. my sign would say "cumslut" or "Master's fuckpet" or whatever You wanted it say, actually.

i am so incredibly horny right now that i keep shifting from side to side and rocking my butt back and forth. at the party, i wore a pink dress and i was quite afraid the pen would slip out of my wet pussy and fall onto the floor. i keep thinking of what You might do next to me.

since You are displeased, i fear you will exact punishment. that worries me, but i beg for your brutality if You think i deserve such treatment.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #33 (Disobedience Atonement)

Master,

i wish i knew how exactly i have displeased You today. i am now so concerned over your displeasure that i have forgotten whatever else i intended to say in this confession.

i am sad that sometimes when You are displeased, You do not inform me why and i am left to existing without your guidance. You said yesterday that the way by which i must
atone for disobedience is to make my fuckholes available and achieve my goals. i would love to give you my fuckholes but i know i must earn your cock by showing you proper dedication.

Master, please please tell me how to improve as your cumslut so that i am worthy of your Cock once again.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #32 (Pussy Juice Garnish)

Master,

after feeling your pen inserted into my pussy all day long, i was once again extremely horny in the evening and had strong hopes of pleasing you with my holes again. i know i must concentrate on keeping my fuckholes more available to you. i wish i could give you all of them at any angle you fancied.

perhaps i should obtain a dildo and practice inserting it into my asshole so that i can better prepare for your cock. it is true as You say that a true pet would think only of your pleasure and be glad to accept the pain that comes with pleasing Master with a tight fuckhole.

i think i ate pretty well today. i had cereal for breakfast (healthy organic cereal), a salad for lunch and soup and a vegetable wrap for dinner. hopefully i will lose weight over time. i very much want to look more fit for You.

i am cleaning my pen now and trying to get all of the build up out. if anyone else ever tries to use this pen, they will have some serious questions. i do not know how i can produce so much pussy juice! i could probably put it on food as a garnish. i like the way i taste. especially after knowing that my juices have facilitated your use of my pussy. i clean the pen first with my tongue- it's actually the best way of getting into the crevices. and i am reminded of when You allow me to bathe your Cock with my tongue. i love to lick it.

You have ordered me to say while You fucked me, i love your Cock, Sir. i wish to be as devoted to your Cock as possible and i know that You deserve all the devotion i can give. i will sleep now and think of You. am i allowed to masturbate with my fingers or only with the pen?

i will wait for your instruction, but i always want to fuck my pussy after cleaning the pen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #31 (Petite Requirement)

Master,

when i came home today, i was extremely horny as i had kept the pen inserted in my cunt throughout the day. i immediately knelt down besides my bed and masturbated repeatedly. i almost did not have time to go to the gym and get a good workout before it closed, but i new i had to go in order to be a good cumslut, so i wretched the pen from my pussy and went to workout.

unfortunately, i am nearly 110 lbs today. i do not know why i am gaining weight, but i know that i need to make some changes. i must pack my lunch from now on as there are no affordable and healthy places. i think food from the taqueria is making me fat. i will go the gym before work tomorrow and do some good cardio in order to help lose the weight. i do tend to gain weight during the week before my period, so my gain could also be due to normal water retention. i have had fairly wide weight fluctuations in my adult life and i know this is not healthy. i must maintain a low weight.

i know You like lean cumsluts, and i wish to achieve a pleasurable look for You. i also wish to improve my mood and general health for You. i really do think about You all the time and i think about becoming a good pet for You. thank You for being strict with me and telling me to do things that should be common sense, but are not for me. i probably would not have gotten a job if not for You and i probably would not keep this job for more than a year if You did not tell me to commit.

i know i would feel extremely lonely if i felt that no one wanted to listen to my experiences. i am grateful You take so much interest me. i feel i can never thank You enough or give You enough for what You do for me.

i walked by a fetish sex shop today and stepped inside to see the flyers. i saw a few interesting things: a contest for fetish dancers. but i did not see anything about such a community in town. somewhere out there, there is a petite submissive girl who desperately wants another petite girl to Domme her and i will find her.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #30 (Difficult Slut)

Master,

there are so many things about last night that i wish to think about and express that i hardly know where to start. i hope You enjoyed Yourself last night. i can't apologize enough for being a bad cumslut and behaving in an extremely difficult manner when You wanted to use my asshole.

thank You for outlining goals for me. i definitely need Your presence in my life.

thank You for painfully spreading my legs and fucking me hard many times. thank You for letting me hungrily
suck Your Cock several times. i am truly happy when it is in my mouth. thank You for giving me another chance to serve You with my asshole.

You asked why i stopped working out before. there have been two times in my life where i became so depressed that i could no longer function. in these times, it is difficult for me to get out of bed at all. i will curl up into a ball and lay there all day. i do not know why it happens but it runs in my family on my dad's side. maybe its the inbreeding. i am not feeling this way lately and i think i should credit You with much of my motivation to fix my life. at times, i do feel that i am beyond redemption. i probably have actually ruined certain opportunities for myself, but there are still other things i can do.

i really do believe that being a good cumslut will make me a the best person i can be because You are the best Master for me.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #29 (Ownership Reminder)

Master,

i missed You so today. it's terrible to know that You are within the same city but not be able to serve You with my holes.

i grew unbelievably horny today as i have had the pen inside me nearly the entire day. because it kept my pussy so wet, i could not keep it inside as i walked. the pen immediately fell into my panties. i wore a pink skirt today and honestly worried that i would create a huge wet spot on my skirt. i have never soaked my panties so thoroughly that the wetness seeps into my street clothes. i thought of You incessantly because of the pen.

You are actually the only man to ever fuck me on my bed here. now, when i am in my room, i am always reminded of that event. i truly feel as though i exist only as Your cumslut.

i am constantly horny for You and i constantly think of the things You have done to me. i often think of the way You force me to accept Your dick in my asshole. i continually think about the sequence in which You used me last time- how You ordered me to masturbate with the pen first and then stuffed Your dick into my mouth and let me suck every part of it. i loved how You held me down as i came for You and i need You to speak to me as You use my fuckholes.

only You remind me with words what i am to You and what i must do for You.

anyone can stick a dick into a girl, but only You know how to own me. only You can make every inch of me crave to please You throughout the day.

You know, my cousin mentioned how she went to this BDSM club in LA and dressed up in this whole leather get up. her body is the same as mine except that her boobs are bigger and her waist is smaller. too bad we're related and all.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #28 (Jealous Slut)

Master,

thank You very much for pointing me in some direction in my search for a submissive. i am not sure why i seemed to give up before even trying. i apologize for my reluctance and lethargy on the matter. please punish me for my problematic behavior if that would please You. tomorrow, when i have more internet access, i will try and make contacts and take steps forward to finding my sub.

do You think it is possible that You will like her better than me?

i imagine it is very easy to like someone else better than me. i am not feeling well. i am sorry. i’ll stop babbling.

i know i have both fat and skin folds and i will try to get rid of them as much as possible although i have never been completely free of these things.

i fucked myself with the pen today and thought of You. i now think of You whenever i look at my bed and it compels me to lay on it and masturbate. i repeat the words as i do this. i feel myself breaking as i say the words recently. before they mainly excited me and motivated me to become what i chanted. but now the words frighten me again. i am fearful of falling into Your disfavor again for any number of reasons. as i come to feel more and more like Your cumslut, i feel that i am not anywhere near what You deserve in a slave.

i think i very desperately wish to be trained. i agonize over the feeling of being such an
unworthy cumslut- an incomplete cumslut. i fear what i am right now.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #27 (Teabag)

Master,

i have missed You very much today and thought of You frequently. i masturbated frequently as well. i keep Your pen with me in my purse and like to touch it when i am out. if You allow me to, i will keep it inside my wet pussy while i am sitting at work. then, i will definitely be thinking of You.

i enjoyed looking at the pictures You sent. i like seeing what You see and it helps me to understand Your perspective when i see what a natural whore i look like. the pictures also made me want to lose weight and get my hair cut. would You allow me to cut about four inches off?

this time, i think my favorite picture is the one with
Your balls in my mouth. i love to serve You with my mouth- to kiss Your dick, suck it, lick it and also Your balls. i became extremely wet as You allowed me to do so with the pen inside my pussy. it was hard for me not to cum in that state.

i also think about how You told me to hold Your arms as You fucked my asshole. for me, that felt romantic, and i felt safe that way. it is wonderful to feel Your arms around me as You ram me into submission in my asshole. i felt so completely owned when You did so. feeling owned by You makes me feel protected and less fearful of the rest of the world.

i hope You are still pleased with me. i cannot wait to see You when You return. i hope You will find me fit enough to take pleasure in my fuckholes once again.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #26 (Pen Gift for Obedient Pet)

Master,

i am so happy that You were pleased with my progress. i felt wonderful today after You fucked me. thank You very much for letting me cum for You and for my masturbation privileges.

i love the pen gift You gave me. it is the perfect masturbation tool. i fucked my pussy with it for hours yesterday. i think it will not work for very long because it gets so much cum stuck inside it. i try to suck all of my juices off the pen, but there is just so much.

i am so thankful for the pen You gave me. It really is one of the most thoughtful gifts i have ever received. it is so non generic because You took the time to listen to me and know that i like pens especially and very romantic that You gave me a pen that You use as well. it felt so good to know that You are pleased with me somewhat and it really makes me want to be good everyday. i only want to please You.

You are very kind to have given me tasks that are good for me, and it makes me feel like a better person for accomplishing them and a more suitable pet for You. i am so happy that You took pleasure in my fuckholes yesterday. it still really hurts in my ass, and it still really makes me cum hard when i masturbate about it.

i become very horny when i think about how You ordered me to move back towards You, impaling myself, even though i whined of pain. thank You for being stern with me. my asshole gave me so much pain throughout the day, and the pain kept me focused on You. the pain was a constant reminder to me to repeat the words. this made me smile so much that several people on the streets asked me why i had such a big smile on my face.

i think about You all the time, fondly. i would do almost anything for You. i hope You do not make me do dreadful things like serve master erik, who i despise severely. i think it takes a certain lack of self respect and lack of discipline to become obese. certainly, i have my own share of disciplinary problems, but at least i know my place in the world. i am not fit to own someone entirely. i cannot imagine that there is any possible way that master erik can make a positive impact on me.

i will think of You frequently and repeat the words.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #25 (Search For a Slut)

Master,

i have been repeating the words several times over the last few hours and now i think i know why i did not do it before- it makes me miss You intensely. it does keep my horny and keeps my mind in a very submissive state, but it also makes me anxious because i am away from You. normally, when i miss people i call them and talk. but i am not allowed to do this with You and it makes me feel helpless.

i try and console myself by trying to actively serve You, even though i am not in Your presence, by abiding by Your orders. i shaved myself carefully today and i repeated that i am a cum slut several times. i know i must find a submissive to serve me and be presented to You. i am thinking about doing the unthinkable- going to a public fetish related place to look for a way to meet such a girl in person.

there are a lot of colleges. sometimes colleges have unofficial BDSM clubs. young college girls are the best looking. but i have no idea on how i could find such a club. i think that besides me, the online world contains only phoneys. and You don’t like phoneys, i take it.

each hour grows more and more agonizing without You. i have no internet therefore no potential erotic distractions by way of stories or anything. well, i could write my own story. perhaps i shall.

all of me is aching with the desire to serve You. my nipples are so hard and my cunt is so wet. and i am sure nothing besides You can satiate me even if it were allowed.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #24 (Tardy Confession)

Master,

i am sorry to have to send this in the morning. as it is i am asking my roommate for her computer. i really hope she does not come in her room and ask questions. i woke up thinking about You.

i for some reason tried to think erotic thoughts about something else- some romance novel like situation with a prince in a cape (my prince in a cape throws the damsel in distress in a dungeon and tortures her), but i really couldn't. i don't masturbate, but i like to fantasize in my spare time- on the subway, when i lay in bed.

i feel really bad about sending this late. i hope this doesn't anger You further- well, not too much further at least. your methods are sometimes so cruel. so cruel in fact that You deny me Your express cruelty (which is bliss for me) and resort to things i absolutely wish to avoid, like master erik and lack of contact with You.

but i feel wonderful to be able to express my sentiments to You once again. i am already starting to feel constantly horny. i feel as though i once again am living a purposeful life when i write confessions to You and contemplate how much i need to be Your slave. i must go now. please have a wonderful day.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #23 (Truly Undisciplined)

Master,

i have missed You intensely, and i am so happy to be able to write You slut confessions once again. i should first thank You for motivating me to find a job as i do not think i would have tried without Your conditions. just searching has made me feel more confident about my abilities and that makes me even more fond of You.

i very strongly regret being so undisciplined before and causing You such aggravation. i wish i had earned a nice pussy fuck. i often think about how much i want You to fuck me. You last so long--longer than anyone else that has ever fucked me. i wish i could cum for You while You fucked my cunt. but i know i will have to wait longer for this.

i am not at all looking forward to obedience school. i only want to submit to You. other Doms are non existent to me. i understand mentally that my submitting to them is Your will and that it would please You to see this, but emotionally i do not want to. i am somewhat worried that they would be brutal towards me and i don't like excessive pain, but i am inherently bothered by the thought of them touching me. i only yearn to submit to You, Master.

i think about You all the time, these days. when i wake up and whenever something arouses me. if a guy flirts with me, i only think that i wish it were my Master. i want to please You, to be in Your presence in any way- i yearn to be fucked, punished, kissed- any kind of attention You'd be inclined to give. i miss You after one day or after weeks with equal intensity. i don't seem to leave my submissive state. i certainly don't wish to be any other way. i will feel so fulfilled once i am collared at Your feet once more. even though i know i must go through torturous ordeals before i can crouch by You in peace, it is everything to look forward to for me.

i want to be a very good pet so that i can earn Your dick inside my wet pussy and be allowed multiple orgasms. i am going to try and find a petite submissive as right now that is what i can do to please You.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #22 (Girlpet For Servitude)

Master,

i am now more horny than i have ever been in my life right now. today, i began to reflect on the things You did to me this week and i found it extremely difficult not to masturbate. i can't believe that i become so wet from being spanked with a leather strap. i am such a complete slut. it makes me insanely wet to think that You could spank me until i became very wet and then use my wet cunt to lubricate a butt plug.

since i am not allowed to masturbate in Your absence, i am thankful that You allow me a pet of my own.

i want to someday train
my own girlpet that i can present to You as well since You said it would entertain You to see me Domme a girl. i would like to wear a strap on and fuck her hard and order her bark like a dog when she comes.

if You would like i will fuck a girl with a strap on in her ass although i feel bad about that. i know some girls are genuine anal sluts, but if she is not i would worry that i would make her too scared of me.

i think of so many things i want to do to my pet. i want to make her crawl around and pick my panties off the floor with her mouth. i will tell her to do it quickly and that if she is a good little cunt she can earn a spanking. maybe i could name my pet like You have named me. i am not sure what name is good yet. maybe it depends on the pet.

but i still would do all of this only for You. without You i don't really have the motivation to find a girl to dominate. i show and develop my dominant side now because You told me to. i doubt it will ever be even half as gratifying as submitting to You. i only feel complete when You are doing things like forcing me to take Your dick up my ass. i do cum mainly from vaginal penetration so i think being fucked in my ass remains difficult for me to enjoy, but as i grow increasingly fond of the memories and increasingly horny when i move about and feel stretched and pained inside my asshole, i think my craving for the act will overcome everything else. i hope so at least.

i want to be a good pet for You that can cum hard when You demand it, even if the pain is very hard to bare.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #21 (Anal Pain Reflection)

Master,

i hope You had a good day today. you seemed quite busy this week so i hope i will get to be a source of relaxation for You over the weekend. i am now thinking about dominating this girl, and i wonder how it relates to Your process of dominating me. i don't think it is all that similar. right now, the girl i am interested in is interesting to me because of her personality and introspective capacity and not because of her sexuality, which in theory does not at all attract me.

strangely, i am somewhat attracted to the idea of Domming a transgendered man (which i would not do because i think those people are usually messed up and have HIV or something), but i have not been attracted to the idea of Domming an androgynous woman. i might be able to get into it. i must be the biggest weirdo because i am now developing this academic interest in Domming this girl because it goes against traditional norms. she is butch, and i am more femme and domination of an individual seems to often involve feminizing the submissive's sexuality in a degrading patriarchial way even when the submissive is already female--making them shave their pussies, wear little thongs, speak in a girly whispery voice, etc. i kind of like the idea of masculinizing a woman in order to degrade them. in some ways, dominating this girl, or quasi girl or whatever she is, is a form of rebellion against my own submissive nature and against the persona that dominates me (i.e., You).

my ass still hurts, both on the inside and out. sometimes the pain is difficult to bare, but that keeps my cunt wet and very eager to experience Your cock in my asshole soon. perhaps it would hurt even more now that my asshole is already sore and then that would make my cunt even wetter. i like to look at the picture of myself next to the door. i look so feral there, like some domesticated pet, nervously submissive to its owner. i hope i can see You this weekend and serve You in any way You might like.

anyways, while my social personality is not really submissive, it is more submissive than dominant. my sexual personality doesn't have an innate dominant side, but i do have an aggressive side. i think i have always wanted to Domme a girl because i would identify with the pleasure of the submissive and feel vicarious satisfaction through that. but even if a sub could give me orgasm after orgasm, i would still need a man to dominate me. i would still repeat that i am a cum slut and that i need to be trained in my head as a submissive was serving me, i think.

thank You,
cumslut

Slut Confession #20 (Two Plugs)

Master,

i have been thinking all day about being trained this afternoon. it was wondering being on all fours for You. i hope You enjoyed it even though i did whine a bit.

but i try to focus on some positive aspects and remember that You also said that i pleased You well with my mouth. i love serving You with my mouth and am really looking forward to the time i get to taste Your cum again.

i also liked how You pressed Your foot into my fuckholes so You could push the plugs inside of me. my cunt has been wet all evening because of everything You did to me. You do so many things that hurt me so, but now as i fantasize about them, they make me extremely horny and eager to repeat them. i crave Your training, Sir, even though i appear to be plaintive. i hate having my nipples pulled in painful ways, but i thank You for toying with them anyways.

i also dislike being slapped in the face (not because it hurts, but because i am terribly afraid of marks), but given the context of being slapped in the face because i could not keep the butt plug stuffed in my asshole, i feel Your disciplinary actions were quite appropriate for me.

of course, i dislike being used in my asshole and disliked it extremely for some reason today, but i crave such use again as soon as You might desire me. i would love to cum for You with Your cock inside my cunt as well. if i am good, perhaps i can earn this?

Master, do i still make You feel relaxed? content? i want to make You happy. i want only to make You happy. and i like doing chores for You. especially doing them in my thong. i wish i could spend the night with You sometime. it makes me very happy to sleep next to You. i feel very protected that way. i will go to sleep missing You now. if You call, i might not hear You.

afterwards, i felt quite at peace besides Your feet. i wanted to ask if i could massage Your feet (and kiss them but You don't often let me kiss You). but i felt very insecure about myself and i wanted to be near Your arms. i did not feel confident enough to be completely obedient in my attitude. i feel as though You will not believe that i am trainable and will make me go away and so i feel somehow reluctant to give You all of me.

i am happy when You kiss me and pat me on the head and use me roughly.

thank You,
kittyslut