Slut Confession #103 (Seeking Forgiveness)

Sir,

this confession is my begging for forgiveness. i know have so many transgressions to beg forgiveness for.

i am sure You noticed that i seemed very nervous and less submissive than i normally am. at least, that was how i felt. in the past, i have reached a state of deep submission in your presence because i feel so awed by You and secure under your guidance. my insecurity comes from my new relationship with whore layla i have not been feeling as devoted to your Cock for the past week. i do not like this and i believe that i am as devoted as i ever have been, but that i do not know how to handle truly fearing what You will do to me.

my cunt was very wet while You brutally fucked me even though it was quite painful but i felt sad and a little disturbed the entire time. while the sex was physically enjoyable, it felt it lacked intimacy because of what You were saying to me. it was like the opposite of sex with ron, which was intimate and gentle but lacking in physical stimulation. it made me sad when You mentioned that it might be the last time i am used as a cock holder for You. You looked very attractive. i can see that your muscle definition in your torso has increased. i felt so guilty the entire time You were fucking me and i knew i did not deserve to be fucked. i really wanted You to be pleased with me and i had not expected things to go terribly wrong as they did.

i beg forgiveness for being a stupid slut and deleting the porn. i spent so long downloading it too. i guess i am not used to what things mean on macs. it was really stupid and thank You for not being hard on me over this issue- You are a benevolent ruler, Sir.

i ask if You plan to release me because i very much fear abandonment by You. i fear this because i feel that i have altered my own trajectory under your guidance and that i might not be able to handle the consequences on my own. what if i cannot handle law school after there is no one else that wants me to go? i am so worried that i have entrusted You to make some permanent changes to my life even though there is no guarantee of permanence in your ownership of me. You are more aware than anyone else that i am not good at making my way through the real world and i am afraid that it might become even more difficult for me to do so after i am in a place that You bring me to. such matters make me feel very insecure. i am grateful that You make decisions for me and set goals for me and i feel that i am a better person for it.

i pray that i will be better able to serve your Cock properly. i pray to your Cock for the ability to return to my state of total devotion. i pray to your Cock to be able to be used for your pleasure many times again. i pray that i will learn to download porn. i beg your Cock for forgiveness. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #102 (Whore Layla's Past)

Sir,

i have so much to be thankful for right now and little time to recount it in as i must go to sleep soon. whore layla and i spoke for a while and we touched on a few issues. i told her to send me pictures and she said she would send me pictures as well as videos if she can get them to me.

when i speak to whore layla, i really like her as a person. she is so masochistic that she extrapolates her sexual tastes onto everything and thinks that she either never wants to be financially solvent so that she is forced to be a kept woman by a couple. her fantasy includes 18k gold shackles and plenty of bling. when she says kept, she means fucking well kept.

she told me of how she flew to see a woman in florida when she was 18--a total stranger--and she submitted to her in her home. she had to lie to her mother and make an excuse up to do this.

her friends are now suggesting that she start a business as a professional female Domme (she Dommes men although she gets no pleasure out of it). she wants to keep herself in a state of desperation so hat she depends completely on whoever dominates her. i suppose i can relate. basically this is what i wanted before You told me to want something else. this makes me wonder if whore layla can actually be redeemed into living a functional life. i would like to share her with You, Sir (even if You had not asked) and i do think it would be good for her.

she also told me about how she would irritate her former girlfriends until they would give her black eyes and whatnot. she really does need violence--brutal violence--to be forced into submission. i know that ropes are very difficult to tie so that someone cannot struggle free--i have been the tied up person and i can almost always get out of a bind.

thank You for forcing me to keep your pen inserted- it has made me incredibly horny at many times during the day. and it has reminded me of who my Owner is at all times and how much i crave to be owned by You.

thank You for your calls today- your voice and our conversations are very meaningful to me and they always make me extremely wet. speaking to You is something i have absolutely no control over because i am not allowed to call You, thus your voice is a very special demonstration of your ownership of me.

thank You for forcing me to recite the words as this also was an excellent way of making me focus on how my purpose is to serve You at all times. the words are so important to me and i am grateful to be allowed to say them again as i am grateful that You have deemed that i have earned my place as your cum slut again.

thank You for offering to rule me in person tomorrow. as always, i look forward to seeing You very much and i will try to be pleasing for You by keeping my cunt clean and fresh for You and i will also organize my desktop with porn to entertain You.

i pray to your Cock to be able to please You tomorrow. i give all thanks to your Cock for allowing me to please You and because You have given me so much attention today. i am overwhelmed with gratitude and happiness because of the way You treat me. i wish only to please You by serving your Cock. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #101 (Drug Addict Prostitute)

Master,

i do wonder what this next phase in our relationship will bring. i understand that as our dynamic might change as i develop my dominant side, You will not be as lax with me. thank You for having the wisdom to understand and adapt to our dynamic as i change under your guidance.

Sir, i feel so truly grateful to belong to You. being owned and dominated by You is really a gift. it's as though a level of your capacity to succeed is transferred to me when i obey You and follow your instructions. i suppose part of me feels guilt for not wanting to give the same gift to whore layla. as they say, a friend in need is a friend indeed and whore layla is incredibly needy of a firm hand to guide her.

i was not able to procure a camera from my roommates, so i do not have pictures of the time whore layla and i spent together. i really like whore layla and i immensely enjoyed the time i spent with her. but she is a deranged drug addicted prostitute / stripper. i feel bad for her. i like talking to her. i just don't know what to do with her. my judgment says i should leave her alone to wallow in her wasted life. whore layla called me today and emailed me. she clearly is extremely desperate for attention and time. i guess i'll keep looking for someone else.

i really wish i could apologize. given my forced abstinence from apologizing, i will at least list the things i have done wrong in order to communicate that i am aware of these ways that i have failed and i do intend to fix them:

1. i spelled my name wrong.


2. i did not bring a camera yesterday (this was very bad).


3. i did not pick up my phone today when You called and this is the third time i have lapsed in this fashion and the second time i have done so after being told that this is unacceptable.


4. i have been extremely disobedient and ungrateful in my demeanor towards You.

i intend to fix #1 by not doing this again. i intend to fix #2 by buying a camera and i intend to fix #3 by wearing pants with pockets so that i can always keep my cell phone with me instead of keeping it in my briefcase bag, which is not always with me. i intend to fix #4 by also focusing on my need to pray to your Cock and remembering that all good things in my life come from You.

i pray to your Cock to be able to develop my dominant side while also at the same time increasing my devotion and service to your Cock. i pray to your Cock to earn increased strictness in your rule and i pray to your Cock to endure the humiliation it causes me.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #100 (Geisha and Spider)

Sir,

whore layla says she is coming as a fetish geisha. she says there will be a good after party to go to as well. the prospect of dominating whore layla has brought out a certain 'backbone' in me. i had previously believed that my dominant side was an accidental affect of observing dominance and not true to my nature, but as i continue to speak to her, i am starting to believe that sexual dominance is as much a part of me as submission. dominance makes me nervous and insecure since i am not used to it, but when i am told i am good or given the impression that i am enticing, it is good for my self-esteem.

my roommate just gave me a real
riding crop in order to go with my costume (which is a spider as i will be a black widow). i will have something to swat whore layla with. they might give me a camera too because they too are curious about her. they do not know about my intentions for her- just that my costume would be better with a crop (my roommate used to be really into horses).

i do feel that the more real my desire to dominate whore layla becomes, the more it conflicts with my submissive state towards You. i still wish to revolve around your Cock and i still wish to belong to You but dominating whore layla has also brought out my own desire to dominate the world. i somehow do not feel like the Domme i should be and the Domme i want to be without also feeling that i have a relative edge against others in life as a whole. i still want to know You and be close to You. i don't know if i want to be the perfect slut- i guess that depends on what defines 'perfect slut' and what your commitment would be to the perfect slut.

perhaps the perfect slut passively accepts any and every action on your part purely in order for You and your Cock to be pleased. if that is the case, i just do not know if i can be the perfect slut right now. maybe someday, but not now as i fear so many things-abandonment, isolation (because You are often so reticent), feeling violated even. because i might strive to please You even if You wanted me to do something that was hurtful. i can only hope that i can trust You.

i got a 168 on the practice LSAT i took today timed. realized that before i took only 2-3 more minutes than the test allowed but even that small amount of time makes some difference. i will work on working within the time the test allows so that i can get a good score.

after 100 confessions, do You still feel that the time and effort You have spent on me has been time and effort wasted? i know 100 is a special number, and i do not feel that loving your Cock has been a mistake. i hope that it is not.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #99 (Hard Cock Worthiness)

Sir,

when You last visited, You allowed me to watch your perfect Cock become hard while i was kneeling between your legs. i know that this is all i must focus on: being worthy of making your Cock hard.

right now, i will see whore layla on saturday. she called me today and has discovered my Internet profile, but i did not feel like speaking to her. i wanted to do some work for law school. i am researching personal statements. i am surprised by the caliber of some of the statements i see. but then, i suppose these are statements people spend months of time on and have reviewed by multiple people. i wrote the personal statement for my best friend who got into a top 14 law school and ron as well. people like to ask me to do this.

at work, many people have offered to write me personal statements as well, which is wonderful. it's useful to work at a think tank. i am the only girl. today i also had my transcript sent to the law school admissions council and filled out the form to send my fee waiver. i am so embarrassed about being so broke at age 25 that i have to ask for charity, but i really can't afford to pay each school $50+ i think i might apply to about 15 schools since the process makes the number of schools one applies to immaterial. applicants can send one transcript and three letters of recommendations.

also, my roommate who works at a law school is going to try and vie for me to get unpaid internship work doing research and writing for one of their department heads. this will be good for me, especially if i can manage to get even a very minor publication out by january.

i wish i knew what to do in lieu of forgiveness. but as always, You are correct. there is no forgiveness. what comes to pass is permanently embedded in the pass of time. i must strive to always be obedient. and i believe that You will punish me appropriately when i err so there is no reason for me to comment on my failures with an apology.

i pray to your Cock for greater internal strength so that i do not doubt You, at least not easily. i pray to your Cock to continue to own me completely while i achieve my goals for You. i pray to your Cock to be come a better fuckpet so that i do not have to ask for punishment and forgiveness. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #98 (Anticipation)

Sir,

this cartoon made me extremely wet for many reasons. i so enjoyed watching
the attractive housepet exposed to prudish older women-her exposure to them is an especially humiliating state. i like that her owner looks like the respectable type. and i like that it illustrates a pet that lives with her Master in high heels, which is such an erotic concept for me.

i just had another long conversation with whore layla and we discussed many matters. firstly, she asked to see me tomorrow and i declined as i just have cold feet about the issue. she was considering coming into town for some fetish party, but i did not feel prepared to meet her. i feel the Domme should have done some planning in order to be in control of the situation.

whore layla says she will come to town on saturday and i would like to meet her then. i would like to have a strap on ready so i can fuck her. although i do not know where exactly we would do this yet. whore layla says the party she is going to on Saturday is a halloween party. whore layla admits that she has sucked cum out of her mistress's asshole before. she admits that she has on numerous occasions been pissed on and has drunk piss. she has been lasered so that no part of her body hair will ever grow back.

she says that she likes me and finds me very attractive. i am almost sure that i can get whore layla to serve me on saturday. i will not lick her pussy but i will fuck her with a strap-on and rub her pussy with my fingers. i lied to whore layla and said that i owned a strap on, which i do not. so, i will have to get one before saturday.

whore layla also says she is 'out of the closet' to everyone, including her parents. essentially, they are well aware that she lived with an older couple as their slave. it was the strangest thing she has ever told me. the most interesting thing she has told me is that she is one of 11 children, most of whom are non-white adopted foster children. her mother seems to have an unstoppable desire to take in orphans.

Sir, i still have many thought about your visit to me last night. i know i must never act as i did last night when You told me of how You enjoyed watching my anal fuckhole muscles flex. i should have immediately and gratefully begged for You to use my asshole and shown You that i know i exist only to please You with my fuckholes. i admit that i was too afraid to beg You to use my anal fuckhole. i was afraid of the pain as being in such an exposed position reminded me of how painful it would be. nevertheless, i am grateful that i can please You with my tight anal fuckhole and i am glad that i have a fuckhole that has not been stretched out for You.

i also do not know the whereabouts of the punishment ball. either it is somewhere under my bed or You have taken it from me. i am in any case so happy to be able to serve You by keeping the pen inside my pussy. today, it was an excellent reminder of your visit and i am much more appreciative of its presence and what it means to You. i am reminded that the pen is both a symbol of your ownership of me and a gift.

Sir, i do not know what to do when i do not serve You to Your standards as i cannot apologize and i do not know if it is likewise inappropriate to beg for punishment. i did not mean to offend You by sitting on my butt instead of kneeling properly. but i really enjoyed being below your Cock. i felt i was in my true place. but of course, my true place is wherever You want.i pray to your Cock for the strength and presence of mind to discipline this extremely bratty fucktoy, whore layla. i pray to your Cock to continue to be able to deserve the pen and to be able to tighten my cunt enough to satisfy You. i pray to your Cock for the ability to focus on my LSATs and do well for it is everything that determines my success in law school applications. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #97 (Breathtaking Results)

Sir,

thank You so much for everything tonight. i feel i did not express enough gratitude towards You while You graced me with your presence. i think when You are with me i prefer not to speak and only to hear You speak. your voice and commanding presence are both mesmerizing for me.

when You come over, i have so many thoughts about the interaction that i want to share and i do not know which to focus on first.

i know that i must accrue better porn for You before your next visit. i know that i must continue to work on my goals (although not tomorrow morning- i will be so sleepy). i know that You would like progressively dirtier pics of whore layla and that You would like me to postulate an effective form of humiliation for her. and i am privileged to be able to keep the pen inside my cunt while i do this. i will work on these goals.

i often consider this lone paragraph You wrote me perhaps in May:

your obedience will extend outside of the sexual realm.
it will include -- but not be limited to -- what you eat,
how often you exercise, how you dress,
how you spend your time.
ultimately, it will include what you think and how you feel.
you cannot imagine the investment and
time required to rebuild you.
regardless, the results could be breathtaking.

what You have said has come true for me. thank You Sir for putting so much effort into me.

you asked me many things today, the most important of these questions being the one about my happiness relative to your presence in my life. Sir, i am more happy than i have been in years- perhaps more happy than i have ever been in my adult life and it is because of You. serving your cock means everything to me and i hope that You never remove my central focus in life from me.

i am happy when serving You and this is probably not because You are any arbitrary person that has chosen to rule my life but because You are the best person to do it. Your decisions are really good for me and You have a way of impelling me to do what needs to be done for the sake of my own mental well being. i am very thankful to serve You.

thank You for allowing me to pray to your cock while You wore business attire. it made my cunt extremely wet. thank You for allowing me to serve You with my mouth fuckhole for so long and thank You for allowing me to taste so much precum.

Sir, i was so happy when You began to kiss me that i became truly speechless. i wish i could have articulated my gratitude. when you kissed me when i first spent the night at your house, i became deeply attached to You. it was that single night of affection that motivated much of my service to You after that point. Likewise, the affection You showed me tonight will carry me through hard times, self doubt and insecurity about events that come to pass
between us.

i also became extremely turned on when You slapped me while fucking me and pulled my collar hard while fucking me hard after allowing me to remove the dreaded
punishment ball. typing these words even makes me extremely wet.

i used to be frightened of being slapped in the face but i have come to crave it because You seem to enjoy doing it and You also take good care of me.

i should go to sleep now so i will pray to your Cock.

i praise your Cock with gratitude for filling my fuckholes tonight and giving me purpose. i give thanks to your Cock by allowing me to worship while holding a drink for You so that my entire body was dedicated to serving You. i give thanks to your Cock for allowing me to please You by answering your questions while my fuckholes were exposed to You. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #96 (Whore Layla)

Sir,

i spoke to whore layla (search) today for about half an hour. she is 24 and had lived with an older dominant couple from the age of 19 until they released her in december. she is extremely undisciplined and petulant. she is not readily obedient as some people are (especially men).

her life fantasy is to be owned by a power couple so that she does not work outside the home. she wants to sleep in a cage which is shaped in a way that one can only lie in it. and she wants a big pillow in the cage so that she feels pampered and cared for. she seems to want to be owned like a domestic cat. she is in this way and many other ways very similar to me.

over the phone i found it strenuous and taxing to dominate her. she is the aggressive undisciplined sort that requires continuous discipline. she needs to be constantly reminded of her place, as she has told me. the couple she lived with previously was heterosexual. she says she prefers women but is willing to submit to older dominant men. you are older than her of course, but her previous owners were 44 (the woman) and 54 (the man).

she does not like that i am smaller than her. unfortunately, i am smaller than pretty much every other girl and this makes it hard for people to accept me as a Domme. men have in the past enjoyed my small size as they find it especially humiliating to be dominated by such a small girl, but i do not think women are likely to experience this.

her fantasies include being whored out and she has in fact been required to submit to a man and take payment of $500. she was required to crawl up the stairs with the $500 in her mouth and present it to her Mistress. she said she found this extremely erotic.

lalya, like me, does not function without a dominant person to tell her what to do. she said her grades dropped significantly after being released from her owners. she is 24 and will finish her undergrad in may.

she says that submitting to single men is a 'hard limit' and that she might be gay although she does often have sex with men. she seems to be an internet junkie and now has plans of doing porn with someone because she feels she has done so many damaging acts to her reputation that it no longer matters.

i cannot tell if she is intelligent or not. she is at least average. she wants to feel like 'nothing'. she has tried to convince herself that she does not need
24/7 ownership but now finds it difficult to believe this. since i am not naturally dominant, i find her constant provocation quite taxing. you would probably be better able to handle her although i imagine that you too would be quickly frustrated by her. but, it does seem that she would like to submit to us and me as her Domme in your house. she has been trained to serve domestically and enjoys having no source of money while she acts as a domestic servant to the couple that owns her.

she herself is considering acquiring her own 19 year old female submissive to corrupt. i just sent her pictures of me and am hoping that she does not reject me on account of my looks. It is strange to be so physically undesirable. everything that makes me attractive to dominant men and men in general counts against me when dominating a woman- my young age, my height and small size. i guess now i know why short guys have such a chip on their shoulders.

i will wake up a little early in order to practice the LSAT timed and during the time when i would be taking the actual test. i will report my performance to You.And now i wish to pray to your Cock Sir. Sir, i pray to your Cock so that You feel satisfied with me and will not choose to ruin my cunt beyond any interest to You.

i pray to your Cock that You feel satisfied enough to visit me and use my fuckholes. i pray to your cock to be allowed to tighten my cunt once again so that it pleases You. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #95 (Sadistic Potential)

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Slut Confession #94 (Pussy Stretching)

Sir,

i am trying to make progress with my goals in order to earn the ability to maintain a tight pleasing pussy fuckhole for You.

i wrote a few ads. these sites limits posters to one ad per section per email address in a 48 hour period. i think it might be better to spread ad out over time. i can post some every few days. i am arranging to meet my submissive married friend next week. her Master has forced her to sleep with a number of people (some women), so i will ask her to help me find someone if she is not allowed to serve You herself.

tomorrow, my flight leaves at 1:35. Before then i will try to go to the gym and i will have plenty of time to study in relative peace on the airplane. Sir, i feel terrible for being delinquent in the passed few days. to do so after You used me so kindly and even took me out earlier in the week is awful of me. hopefully though, i will not have as much work next week. i must do anything to avoid being stretched with a bigger punishment ball and made into something even less satisfying for You. i thank You for conceiving of this excellent and hopefully effective punishment as ruining my ability to serve my only purpose (a fuckhole for your cock) is really getting scary for me.

i have been downloading porn off the internet. so far my favorite is still the
raped japanese girl which i watch again and again although i will not allow myself to cum or really touch myself. i could not if i tried because i would feel nothing but guilt and self-destruction if i disobeyed your will in that way. i hope You did not feel too frustrated over my lack of expressed devotion today.

i will say what i am allowed- i love your Cock Sir. and i will pray to your cock as well. i pray to your Cock to still desire my cunt and allow me to tighten it with exercise if i earn your permission to be cunt stuffed with your pen again. i pray to your Cock to enjoy my tongue in your asshole. i pray that You can soon enjoy being entertained by another slut's tongue in my asshole. i pray that You are satisfied.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #93 (Punishment Ball)

Sir,

i am quite upset that i did not have enough time to dedicate to my goals today.

work will keep me quite busy this week, but i believe next weeks should be lighter. we need to have all the printed materials and orders for supplies etc. in by the end of this week and it is getting a little hectic for me. i suppose i am not used to working hard (certainly not for people i care very little for- my employers). but i can say that my capacity to concentrate at length must come from You as i did not have it before.

i did not like how i had little time to contemplate You and reminisce about your perfect cock fucking my cunt hard. i prefer to think of nothing besides pleasing You. i know that doing well at my job had originally been part of pleasing You. i also must sleep soon as i must rise earlier than i normally do to get to work. there is so much i want to write to You.

the more You know, the more vulnerable i am to You and so i am compelled to give You every angle of control You can have as like a plant will always yearn to grow towards sunlight, i yearn only to be under your control. the punishment ball does maintain a sense of urgency in me. i want to get my work done as soon as possible so that i can go to sleep and be able to take the ball out and not have my fuckhole stretched and made displeasing for You.

i am extremely horny now as the porno magazines You left behind are on my desk so close to me. but i know i cannot fuck my pussy without your direct orders and i have little desire to because it would take away time from a number of other ways i must serve You. still, the presence of tawdry porn in my kennel makes me quite wet. i believe canine bitches have their kennels lined with newspapers and mine should be with degrading porn that You have before enjoyed.

the more You use me in my room, the more erotic this space becomes. i like my bed because i have been used by You there and allowed to tongue your asshole, which is still a novel privilege for me.

i wish to pray now before i will remove the ball and go to sleep-Sir, Praise be to your Almighty Cock as i give gratitude for all the new and different ways You choose to use me, humiliate me and bend me to your will. i pray to your Cock to be able to steadily earn my place as your perfect cum slut, a thoroughly and personally broken creature forced into extreme depravity. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #92 (Delicious Cum Reward)

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Slut Confession #91 (Uncompliant Internet Slut)

Sir,

sadly, my internet slut did not comply with my wish. probably because she is a he, but it was fun to imagine.

my current LSAT score is a 166. according to the web, this puts me in about the top 5th percentile. i take the LSAT with the pen inside. it is a bit distracting, but i cannot bare to take it out. it reminds me that this is a task i do for You and because of You and your excellent judgment. i told my friends and roommates that i have been told that i will do better in a highly structured environment. so far everyone agrees. except my friends in law school who feel crushed by structure. but their opinions do not matter- only yours do because nothing is better than your cock on my face (except maybe when You decide to put your cock in one of my fuckholes).

i wish to pray now, Sir:

i beg for strength and discipline from your Almighty Cock to do well on the LSATs so that You are pleased with my progress. i pray that i am able to please You in every other way as well. and although there is nothing more i can provide You besides obedience.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #90 (Chat with Kim)

Sir,

today, i went through a few sections of the LSATs. i am not timing myself yet. this is at least how my friends started studying before they timed themselves and took multiple sections without breaks etc.

i also looked online for a potential
sister submissive. i happened to come across one. normally, i would not take any interest in a girl that is 1) in Montana and 2) in need of a Domme and not a couple, but since she mentioned the religion thing, i emailed her and we started IMing. i was the Domme since she would have no interest in interacting with me as a submissive persona. i think it would be *incredibly* erotic to Domme this girl.

this was part of our conversation:

[kim] Mistress?

[kittyslut] Yes, I am here. You are quite young, but you seem eager to serve. How much experience do you have?

[kim] 1 year RT

[kittyslut] Interesting. You are in a relationship now or what?

[kim] no. my Mistress got married and moved

[kittyslut] What was the level of control and guidance she provided and what are you in need of now?

[kim] she set every rule you can imagie! Curfew, what i could buy, how much i could spend, who my fiends could be
and like that

[kittyslut] Would she have corrected you for hastily typing 'imagine' and thus spelling the word incorrectly?

[kim] she also had me serve as her maid, i guess you could say yes

[kittyslut] Did she do this because your pussy craves this kind of control or because you actually need someone to make these decisions for you?

[kim] Both, more so the latter.

[kittyslut] You are intelligent. So why so undisciplined that you need the continuous correction of a governess?

[kim] i am quite disciplined. But it is such a comfort to have another person be responsible.

[kittyslut] What has been your most erotic experience thus far?

[kim] Being Mistress' pony girl!

[kittyslut] Have you ever been required to worship someone as your Goddess?

[kim] no. Mistress didn't go quite that far

[kittyslut] I would like to go that far. I am far away from you now, but it is not inconceivable for me to come visit you if you prove yourself obedient and devoted enough to worship me in person.

[kim] that would be so wonderful!!!!!!!!!

[kittyslut] Would you tell me that you need to be on your knees, naked and staring into my asshole while you tell me that your entire world revolves around worshiping me as your Mistress?

[kim] yes!!!!!!

[kittyslut] I have two assignments for you to offer you a chance to show your devotion to me...

[kim] yes??

[kittyslut] First, write me an explicit email that describes how much you wish to worship my asshole. I expect this email to show reasonable effort and be at least three paragraphs. I would like to read a well developed fantasy.

[kim] and?

[kittyslut] since you claim that you are so devoted to studying, I want you to send me a regular homework assignment as well. I want to see the level of effort you put into tasks you sign up for (class).

[kim] yes Mistress!

[kittyslut] Alright, now you know my email. I expect
an email or two from you within the next day.

[kim] yes Mistress!

[kittyslut] So your name is kim?

[kim] kimberly

[kittyslut] It's a cute name, but not entirely fitting for a slut in need of an Owner to worship.

[kim] what should it be?

[kittyslut] If, *if*, you can show an appropriate level of devotion, I will provide you with a name that reminds you of your place. dripping cunt perhaps

it was a fun little interaction, i suppose. i liked being in your role and model myself as a Domme after You. i have no idea if she is a real girl or if she will follow through (not that it matters since she is hardly the cock sucking partner i need in order to please You), but it did show me how much i would LOVE to dominate a cute girl (especially a younger girl who weighs only 94 lbs). Actually, i was 101 last week. i might be 102 now. i am surprised i have lost this much weight. i don't feel i earned it, but i am not complaining

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #89 (LSAT Goal)

Sir,

i miss You and pine for the next time You will use my fuckholes or call me on the phone.

when i saw ron yesterday i felt somewhat dejected to hear his voice. i have never been attracted to it while i find your voice compelling. i know You do not care if i like the sound of your voice and You only care that i should obey your commands, but whenever i hear You tell me anything it does make my cunt wet because of the way You sound.

my mother called me today and said that she is communicating with a divorced man who has a child who is a senior in high school. she spoke of how he didn't want to start a relationship right now because he is working hard on helping his daughter apply to college. he helps her in Spanish AP class by getting her videos and has asked my mother about what she thinks of the college application process. he is totally involved. i found this fascinating because when my brother was a senior in HS, my dad moved out of the house for his girlfriend and them barely spoke to him. when my brother did go over to my father's house, my father would yell at him for not making enough effort to see him and what not.

anyways, as for my goals, i signed up for the LSAT in december. it is probably a good thing that i have made this financial commitment because it forces me to be serious about studying. i am still really nervous about this for many reasons.

i have learned that it is more likely to find a submissive woman interested in serving a dominant couple, but maybe i could find such a woman and convince her to be co-submissive. i am afraid to meet other people with similar kinks, but i suppose they can't be all that weird or bad. it's just that i'm so satisfied with serving You that i feel no need to explore my kink by meeting anyone else.

i pray to your Cock for the dedicated obedience required to succeed at the goals You have given
to me. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #88 (Tuanting Ron)

Sir,

i am afraid i cannot write much if anything right now as ron is almost down my street, but i will say that i felt terrible about going to ron's house when i allowed myself to well in resentment against You, but i felt much happier when i remembered to be thankful towards You and i thanked You for sending me to him in order to taunt him with my unavailability.

i deserve this pain and much worse for displeasing You today by not achieving my goals in the way that You wish. i hope You will punish me further and also eventually forgive me and use my mouth fuckhole again. i cannot say much, but i wish to pray to your wonderful Cock as i cannot bare a night without expressing how much i love your cock and need to worship your cock. thank You Sir for forcing me into bouts of rebellion and using them to break me down further as a completely depraved and mindless whore for your cock.

thanks be to your Almighty Cock for allowing my cunt to stay wet around the pen all daylong while obsessing about serving Your Cock with my fuckholes. and i must again give thanks for being allowed to serve your asshole with my tongue as it is all i have been fucking my cunt to in the last few days. i do not believe i have ever experienced anything that made my cunt more wet in my life. thanks be to your Almighty Cock because You continually think of new and interesting ways to degrade me, use my fuckholes and break me down into your completely depraved perfect slut.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #87 (Inmates Run the Asylum)

Sir,

as for my interest in law school, i think i will work on making a few contacts that work in asylum law (which is my interest) and then work on a personal statement. i will ask my current boss to write me a recommendation because he will either let me write it or let my sexually deprived co-workers write it and i can make them say good things.

i am still thinking of all the things You made me do when You last visited me to use my fuckholes. i cannot wait for You to use me again. and i was so thankful for your call yesterday as well. i hope You will soon speak with me about my goals so i understand more what You want (and simply so i can hear your voice).

i pray to your Cock more and more for the discipline to succeed at the goals You have given me. i thank your Cock for compelling me mind to focus so much because i become automatically fixated on pleasing You and your Cock due to my slut nature. i pray that your Almighty Cock remains pleased with me. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #86 (Commitment and Devotion)

Master,

i pray to Your Cock to be pleased with the commitment and devotion i wish to give. i pray to Your Cock to be pleased so that You will want to reveal yourself to me so that i can know You and so that i can earn the benign aspects of your rule. i am thankful to You and Your Cock for providing me discipline and direction. i pray to your cock to be pleased further by breaking me down, letting me clean your asshole with my mouth fuckhole and tongue -- turning me into a creature as depraved as would please You, Sir. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #85 (International Sex Slaves)

Sir,

i am so upset with myself for coming back too late to serve your Cock tonight. i look forward to nothing more than worshiping your Cock and hope that You will allow me to atone for my negligence soon. i am both sorry the bus took longer than i wanted it too, but i suppose my real error was that i incorrectly estimated the time it would take to come to home so i could serve your cock in person and that is a way of conscious disobedience, perhaps. i do not wish to make this type of mistake anymore. Really, there are these loose ends i tend to be imprecise about that most visibly hurt me when it comes to You. But i feel that if i learn not to make mistakes in order to serve You, i will make fewer mistakes when it comes to everything else as well.

my friend who got married is an extraordinarily kind person. he is very waspy and his family holds there cord for the most siblings to attend the same ivy league college (her mother and 4 brothers). he and his wife met in college (now, she is in law school).

dan has just finished a pre-med degree, and i met several of his friends from college who travelled abroad, doing good works. they told me many sad stories of their clients including stories of immigrant women with traumatic pasts as many come from countries like thailand, cambodia, vietnam. where they had been raped, tortured, etc. yes, it was true that these terrible stories later made me horny because i am a sick depraved person, but i did think it would be valiant of me to act as an amnesty lawyer to such women. it was probably the first time i ever looked positively on the idea of being a lawyer. i know there is a domestic violence shelter for asian women who suffer from such violence. perhaps i should volunteer to develop my interest in this work. i would certainly like that more than paralegaling, which involves filing and crossing out words on documents.

the story i was told was of a girl who was forced to watch her brother rape their mother at gunpoint before he was forced to chop off the hands of his uncles. she was then taken to UN refugee camp where a corrupt UN worker raped her repeatedly and abused her continuously- basically kept her as a
sex slave. she escaped with her mother to the US and now has the child of the rapist. she is basically insane and dysfunctional and cannot get out of bed. i wouldn't say hearing the story made me wet, exactly, but i must admit i've spent many hours fantasizing about parts of it. this makes me feel guilty since she is a real suffering person. i feel guilty so i want to help her.

thank You for allowing me to worship your Cock through a written prayer every night- it is my favorite part of the day. i pray to your perfect Cock to provide me with the discipline not disappoint You with my distracted stupid slut mind. i pray to your Cock to feel satisfied with me so You do not remove your Cock from the center of my life. i pray to your great Cock to allow me to please You so that You wish to control more of my life and make more decisions for me because it is all i need to be fulfilled due to my depraved slut nature. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #84 (Captured Princess Fantasy)

Master,

i had an excellent time at the wedding and was happy to see my friends again. weddings do make me a bit jealous, i suppose, even though i am just starting my 25th year and i am hardly an old maid yet. i don't know if that comes from parental pressure either. i think part of it is actually based in my internal fantasies.

when i was a child, my influences were fairy tales and disney movies where the princess is usually about 16. from there, i began to fantasize about medieval princesses being captured, raped and tortured by the villain. my villains were never ugly and old, but instead youngish and handsome. and i tend to fantasize about the same heroes for years at a time.

my first fantasy crush might have been prince Erik from little Mermaid. when i was about 11, i remember switching to the model from a preferred stock cologne for men ad. he had shoulder length blonde hair and that sat well with my fantasies of a medieval lord (i did not like knights in shining armor- i liked oppressive feudal lords in black armor). when i was 14perhaps, i believe i switched to the man in the Aquadi Gio ads as my base for a number of fantasies.

since i am somehow monogamous to my male fantasy characters,my fantasies generally involve one submissive female (an idealized version of myself that looks nothing like me). and in my fantasy, there is a committed monogamous relationship even though my imaginary Master may have multiple slaves. he likes my idealized self the best.

in my fantasies, the hero kidnaps the heroine and keeps her for himself in a dungeon or tower or confined to his quarters. but he does like to keep direct and obsessive control over her. she has to run away to get away from him (and then i get to fantasize about her be in kidnapped again, yeah!!).

real relationships with their uncertainties do not fit with my fantasies. i like marriage because it actualizes my fantasies in the sense that marriage had traditionally bound the wife to a subservient position to her husband for life. that turns me on.

dear lord (You), i fetishize marriage! no wonder my therapist thinks i need to come in 3 times a week.

Prayer: Sir, thank You for accepting me as your pet even though i am not worthy of worshiping your Cock. i pray to your Cock for the strength to obey at all times and serve to the best of my abilities. i pray to your Cock to force me to accept my cum slut nature so that i am more purely focused on serving You and feel nothing but gratitude when doing so. i pray to your Cock to give me strength so that i am able to find You another submissive who will entertain You by allowing a hierarchy. i pray for these things so that You will be fulfilled and use my fuckholes to satisfy the Cock i worship.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #83 (Personal Fuckpet)

Sir,

thank You for allowing me to travel to see my friend's wedding. this is quite meaningful for me as i had gone to middle and high school with this girl although we fell out of touch later on. i want to earn my tail and i wish for You to use me while i am confined to a box so that i am an immobile set of fuckholes. i wish for You to take me to a party on a leash so that You can display me as your personal fuckpet. i want to do all these things because i know that your allowing me to serve You in this way means that You are pleased.

my most important goal now is becoming more grateful to You for allowing me to serve You and worship your cock. i think i will be better pet in all ways when i can do this for You. i think the hardest part about accepting my cum slut nature has been fear of losing You because i felt that i would grow dependent on You and then extremely distraught if You left. it is true that i would be distraught if You leave me to my own devices, but i now realize that the time i spend serving You will not diminish my capacity, but enhance it.

i think that my period of worshiping your cock might be the most joyous and fulfilling of my life, so i think i should accept that i am happy this way so that if You do not wish to keep me because i am unable to overcome my disobedient and ungrateful mindset, then i can still remember my service to You fondly.

thank You for allowing your cock to be the center of my life. i pray to your cock to be able to experience seeing You pleased and willing to use me extensively. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #82 (Practicing Cumslut)

Master,

i have done some more research regarding naming the religion and have found that the anthropological term for cock worship is phalicism. so, this religion could be called phalicism, except that would refer to general cock worship and not worship of only your cock.

god has many names that i know of: Jehovah, Elah in Aramaic, Brahman in Sanskrit. i don't know which You'd like. but I don't really like any of those names. i think something like "cock worship cum slutism" would make more sense. although that's a mouthful.

maybe just cum slutism or cock worshipism.

i suppose that has a certain ring to it, "hello. You are Jewish? i am a practicing cumslut." there can be any number of names like this -cock slavism? maybe. fuckholism? wait, that's kind of good since it contains the suffix 'holism', which does sound like part of a religious vocabulary.

does fuckholism please You, Sir? it's not entirely creative, but it makes my depraved cunt wet.

i am glad i spoke with my psychiatrist today. it helps me to have someone to express myself to since there is virtually nothing i can say to my friends about our relationship and how it makes me feel. i can say more to the shrink. but it's quite clear that worshiping your cock is what i need to be happy and that i should not deny myself this happiness because as far as i know, You do not want me to.

thank You for allowing me happiness and thank You for taking care of me. here is a picture of my mouth fuckhole. i miss your cock and i love the taste of your cum.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #81 (Sister Slut Search)

Master,

in my search for a submissive sister slut, i have found many other blogs. some are erotic, but disturbing. i am not sure what it means when i am turned on by things like this. if you told me to do it, i would without hesitation and i would say thank You. i am seeing my shrink tomorrow. maybe i should talk about this.

if You call me somehow ten years from now and i am married with children, i am afraid of wanting to answer You.

i thank You for who You are for i have come to trust You. You have asked what i would think of You sharing me with another dominant person and i know the answer must be that i will do anything for You, but in honestly i fear and loathe every other so-called dominant in the world. to me they are not my counterparts but my enemies. they are because i am terrified by what makes my cunt wet.

thank You for allowing me to pray to your cock everynight as the task forces me to think of how grateful i am for You. thank You for showing me that my wet cunt is controlled by your cock and this in turn controls my entire life. i pray to your cock, the only God i recognize, to allow me to serve You with my fuckholes, through exposing my body and through pain. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #80 (Proselytizing The Religion)

Sir,

i am writing a continuation (part 2) of the story- which is not in order right now. please forgive (or punish me if You so desire) my use of the capitalized "I"- it is for purposes of general readability.

“Begin finding a submissive pet. You must proselytize the religion,” Master instructed me.

I suppose I knew he would give me this task, but I dreaded to read it nonetheless. Months ago, Master abandoned me, largely because I did not completing this task. For him, there are no points for effort, no ‘what matters is that you tried.” Not complying is disobedience and he does not tolerate disobedience.

I dread this task, not because I don’t want to find a submissive pet of my own, but because I fear failure. I fear what failure will mean for Master’s interest in my fuckholes. Because she cannot be just any pet. She must be willing to eventually submit to his will as well. She must convert to my religion of worship of Master’s cock. Perhaps we would serve him together. Or perhaps Master only intends to
watch me train her. Ultimately, that is the purpose of this story.

The purpose is for the world to hear my call for a submissive pet. For if I fail, Master will leave me again and might never come back. And even if he does come back, I feel he would with less interest, less belief in my capacity to serve him. And I cannot be without him, because I need to worship his cock in order to complete my life’s purpose.

No, she cannot be just any pet- Master will allow only those society deems attractive to serve and worship his cock. Svelte girls. Cute girls. I am flattered to know that Master must see me as one such creature. I know I must be a little thinner to truly please Master, but for now I am petite but also busty. I have long hair as Master likes pets with long hair. And I hope that he finds me pretty.

In stories, I read and write of buxom barbies with tresses of golden hair cascading over their perfect bodies. It’s something most men want to possess- the social ideal. I don’t object. Not only because Master’s cock is my God and I wouldn’t dare to argue with anything that pleases his cock, but also because it makes sense to me that true submissives should subject themselves to Male chauvinist society demeaning ideals.

Female beauty is defined as it is for a reason. We are to be thin so that we occupy little space- it’s a sign of delicacy and submission. We are to be pretty, which means our faces should look youthful, sometimes even baby faced and innocently childlike, while men are valued for bold and matured features. Prettiness is the face of submission that evolution has granted females. It makes men want to use our fuckholes. It makes them feel it is their right to dominate and own us as though we are children that need their authority and discipline. The prettier women look comparatively more submissive, at least subconsciously.

Many a submissive will constrict their bodies temporarily through corsets or modify it through piercings or tattoos even. But the most primal and authentic way of making one’s physical self submissive is to make it thin and pretty. It requires regulated intake of food and exercise. A piercing is a tiny 30-second hole. A 24 inch waist requires real submission, real dedication, real obedience to cock. I am working on my waist. Slowly and painfully, for weeks and months on end. I want my corset to be the internal fibers of my body that hold my waist taught and tiny. I want my entire body, from the inside out, to be submissive.

But it does make finding my pet difficult. She doesn’t have to be perfect, of course, like the kidnapped virgin playmates that so heavily populate the archives of our sexual imaginations. No, she doesn’t have to be perfect at all. Just attractive. And in need of ultimate submission. Or perhaps even just curious.

Years ago, when I was a teenager and my first crush rejected me, my best friend shrugged. She said, “Where’s there is one. There is another.” And I almost always find it to be true. Except with Master. I don’t think there is any other even remotely similar to Master. He has no equal.

But there must be a girl. A girl like me. A girl who lays down at night and steps into a dark and vivid erotic world...

On an island somewhere off the coast of Australia-in an unknown tropical paradise, slut knelt beside Master’s newest
acquisition, pet. Master sat on a throne made of bamboo trunks in front of a
bonfire to light the dusk world.

During the day, Master sometimes felt entertained by keeping slut and pet in coconut shell bras and hula skirts made of straw. But tonight Master kept them both nude and collared. Both willing slaves prostrated before his feet with their lips pressed to his toes.

He ordained, “Whichever one of you slaves has been more pleasing shall be the first to taste my cum tonight.”

Slut and pet trembled and salivated at the mention of drinking cum from the Almighty cock they lived to worship. Master yawned and commanded, “Say your prayers.”

Master trained slut and pet to alternate adoring his cock with prayers. He liked them to speak in whispering adoring voices. Slut was allowed the privaledge of saying the first verse of prayer, because Master acquired her before pet.

“Master, thanks be to your Almighty cock for you have allowed us, your fucktoy slaves, to prostrate before your supreme cock and worship tonight.”

Pet continued, “Praise be to the Almighty cock because we two slaves are compelled to compete with one and other to be the first to taste divine cum. Pet is very grateful to dedicate itself entirely to servicing your cock with its mouth.”

Slut kissed Master’s toe before taking her turn, “Thanks be to Master’s Godly cock for rightfully forcing your slaves to suffer from uncertainty and envy as we desperately worship your cock with our mouth fuckholes by bestowing one of us the honor of first drinking your sacred cum.”

Pet finished the prayer, “Master, please severely punish your cock worship slaves for thinking of each other instead of focusing entirely on pleasing and worshiping your cock.”

Master relaxed his torso on the throne and pointed to his cock, signaling that the cock worship slaves should begin sucking. Slut and pet both began unbridled devotion with their tongues, insatiably lapping and licking the length of Master’s cock. Master pulled slut by her hair and forced her to deep throat his cock while pet immediately tongued his balls. After deep throating slut long enough to choke her, he pulled her mouth fuckhole off and replaced it with pet’s.

Pet’s mouthfuckhole bobbed up and down, as pet drooled with gratitude. Slut closed her eyes in devotion while licking at the hairs at the base of Master’s cock. Both slaves focused entirely on worshiping Master’s cock through service, which they knew was their only purpose.

Finally, Master pushed both slaves off his cock. Both slaves knelt below him with wide open salivating mouth fuckholes, waiting desperately to taste his cum. Master came all over slut’s face and open mouth fuckhole. Slut panted and focused on subduing her strong desire to orgasm at the taste of Master’s divine cum. Pet began to tear and wished only for punishment for being the less pleasing cock-worship slave. It was all she lived for and she couldn’t stand being inferior at it. Pet tried to focus on how she could be more like slut and more pleasing to Master’s cock.

“Slut, share my cum with pet.” Upon hearing the order, pet lunged at slut’s face to lap up the cum off her cheeks and lips. Slut and pet kissed deeply to share the divine cum, being sure to show their tongues frequently in order to entertain Master…

there must be some girl out there. some girl between the palms of Micronesia or by the walls of Timbuktu or perhaps down my street in New England. i want to come to her. i want to find her and teach her the religion she needs to learn. i want to convert her to worshiping Master’s cock because it is what pleases Him.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #79 (Story: Cock Religion)

Sir,

please punish me for not keeping my cell phone with me in the shower.

my new story will start by telling the basic truth:

i am the type of person that cannot prefer to be anywhere over being naked, collared and kneeling at Master’s feet.

“Tell me you love this cock”, he commanded me, while roughly grabbing a fist full of my long hair.

“I love your cock, Sir”, i whispered. It is a truth i looked forward to saying for weeks. i felt deeply thankful for the opportunity to tell Master so. No other man has ever forced me to say such a thing. Master kept his cock and balls pressed to my head.

“You need to submit to my cock to be happy.”

i savored the feel of his hand forcefully pushing my head against his pelvis, desperate to taste the cock i love so much in my mouth.

“Yes Sir, i need to submit to you cock to feel happiness.”

“Your life revolves around my cock,” Master dictated with finality.

“Thank You Sir, for allowing my life to revolve around your cock.”

My cunt was so wet by then, i was barely able to reason. With his hand forcing my head right underneath his cock, i wanted nothing more than to suck him, to serve him.

“You need this cock because you are a slut.”

Whatever that word means, it must be true that i am a slut. For how could anyone else get so wet and pacified by hearing her Master say it.

i whispered to Him, “Yes Sir, thank you for making me your slut. Yes Sir, your cock is God to me.”

i breathed deeply,taking in as much of the scent of Master's cock as possible. It’s amazing that being forced to say this draws me further into Master’s web of control, which all i yearn for.

“From now on you will worship my cock and write me a prayer to my cock every night”

“Thank you Sir for allowing me to worship your cock and write you prayers,” i said while wanting nothing more than to worship his cock with my mouth. But I knew if i sucked before Master gave permission, he would be furious. He does not tolerate unruly disobedience. This is why i need him. He pushed me lower, so that my his balls pressed against my cheek.

“You need this cock. My cock is your God. My cock is your religion, isn’t it?”

“Yes Sir, your cock is my religion.”

“I want you to develop this religion through a story. You must write the tenets of this religion, so I can explain the nature of our relationship.”

“Thank you Sir for allowing me to express my worshipful devotion to your cock through a religion.”

As you know, Master requires me to write to him nightly in a numbered slut confession. In it, i reveal my fears, desires and my gratitude for everything he is to me. Master also at times requires that i write my erotic fantasies in the form of stories to him. Master is often kind and allows me to masturbate and cum freely while i complete this task for him. Hours later, i repined on my bed in a daze, covered in wine red sheets, my mind slowly came down from the state of blissful euphoria i feel from submitting to Master. Master’s presence almost overwhelms me.

All of think of when he is with me is serving his cock, but everything about him intrigues me. His moods, his impulses- for Master is not a ‘pseudonym’. As i am a natural born complete slut, Master is ubiquitously dominant. It is not a personality that suddenly manifests when it is playtime in the bedroom- his dominance is a natural garb, present through his questions, his actions- everything. It is why the bare presence of Master’s cock automatically beckons me to genuflect before it.

i inserted a small metal pen, shaped like a vibrator, into my wet cunt and moved to my computer. Master owns the same pen. He writes with it, but mine remains in my cunt at almost all times, so i am always reminded of who my owner is. i opened the word document and begin to compose my first prayer, embedded in a story which tells of the religion Master has given me, his wonderful cock.

(This prayer is really for You) “Praise to Master’s almighty cock, please grant me the discipline to obey Master’s every desire and please him in any way. Thanks be to Master’s Godly cock, in its infinite wonder, for allowing me to please with my mouth fuckhole. And please Almighty cock, your depraved slut begs to become more thankful to Master, because i know i need to in order to satisfy Master and because gratitude to Master’s rule is fitting as Master has had the wisdom to understand that i am meant only to be a slut that revolves around worshiping his cock.”

thank You so much for allowing me this task of writing a story and a religion to honor your cock.

thank You,
kittyslut