Slut Confession #19 (Need for Punishment)

Master,

i became so excited when You told me that You wanted me to kneel at Your feet while You worked. i missed You so much over the weekend. i thought about the things You might have me do at Your feet.

perhaps You would like to rest them against my cunt as i massaged Your toes.

perhaps You would like to have me bring You a drink and serve You and of course suck You off whenever You needed a break. i know i would remain wet the entire time.

i know that i must ask for punishment because i have disappointed You through my poor slut confessions and lack of regularity. i am afraid, but i know it is what i need. Master, i beg You to enjoy punishing me as You see fit when we next meet. i imagine that You will want to use Your leather paddle on me and use me harshly. i hope You use my asshole because You enjoy that so particularly. i am becoming nervous about writing these as i am still not sure how to please You with my confessions.

but Master, today i repeated that i am a cumslut and that i need to be trained and i looked at the picture You prefer and imagined how my spread asshole pleases You. i thought of all the pain i endured for days afterwards because of it and became very wet and horny. i suppose a proper cum slut should always be horny and frustrated and eager to please.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #18 (Transformation)

Master,

i want to be obedient, but somehow i do not understand what obedience means. i do not know how to express the appropriate tone or themes. is this something that can be explained or is this something i innately lack and can never gain? there are a lot of things wrong with me, that prevent me from achieving what i want in my mind. Master, You can see the kind of despair i fall into when i am confused about how to do something.

if You like the picture where You are spreading my asshole then i will look at it more and i will repeat that i am a cumslut and that i need to be trained. i will allow myself to become very horny while looking at the pictures and imagining how in the future You would again spread my asshole apart to inspect me and then take pictures so that i could fully understand. Master, i think You enjoy when i am forced to watch myself act as Your slave as You like me to see what pleases You. i also like to see myself with a leather collar around my neck.

it is almost strange to see myself in that state--it's amazing to be transformed into one of the cumsluts i always have fantasized to. i like to see myself pleasing You. when i am on my knees for You with Your cock in my mouth, i understand that i was created to be Your cum receptacle, and that i should feel whole in that state. i will learn to crave most what pleases You the most. i remember how in awe of You i was when You reduced me to a naked cumslut on my knees. i like to look at myself act as Your sex slave because it pleases You, but i also love to look at You--especially Your cock and balls and just worship them with my eyes.

Master, i hope You come back soon and want to play with Your cumslut.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #17 (Objectification)

Master,

i am being a good girl and i am keeping my pussy shaved for Your use and inspections. i like how You spread my pussy lips apart to the point of discomfort and inspect them, gaze at them, let them entertain Your sight. it is humiliating for me to be on my knees with my legs spread wide and pussy exposed when You are fully dressed even and casually enjoying my most private parts, but as You know, it makes me very wet.

i look at the training pictures You sent me, as You ordered and i am again oddly turned on by seeing that i am truly a cumslut--just like the whores on the Internet that live only to be objects of sexual pleasure.

i like to look at my ass stuffed with the butt plug and i like to see how pink my cunt is compared to my brown skin. my pink cunt stands out so much--like it is the centerpiece of my body, which i suppose it is. i also like looking at the pictures of me tonging Your cock and balls.

i love to suck Your balls, i almost feel as though i am addicted to the task when You require me to do it. when i look at the pictures, i repeat that i am a cumslut and that i need to be trained. it is very real when i see this in action.

i think i look desperately devoted to Your cock in those pictures. inside, i must be. now that i know what i look like to You, i think i might become a slight painslut for Your leather strap. perhaps after training, i would learn to cum during spankings if You told me to.

already they make me so wet and the sight of myself with the butt plug will probably augment my arousal next time You wish to train me in that way. i wish right now that i were prostrate on my hands and knees for You, waiting to be spanked and used by Your cock. that is what i think about before i sleep.

it makes me very very horny, but i know i must be a good cumslut and earn permission to feel pleasure from Master.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #16 (Obedience School)

Master,

i hope You had a good and relaxing day today. i look forward to seeing You in the evening. i hope You allow me to cum for You because i am feeling very pent up. i thought about how You wanted to dedicate a room to my training, and i think i really like the idea. i wish i could say i liked the idea of sleeping in a kennel. it's very arousing in theory but i think i would be sad inside. i like very much to be cuddled. some animals are like that. but i know if an animal is unruly and disruptive then it must be kept in a cage. i can imagine what pet training includes, and i am thinking that i could be a good pet.

where did You meet master erik (search) with the pet wife? i don't know when i would be ready to meet them. most of my friends think i am a Domme in the bedroom. i feel that most of my friends are driven and successful women and would not understand. they would think i was selling out or being weak-minded or maybe even that i was previously abused. i guess i am embarrassed to be a submissive and i don't know how i would react to anyone else that knew i was. i would want to make You proud, so i would like to feel ready to behave properly, in my place as a cum slut and pet. i still think i would like to Domme a girl. i do not know how i would react to the presence of an additional Dom. i'm emotionally monogamous: one boyfriend or one master.

anyway, i guess those are concerns for another day. right now, i will concentrate on the fact that i am a cum slut and i need to be trained. i like to parse the words and think about the meaning of that phrase--that i am a cumslut--a creature driven by its wet cunt, depraved desires and an obsession with earning Master's cum as well as her own. and the meaning of need--like the overwhelming craving that drives a heroin addict--such is my devotion to my state as Your cum slut. and training--becoming broken into my place under Master, which is the only way my cunt (which defines me) and its cravings can be satisfied. i will think of this as i sleep.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #15 (Unspeakable Brutality)

Master,

i almost became an extremely bad cumslut as i fell asleep, but luckily woke up to write this.

today, i was extremely horny throughout the day as i told myself that i am a cumslut and i need to be trained. every time i think of this fact, my cunt becomes quite wet. i became so excited to serve You tonight. when You said i could be subjected to unspeakable brutality, my cunt was still so wet that i accepted this fate. it still scares me, but i want to know that i am serving You. Master, may i ask why You intend to be so rough with Your cumslut?

i look forward to being allowed to cum for You. i have been getting so extremely pent up lately, and i would love to kneel before You finger myself to an orgasm after drinking in Your cum. but i know i have to earn that privilege by being very obedient first, even by enduring pain for Master. tomorrow, i will again repeat to myself that i am a cumslut and i need to be trained and i think this fact will become even more real to me. i envision myself as a creature who primarily serves as Your cum dumpster. i think i must be crazy for craving this type of treatment, but i do.

oh Master, please won't You tell me why You wish to own someone so completely?

i am a cumslut and i need to be trained. i feel as though i have stepped out of reality and into a story book. i can't believe our relationship is even real. it really is something out of a fantasy.

Master, i know punishment is required for me to be broken to Your will. i am struggling with myself now and trying to make sure i make myself as obedient as i can so that You do not have to break me.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #14 (Deficient Confession)

Master,

i have written many many things today, but i know that my slut confession is the most meaningful of anything i can write. i know now that i am meant to be Your cum slut and i believe i can behave like one instead of giving into my prudish exterior. as my sex drive has returned, i know You can drive me by it.

being forbidden to masturbate motivates me to be a good and obedient cumslut, and it helps me understand the meaning of Your cum. i was thinking of interesting ways You could
tie me up today. i love being tied up. it makes me feel completely owned and helpless. i hope You would like to do this to me at some point. i miss the feel of Your leather collar on my neck right now. i am wishing for the feeling of a leash attached to a collar, being tugged whenever Your cock needs servicing by my fuckholes.

i am quite tired now. i apologize for the disjointed state of this email.

good night Master,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #13 (Sex Overdrive)

Master,

my sex drive increased to perhaps it's full force today.

i am happy to know that i may be the wettest and horniest cunt possible for You. i think i will be more easily trained if i am so horny that all i am capable of thinking of is serving Your cock. it was very difficult not to masturbate while alone. i still become extremely horny when i think about how You made me repeat that i am a cum slut and that i need to be trained. i am very eager to start advanced training for You so that i am an ideal cum slave.

i know this will be very painful for me because You are a perfectionist and i struggle with simple things (it's not that i don't want to serve You in my head. i really am dumb about simple things and this distresses me).

but i believe You are an excellent Master and that i could meet Your requirements if You are strict with me. i am quite afraid of Your leather paddle. i do find it painful and heavy. i would be extremely obedient in order to avoid being disciplined with a paddle.

i know that a cunt's place is to please her Master no matter what and i know that sometimes You will paddle me merely because it strikes Your fancy. i will always present my ass to You on my knees so that You can amuse Yourself by giving me pain. it is an honor for this slut to be allowed to please Master through her pain. i cannot wait to serve You and earn Your cum. i am very eager to lick and suck Your cum and fulfill my purpose as Your cum slut.

i think every time i feed myself i will silently say a prayer to honor Your cock and wish that i were guzzling loads of Your cum instead of eating plain old food.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #12 (Cumslut Realization)

Master,

i was trying to be a good girl and wait for a scolding before i release all my sexual tension by fingering my cunt.

today, i was thinking about You twisting my nipples and forcing them into nipple clamps. i know it would hurt, but i think if did that i would be a good slut and beg You to add a clamp to my clitoris, so You could toy with me further. thinking of this really makes me horny. it's very difficult not to finger myself. i think i am allowed to, but i will try not to. right now, my pajama shirt is too low and my bra is too tight (as many of them are- 32C-D are hard sizes to find). my nipples peak out of my shirt when i look down at them. i like to take them out and suck on them- it relieves me a little.

just knowing that You own me now makes me incredibly wet and horny whenever i think of You (which is often lately). i feel extremely aroused and at the same time quite upset with myself. i became extremely aroused while reciting that "i am a cum slut and i need to be trained." it made me cum very hard because i am a cum slut, and i do need to be trained. Master, i have looked a very long time for someone who knows how to talk to me. i hope very much that You do not find me untrainable and leave me broken. i did not like being scolded. it is strange because when Your tone is harsh, my cunt gets extra wet but it makes me feel sad inside.

i liked when You told me to slide my index finger around my cunt. i wish You were here to watch me stick my fingers inside my cunt with my legs spread as wide as possible. now that i think of it, i become extremely horny again. but i will not finger my cunt again because You did not give me permission.

i think i am slowly starting to learn how to be a good cum receptacle for You. and that is all i want to be: a cumslut. i am a cumslut, and a cumslut is nothing if she is not trained.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #11 (Meaningful Disapproval)

Master,

this email is somehow more than a slut confession. or perhaps it is closer to what a slut confession should be. i know i deserve a harsh scolding for the many careless mistakes i have made this week. Your disapproval has started to mean more than someone else's annoyance to me. my whole day becomes blue when You are angry with me. the things i do become mechanical, the gratification i would feel from accomplishing something dissipates.

i do not even feel like masturbating now because You have instructed me not to. i think even if i tried, i would not be able to cum. i would feel guilty. but i will create some erotic life in my mind, only for You, since i think it pleases You. i do deserve a harsh scolding for all i have done and all i have not done. tomorrow, i will beg You to chastise and punish me while i masturbate. i desperately want to be trained to cum for Your disciplinary voice, at Your beck and call. i will finger my cunt more and more vigorously as i am trained to fear Your wrath and bend to Your will. the deepest level a slut can sink to is to enjoy the punishment her Master bestows upon her when he wishes for her to cum for it. it is a true sign that a slut's body is not her own, but her Master's.

i miss You so. Your cunt needs to feel that it pleases You. my highest purpose is to come for Your pleasure. tomorrow on the phone, perhaps You will make me spread my body into degrading positions while i divulge all the depraved ideas that can come from a fuckwhore like me. it will be difficult for me to talk when You are not there to spank me when i moan so much that i cannot articulate words, but i will try to stay focused on revealing my innermost slut fantasies while i finger my cunt for You.

i hope You sleep well and do not find Your trip as dull as You anticipate.

thank You,
cumslut

Slut Confession #10 (Craving Sluthole)

dear Master,

i hope You enjoyed Your dinner. i am wishing to be fed. i am so frustrated as i cannot touch my cunt. it is so wet these days and craves stimulation of any sort. i wonder if You would like to watch me spread my legs wide and masturbate my exposed cunt with foreign objects of Your choosing. You could see how wanton and animalistic i am, rubbing against arbitrary objects, desperately seeking relief, like a bitch in heat.

i guess that is why i deserve to be collared like an animal. Of course, the only way my cunt can be truly satisfied is to be filled with Your cock.

perhaps You would like to see my ass filled with one of plugs too. i don't usually like my ass filled, but i would accommodate Your cock like a good slut should. i think the fact that i receive no direct pleasure from it- discomfort in fact- makes the act of using my ass to service Your cock even more arousing. if You wanted to honor my ass with Your cock, then for me it would mean i completely sacrificed my comfort for Yours. and the thought of belonging to You like that makes me very much want to rub my clit and finger my cunt and suck on my nipples now.

it is so hard for me to keep my fingers out of my wet sluthole now, but i must try very hard to be a good slut for You, so i will resist. and i should apologize for not licking Your cum off my tits earlier. i would love to put my brown cum covered tits into my mouth and greedily lick and suck Master's cum off of them. please punish me for wasting Your cum that night.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #9 (Riding Crop Fantasy)

Master,

i grow more eager to be trained to serve You as each day goes by. i cannot wait to be on my knees for You, hopefully sometime this week. i have been thinking about being physically disciplined. i know that i am afraid of being hurt, but lately i think about You punishing my disobedience with a riding crop. i know that the act of being whipped with a leather strip meant for a ridden animal would keep my slavish cunt wet for You. the riding crop is such a dignified and time honored disciplinary tool, i think.

today, this image aroused me but i was a good fuck toy for You and i did not masturbate.

i think about how You used to tell me You wanted me to serve You perfect martinis and then kneel beside You, waiting to be told how to please You next. i now find this idea immensely arousing. i would like to do this every day with different kinds of outfits. see thru lingerie, corsets and fish nets, a french maid's dress, or nothing but a collar for You to grab me by- whatever struck Your fancy on a certain day. i like to think about this now but only when i am so sleepy that i can go without fingering my wet cunt. i will miss You when You are out of town. i hope to see You before You leave.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #8 (Deserving Punishment)

hello Master,

i have been thinking about how i have been an extremely untame and unruly animal. i know this does not please You and i feel empty when i don't please You. i know i do not deserve to cum until You are pleased with my obedience. this makes me want to try hard to please You by showing You how You own every part of my body and can use whichever part You choose however You like.

i have been thinking about all the punishments that i now deserve. they frighten me but i know that i must beg Master for punishment as part of improving from a wild animal in heat to a good kitty. perhaps Master has to obedience train me like a pet for me to understand the role of a proper slut. maybe once i have to crawl for You while leashed and drink from a pet bowl i will know my place better. i know that even when i punished and humiliated for Your pleasure, i must keep my fuckholes ready and waiting for You. i am sure that my cunt would always be wet and i would love to try to pulse my cunt around Your cock to massage the cum out.

i would try not to cry even if You fucked me really hard and were rough with me. and i would always remember not to look at You unless given permission. i will concentrate completely on Your cock because that is the only thing a slut lives for. i would practice and practice until You were pleased with my obedience training. i would hope to be rewarded by being allowed to drink Your cum and rub my cunt while doing it.

but now i am bad and i am only suitable for punishment, i think.

thank You,
kittyslut