it was sad not to hear from You today. i miss You and i hope You are not displeased with me. today i fucked my cunt so many times. i looked at the petgirls website, and i fucked my cunt while looking at all the lucky owned sluts being trained to be good pets. i came hard each time i fucked my cunt.
i think today was one of the horniest days of my life. i think that since i am getting used to being able to fuck my cunt whenever my cunt gets very wet, i am fucking myself too often. i am not very disciplined, i am afraid. Master, when i fuck my cunt i often think about ways that i have served You, but also some times i think about ways that i would like to serve You. i think about being leashed and collared or about crawling with a tail stuffed into one of my fuckholes.
today, i also had to walk to the post office where i once met You to be taken to your house and brutally fucked in the asshole. my cunt became very wet as i neared the post office because i thought of You. i thought about sucking your Cock, which is much of what i think about these days. your Cock owns me completely, Master. i have never been so focused on anything as i am constantly focused on thoughts of serving your Cock.
still, many of my fantasies are only indirectly sexual, but even while i think beyond getting fucked, my thoughts are driven by my slut cunt and my need to be owned. today, i imagined going to the hair salon with a girlfriend and listening to the hair stylist recommend a cut or a style, which is something they often do. and then i think about calling You (i don't know why i am allowed to call You in my fantasies) and asking for permission to change my hair. i imagine how the hair stylist and onlookers would be shocked and angered that i acted as though You owned my hair and as though i could not make any decision about my body for myself and instead always deferred to You, politely and submissively.
one of my co-workers seems to have a real crush on me. he specially downloads music for me and cooks things and brings them to work. so far he has made goulash, one of my favorite foods and he has downloaded operas i specifically like. ron also emailed me today and said that he makes sure not to roll over onto the side of the bed where i used to sleep because i am still there. i found this really touching. it was hard not to cry when i read that. he was indeed so fond of me and often quite doting. but because i have a slut cunt, i cannot be content with such a fellow. nor could i ever be content with my co-worker. i do adore You though. when we went out for dinner, i was reminded of how your company mesmerizes me and sends me to 7th heaven.
whore layla did not email me yet. my assumption is that she did not find out more information about the party yet. i do not get the impression that she deliberately avoids informing me if only for the reason that she is desperate for attention. i hope i can make her serve You so that You can enjoy all her fuckholes as You deserve at least two fucktoys to serve your Cock.
Master i pray that i can serve You well enough for You to forget your troubles at work for a while. i pray to be able to become a well trained pet like the sluts on the petgirls site. i pray to hear your voice soon. Amen.
thank You,
kittyslut
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