Slut Confession #133 (Kidnapped Sluts)

Master

i look forward to serving your Cock.

thank You very much for your call today. it put me in a bright mood and helped me concentrate on studying. i hope that i can get the score i need. today i did get a 171 on last year's test, but i have noticed that the scoring has gotten much much more difficult over the years. i missed 17 questions on the practice test i took and got the 168 on- in the last you used to be able to get only 3/4 questions right on average and be in the top 90th percentile. but for the june 2007 test, i would have to miss only 10 in order to get a 168 (i missed 9 to get the 171 on last year's test).

thus even getting the same score denotes an improvement. i am not trying to make excuses or set my standard lower. i hope to get at least a 170 and i hope that the scoring scale they use will not be any more difficult. i do not know if the test has gotten easier or if people are just becoming better at taking it. i fear it is the latter.

Master, i enjoyed talking to You about the kidnapped sluts and how their Masters would treat them when they took out of the staircase, etc. i really enjoyed exploring sexual imagination. i was very happy to hear that You enjoy our conversations. i always look forward to them.

thank You for allowing my cunt video to be displayed on the blog. i enjoy looking at the pen inserted in my fuckhole. do You like the fluorescent pink color of my cunt, Sir?

i am happy that whore layla is still interested in me. i am curious to know if it is common for submissive sluts to absolutely crave dominant attention even when the people they seek show minimal interest towards them. i understand that i am to show more than a minimal interest to whore layla even though i am not really interested in her. my roommate commented that You were "cute," and i did not solicit her opinion; she volunteered it. still, i would be wary about sharing your cum with a housemate.

i pray to your Cock to concentrate well. i pray to your Cock to avoid depression at all times possible. i pray to your Cock to receive your cum and hard Cock inside my wet fuckhole soon because that means You are pleased. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #132 (Good Behavior)

Master,

i should have written this slut confession much earlier. i should not have taken your instruction to go to sleep so literally. i am very happy to hear that You enjoyed yourself last night. if You do not mind, please reveal why You were particularly pleased as i wish to repeat my good behavior for future visits. i understand that obedience is always what pleased You and i want to make sure that i am obedient to the best of my ability. i am indeed very happy when You are pleased. i hope to please You further.

thank You for everything last night. i love being fucked by You. it does make me believe that i am the luckiest slut in the world. thank You for allowing me to suck on Your balls for so long. i feel it is my duty to assuage them as i had been the cause of Your balls becoming so heavy with cum. i should be much more obedient so that You wish to fuck me more often. i know that will make me happier. i know that i also much learn to cum harder when You command it.

thank You for helping me stay focused while studying Master. i really need this and your support has been invaluable to me. i hope your day is going well. i will keep my confession short in order to obey your order of efficiency. when my LSATs are over, i must write You further about my slut nature and feelings of devotion to your Cock.

i pray to your Cock to please You further. i pray to become the most obedient cum slut. i pray to be your owned slut cunt forever. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #131 (Proper Slut Positions)

Master,

thank You very much for your call. i wish to earn your presence on friday night. i really value your voice as it immediately refocuses my mind entirely where it should be- on pleasing your Cock. i believe You deserve an obedient fuckpet to rest your Cock on. i believe You deserve a fuckpet with tight fuckholes in proper
slut positions. i of course wish to be a slut that is allowed to serve as your cum receptacle.

Master, i am quite depressed today after being with my family last week. i wish i had not stayed so long. i did not get half as much practicing done as i should have and i became quite demoralized over the week. my mom and dad were both mean to me. they even met to yell at me (and they never speak to each other for any purpose). my dad said many mean things including- that he doubts my ability to get into law school, that he thinks that everything about my life points to that i need a rich husband ASAP, that he thinks the process of 'applying' for a husband will be very difficult for me, that i have no sense of shame (i don't know why he said that). he also implied that he defines me as an innate failure and that he had done so from high school. i certainly believe that my father believes that i am a destined failure and has believed that for several years, which is why the only thing he ever encourages me to do is get married to someone who will take care of me.

my mom said that i haven't done anything with the education i have and that all i want is more education to squander. she says that based on my track record, she could call a law school that wanted to accept me and tell them the truth about me and they would reject me. she said that my desire to do public service (not very high paying) rather than to be one of the higher earners of my law class reflected my constant propensity for emulating the most base characteristics and gravitating to the lowest standard. she now sent me an email about how i am like their poor relations in india who they support because i do not build savings and i am not financially motivated. i do not understand why she sees me as being financially dependent on them this way. i do not see myself as a person who asks for money when i have children of my own who i will not support through gainful employment and i am not financially dependent on my parents now.

my father said that he was exhausted because my mother brought him into yelling at me. he said that he is done with interacting with her and since he doesn't want to be brought into drama with my mother, i should withdraw myself- that is to refrain from contacting either of them. this hurt me because i saw my father as rather selfish for wanting to alienate me in order to make it easier to avoid my mother. he did not seem to consider or care what effect that would have on me.

i cried much of yesterday and today because they were so mean to me. it is very hard for me to concentrate on studying when i am so depressed. indeed, i was extremely depressed in high school because they yelled at me for hours every single day. and i never knew what they yelled and screamed at me for. i didn't do drugs or party or skip school or anything else that would typically be cause for concern. in high school, i just became catatonic and withdrawn because of how much my parents berated me. basically they hated each other and agreed on nothing, so being mean to me was their way of bonding. i also think that they get very angry over my symptoms of depression and then criticize me severely, which only worsens my state.

the real danger of this upbringing is that i am not very good at discerning cues for when people are truly fed up with me. i am used to be criticized, yelled at and the cause of frustration. but You said that You are tired of being strict with me and that You are close to exhausting your patience for me. i did not know that You disliked being strict with me. as my father has advised me to make myself scarce, i see that it is easily within the realm of possibilities that You will rid yourself of me soon as well. i am very sad now. i cried again while writing this slut confession. it is hard for me to concentrate on reading comprehension because i seem to keep crying as well. i don't know how to stop. it really hurts to be a failure in life because it hurts to repulse people you love enough for them to completely reject you.

thank You for allowing me to enjoy fucking my cunt with your pen tonight. i am glad i have been able to return the pen to my wet fuckhole because i need to feel owned by You and i am grateful to feel that something You own stuffs my cunt. i pray to your Cock to be able to forget that i ever have been a human more than a pet. i pray to your Cock to become a completely obedient fuckpet.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #130 (Ungrateful Fuckpet)

Master,

i hope your day went well. i am distraught to know that i am the most disobedient and ungrateful fuckpet. it is sad for me to hear this because as time goes on, i manage to revolve around your Cock more and more and on deeper levels. i do think of You all the time. i wish i knew what to do to demonstrate the reverence and affection i feel for You. i understand that accomplishing my goals are all You ask for, but i really wish there were more i could do. for me the worst part about not yet having earned to ability to serve You more often is that i have such narrow opportunities to show my appreciation for You. i see You for only a few hours at a time and my activities during this time are quite strictly prescribed (and thank You for being strict with me, Master).

i was sad to hear that You once had a well-trained japanese slut who was better at anticipating your needs and reacting to them. i feel that it is a great failure on my part for not having done this so far. i feel that while this pet somehow managed to serve You more effectively than i do, i still feel greater reverence for your Cock. Master, it is impossible for me to feel happy knowing that i am such a poor pet. i did not realize that i was so comparatively difficult. i don't know how i manage to think about your Cock all day long and still not do the simple things required of me to your satisfaction. Master, i know i do not deserve it, but please punish me.

Master, i found out that my mom was not upset because i did not want to stay with her, but because she is very worried about a number of issues. she is worried about being alone, distraught that her mother harangues her over being alone and she is getting older and experiencing new health problems. my mother said that two weeks ago she found a large lump in her breast and had it removed. she said that the whole thing was removed (i hope) and that there was a 50% chance it was cancerous. she did not tell me or anyone else in the family this before- not my brother or her mother or her sister. i was the first she told now and she was angry that i have been unavailable to her. i feel that i have been a neglectful daughter. i wish i could help my mom. i think she must be very sad that i am not likely to be able to take care of her the way she takes care of her mother. now that she doesn't have my dad, she has a lot less money and is worried about her financial and emotional future. it's so sad for me to see her like this. i wish she finds someone. as i wish i could serve You better, i wish i could make my mother happier. my mom wants me to do well on my LSAT, but she isn't entirely keen on me going to law school. she was very angry when i told her that i wished to work on asylum law cases. she wants me to pursue more lucrative career options. while i don't really fret over disappointing my father, i am as sad that i have been a disappointment to my mother as i am sad that i have been a disappointment to You.

underachieving is, i suppose, a terrible habit of mine. but i believe that if i obey You and dedicate myself to serving your Cock properly, then i will become a better person and i will not be an underachiever anymore.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #129 (Story: PIggyslut)

Master,

i will write a story about this dark-skinned slut. her pose reminds me of myself for a few reasons. firstly, i was reminded of myself because i am also a brown slut. then, i recalled the last time i was allowed to serve You in your house and receive punishment and i was reminded of how You placed a mattress on the floor. thank You very much, by the way, for putting that mattress there. it was so thoughtful and i should have thanked You earlier. i recall that my eye makeup ran in one of the pictures where i am on my knee at your Cock. i do not know if it was because i teared from deep throating your Cock or if it was from the pain of punishment, but i like how this slut is also in that state. i like how the slut must remain low to the ground, as though she almost is forced to crawl around on her belly like some lowly reptile.

i am going to name this slut 'piggyslut' because she wears pigtails. it is interesting that the only adult women one ever sees wearing pigtails are whores.

piggyslut had been hogtied all night as her Master hardly believed she could keep her fingers out of her desperate cunt. he had caught her disobeying one of his rules as he found her cumming with his empty beer bottle inside her cunt. he ordered piggyslut to fuck her cunt daily with a new foreign object, but she was never allowed to cum by herself. it was quite difficult for her as piggyslut was yet an undisciplined fucktoy who could not control her pussy even when her Master demanded it.

after her came home from work, Master found piggyslut on her hands and knees, writhing uncontrollably on her pet bed. immediately, he pulled the bottle away from piggyslut and hogtied her hands with his necktie. without a word, he removed his belt and proceeding to lash piggyslut several times on her bare ass.

after he beat piggyslut to tears, he pulled her by the collar and demanded an answer for why she blatantly disregarded his orders.

"please Master, please forgive your stupid slut for being unable to properly control her cunt for you."

Master slapped her face hard and bent down to stick his fingers into piggyslut's wet cunt. "worthless fuck animal. i demanded an answer to why you are unable to show me that you understand that this cunt belongs to me and that it is always under my control."

"M.. Master, i want only that my cunt remains in your control."

the Master slapped piggyslut hard across the face again. she winced and stuttered and explanation, "i saw your empty beer bottle lying by the couch and i remembered that you sat in your leather recliner and used my slut body as a footrest. i remembered that you seemed to enjoy your beverage. you seemed relaxed. i became so horny when i saw that the bottle had been used for your pleasure and i took it upstairs and pounded it into my cunt very hard. i kept thinking of how the bottle had given you pleasure and quickly lost control because of my extremely horny fuckhole. thank you for finding that i had failed to obey you. i know i need punishment in order to become a better fucktoy for you."

the Master said nothing and brought a heavy metal chain out from his room and attached it to piggyslut's collar. he let her neck go and she knew immediately to fall as low to the ground as she could. she was pulled so that she had to raise her face above her doggy bowl. she was terrified of her Master's wrath and really did want to be a good fuckpet. it was always hard for her to fuck her cunt without cumming, but before she always concentrated and made sure to stop right on the brink of an orgasm. it was frustrating, but she knew that it was necessary to learn enough discipline to properly serve her Master.

Master pulled piggyslut by the metal chain. "You say you want to become a good fucktoy. But toys are cherished objects to be kept in a house. You are an undisciplined animal that does not deserve to be treated like a precious pet with a petbed and special doggy bowl and you certainly do not deserve to serve my Cock today."

piggyslut hated to hear that she would not be allowed to serve Master's Cock and began to cry, smearing her slut makeup even more.

Master pulled piggyslut out of her room and towards the back floor. "You are not a fucktoy yet. You are only a fuckpig. And pigs belong in barns, not in petbeds."

Master led piggyslut into the backyard towards the shed. he laughed to himself as he pushed piggyslut into a mud puddle in the yard. "You must be very happy, fuckpig. we've found your natural habitat."

piggyslut felt deeply humiliated and offered only a quiet 'thank you.'

Master knew she needed further breaking and pressed the side of piggyslut's face into the mud puddle, leaving her ass high in the air and exposed. He kept her face pressed down in the mud with his the bottom of his foot and ordered, "Oink, fuckpig."

piggyslut could barely bring the sounds out of her vocal chords. she was stunned by the depths of humiliation her Master forced her to endure. through her tears, she did manage to express several oinks while the side of her face remained buried in wet mud. After several moments of looking down in silence, the Master pulled her into the shed.

Master pulled piggyslut's neck towards his shoes. "Look at what I've had to put up with to give you the punishment you need. you should at least show your gratitude by licking the mud off."

Immediately, piggyslut opened her mouth wide and lapped at the tips of her Master's shoes, trying desperately to clean the mud off with her tongue as quickly as possible. she moaned in gratitude as she licked his muddy shoes, both out of genuine love for the task and in order to show her Master that she knew her place as a filthy fuck animal. "Enough. you will sleep in a 'barn' tonight like a fuckpig should."

piggyslut kept her lips to the ground before her Master's feet as she answered. "yes Master. thank you for disciplining your fuckpig. i will remember this lesson and understand that you own my fuckholes all the time and that i must never cum without permission."

"Goodnight, piggyslut," Master said as he closed the shed door behind him.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #128 (Passing Ownership)

Master,

thank You for helping me through the day today. i thought it was interesting when You considered comparing notes about my obedience training with my father. i mean, i assume You wouldn't actually bring the topic up, but i find the concept of being passed from my father to You. independent women grow up and rely on themselves, but i am a creature meant to be owned and ruled so i suppose it is sensible to consider that i went from being a little girl to an owned slut and any notion of independence was denial of my slut nature.

i mentioned You a few times (not many) to my family. i don't think they have made the connection between my references and the nature of our relationship. it is odd that You are such an enormous part of my life (indeed, you are not part of my life- You are my life) but i am unable to reveal anything about You.

thank You for telling me that i will do better on the LSAT than my friend here. i was happy to hear that both because it reinforces my need to do better and because i was happy to hear You refer to me as your pet. i know i always am, but it makes me feel warm and happy when You express that i am your pet. it is the perfect thing to be for me.

Master, i pray to your Cock to become a more obedient fuckpet. i pray to your Cock for concentration and discipline. i pray to your Cock to become a good fuckpet that You can be proud of.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #127 (Family Issues)

Master,

i hope You are doing well at home if You are still there. i spoke further with my father about the law school issue. another relative came over and added to the advice my father gave me. i have decided that my family members are just nuts. i have no understanding of what they want out of me. the first uncle that my father spoke to actually said "well, if she gets into harvard, let her go." the second uncle that came over now was more supportive of the law school idea. this uncle is a really bright guy- incredibly well read and analytical.

god, you'd think i just told my family that i wanted to be an actress or marry a black guy from the way they act. my dad pointed to my mom's younger sister and said that she used to smoke and drink and not have her life together until she met the right guy and he made her make something of herself. so, he thinks i need a man like that. so, i guess my dad would approve of You in that regard.

my uncle went on a long and ridiculous tirade about how i need to marry someone financially successful. my uncle stressed that he must not be merely financially secure- successful. he says that ideally i should find someone worth enough for us not to have to live off any paycheck and instead be able to live off investments. my stepmother was quite baffled by this advice. i have no idea why they say such things. it's not like they need money. they all do alright for themselves- comfortable six figures. i do not understand why they have decided that 1) i need more money than they have and 2) i should marry someone that has this. they also went on about how horoscope matching and arranged marriages could be a good idea for me. i argued that i was against inbreeding but they claimed that it wouldn't be thaaaat bad.

my father also criticized me for being 'difficult to sell'- he seriously means that i would not be the easiest person to arrange a marriage for. they really never spoke to me about these things until i was about 24. and then they just sprung it on me. and now it's terrible. they want to talk about who i should marry every day. and my mom and step mom give me good advice like 'find someone kind to you, who is really compatible with you, who inspires you etc'. my dad and uncles give me stupid stupid advice.

well, i don't care what anyone says except You. i suppose the fact that most people around me stick to ideas from the feudal era makes it easy to only listen to You. who else makes sense after all?

Master, i am thankful that i revolve around your Cock. i remember once when we went out to that mexican restaurant and You mentioned for some reason that You were my 'daddy'. i hope You still consider yourself as such. i believe i need You to fill this role. regardless, it seems that my actual father has decided the best thing for me is for me to find a husband (he doesn't even recognize the concept of boyfriend, forget about the concept of a Master- the only role a man can have in my life is to be my husband in my father's antediluvian mind). antediluvian is, by the way, one of my favorite words. ante means before and diluvian means of the flood- it means before the flood of noah's ark- that is how archaic my father's thinking is. and my father basically thinks i need to find a husband to run my life for me. so, i guess You both are in agreement over that point. in fact my father seems to think it should be my first priority as he seems somewhat indifferent to my educational goals. thus, he happens to be unwittingly endorsing the idea that my first priority should be serving You.

Master, if You had a daughter, what advice would You give her about finding a husband? what advice to your parents give You about relationships? i assume they offer some even if You don't ask for it.

my stepmother's advice was to really prioritize communication. i generally think her advice about relationships is much better than my father's (and i wonder what she sees in my father). Master does not communicate much about his inner world to me but i am thankful that You value my communication to You.

thank You Master for being my Master. i am still grateful that You chose to take complete ownership of my life and becoming my overarching Master and not only 'Sir' to me. i worship your Cock and pray dutifully for all i have noted and more. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #126 (Father Figure)

Master,

i had a good meal and a good time with my family today. i had told my father that i intended on studying for the LSATs about a month ago. i thought he had forgotten, but i think he remembered and just did not want to take it seriously. my father and my brother both gave me long lectures today about why i should not go to law school. my father said that the fact that i was considering it showed that i had not found myself yet and that i was being a drifting vagabond. my brother was extremely opposed to the idea and basically sees it as a way for me to avoid the real world for a few years by hiding in school. my friend called and also said that she couldn't imagine me as a lawyer and said that i should be more serious about a graduate program in philosophy.

my brother noted that going to law school will not help me be a writer and that i should instead spend my time developing a strong plot for a book. my father seemed very slightly more sympathetic to the idea of me being a lawyer when i mentioned that it would be nice to have a back up plan and marketable professional degree in case my writing did not take me anywhere. i don't know how i completely missed the dose of strict asian parenting, but i seem to have bohemian parents that want me to find myself and aspire to do something like creative writing and forswear higher education- especially practical higher education. i think they might be more ok if i said i wanted a degree in dead languages. who knows. i just don't get want they want. my brother says that my life goes nowhere because i have no standards for myself. i do have standards for myself of course- You are my standard. if You say i must do something, then i must.

my best friend says that law school will put me in debt $50k per year and then force me to work some unpleasant job at a firm that will make me hate my life.

people want me to do things like be a science writer, be a philosopher, be an author, work at a think tank. for some reason, people want me to have these jobs that they think sound ideal and fascinating because they really don't know what it means to live a life where there is almost no concept of advancement or career stability. they think its ok for me to be unable to afford a car when i am thirty but i don't really want to be in that place. mostly, i don't understand.

i thank You for making this decision for me to go to law school and becoming a slut lawyer. clearly, i would be unable to make it on my own because so many people would attempt to dissuade me. i guess i do worry about the debt i will incur because it will force me to work it off by working long hours as a lawyer, which would be no problem if i did not still have these dreams of being a philosopher or a writer. but then if my dreams of being a philosopher or writer did not work out and chances are they wouldn't, then i would have a wasted life without a law degree. thank You for being the only person to care enough to dissuade me from a wasted life. i don't know why most of my friends don't care that i am in danger of it.

Master, i pray that i might soon earn your perfect Cock in my fuckhole again. i miss your Cock intensely. i pray that your Cock is pleased with my service to You. i pray to your Cock to own me forever. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #125 (Giving Thanks)

Master,

i hope You are feeling comfortable and happy at home. thank You so much for wishing me good travels for thanksgiving. i become so happy upon receiving gestures of good will from You. likewise, i hope You travel safely.

i made sure to stop speaking of You at work. i did not want to annoy my co-workers. my female supervisor is increasingly negative towards me. i hope it works out though.

suddenly over the past two days, i have become extremely depressed and unfocused. it is almost strange and it serves as a reminder of what can happen to me. i am so grateful that i am allowed to focus on your Cock and your orders in order to keep myself focused. i think about You when walking back from work, when taking coffee breaks- it is strange because it reminds me of how i felt as a teenager when i developed crushes on classmates. i used to fantasize about them and imagine myself with them throughout the day. normally, when one belongs to their crush, the feelings of intense pining ebb, but my feelings towards You remain quite prominent in my mind.

in some ways, this gives me a great sense of peace because it suggests that i am transforming into a good slut that truly does exist for You and revolve around You. i can say that such thoughts are the only source of happiness when i would otherwise be pointlessly depressed. i have noticed though, that certain aspects of my analytical abilities actually are increased when i am depressed, but these are not abilities useful for the LSAT, so i will avoid being depressed, at least for now. i should not be, anyways, since i should only feel happiness and gratitude towards your Cock.

Master, i pray that You have a good holiday. i pray to your Cock to concentrate on vacation. i pray to your Cock to become more grateful towards your Cock. i give thanks for allowing your Cock to be the center of my world. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #124 (The Chosen Fucket)

Master,

You have been so kind to me lately. thank You for requiring me to bring my LSAT books home when i go for thanksgiving vacation. i believe i will be able to make a little bit more progress at this point, hopefully.

i am surprised that there seems to be little correlation between the SATs and LSATs. many people who do well on one test have mediocre performance on the other. the LSAT is a more interesting test and one that i believe is a better estimate of what most would consider general intelligence.

i do think about You frequently at work. i am starting to talk about You as well, but still in vague terms. i believe i am starting to annoy my co-workers, who perhaps have crushes on me. i do not really talk about You in the sense passing on objective information. i just talk about my feelings for You and attachment towards You. it is interesting how i manage to convey the truth about my feelings without actually conveying anything about the nature of our relationship. i say, for example, "i am so into this guy that it is crazy." i can even say that i don't feel in control of my own mind anymore because my attachment to You is so overpowering.

i am excited to get the LSAT over with because then i feel i will have more time to concentrate on your Cock. although truly, i think about your Cock so much it is like a second job to me. i daydream, i reminisce, i pine. i exist to serve You with my fuckholes. i am extremely horny these days. i am so thankful that You have chosen me as your fuckpet. i am truly the luckiest slut in the world. i know of no other slut i would rather be.

i pray to your Cock to become the best fuckpet. i pray to your Cock to become your favorite fuckpet out of any You have owned. i pray to your Cock to become the perfect fuckpet for You, Master. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #123 (Broken Fucket)

Master,

i hope your day went well. i am studying with a new book and i think it will help me a little tiny bit. hopefully it will give me the few points that i need.

thank You for requiring me to fuck my cunt once a day to the porn You made of me. it keeps me extremely horny and wet. i enjoy seeing myself devoted to your Cock. my cunt becomes very wet when i see myself as a docile and broken fuckpet. i have become more obsessed with memories of my service to You than ever before. previously, my fantasies used to include pure fantasy intermixed with things You did to me. now, they focus entirely on memories of me actually serving You. everything You did to me the last time You visited was extremely arousing for me.

ron used to make fun of me and say that indian women were fun in bed because they are tame and playful- this was an actual quote form a colonial british ruler of the region. i think when i see myself serve You, i show that i am tame and playful in the sense that i look so absolutely willing.

i hope You have not been to put off by my irrational behavior. i always want to be pleasing to You. i love the idea of You being happy and pleased with me although i rarely accomplish this. i hope that when whore layla serves You, You will feel happy with me. i do wonder what the next step in our relationship would be.

i have been reading news editorials today- i had not done this in months. i believe i came across interesting information. i will be happy when i return to school and can read and learn all the time. i hope You are happy and that You feel loved.

Master, i pray to your Cock to be able to atone for my irrational behavior. i pray to your Cock to be able to express an appropriate amount of gratitude to You for how You make me feel. i pray to your Cock to be able to succeed. Amen

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #122 (Brutal Authoritarian Rule)

Master,

i studied for the LSAT today but i feel as though i am hitting a wall in my ability to improve. it is quite frustrating for me, but i have a few more books and i am going to do what i can based on studying from them. it's not a hard test really. it's just a matter of precision and perfect time management.

i want You so badly. i want You forever. properly phrased that would be i want to belong to You so badly and for forever. i want this even though i often cannot account for why. the idea of finding young submissive sluts for You when i am older is possibly not ideal. in theory, i would like to have children and i would not want to involve other young sluts in my life if i had kids in the house. i think it would mess them up.

of course, everything is your choice. i will do whatever You want. i will comply with whatever You want. i want You to be happy. i want to belong to You and sometimes i really wonder why. i need to serve your Cock. i need to be ruled by your Cock even if it means i live under brutal authoritarian rule (in fact, i hope it does). i keep remembering how You looked when You put your slacks and collared shirt on in the morning- it was really sexy for me.

i emailed whore layla today. i told her that i would be interested in seeing her in early december. do You think a weekend would work for You, Master? i wonder what this will be like. will You act as though i am an independent domme and not your submissive?

i again warn You about this girl. she will probably fight with you, laugh at You, insult You and be very non cooperative. she is absolutely beyond my ability to control by myself. i think i could only handle her after You subdued her by force.

i pray to your Cock to be a more obedient and more thankful slut. i pray that You know that i do feel gratitude. when i express petulance, i think i just need to be ruled by your Cock with even more force. i pray that i can serve You well and make You happy, Master. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #121 (Attractive Competing Slut)

Master,

i didn't do much today- just stayed in and did some studying. miraculously, i am starting to see progress in my logical reasoning section. i honestly was beginning to lose hope.

i still feel very thankful for your visit last night. i hope You felt generally satisfied even though i know i had been a disobedient fuckpet before You arrived.

Master, i have been thinking about my future and about your tentative plan to find an attractive competing slut to serve You without my knowledge. i know that i can prevent this by simply offering You whore layla's mouth fuckhole. but if i am eventually so dissatisfying that You will have to find an additional slut to train, i guess i would be sad. i want You to be happy, but it would be sad for me not to be your only slut. it hurt to hear these things while You were fucking me. but i am thankful that You are still interested in training me even though You require much more sex than i deserve Cock. it did hurt to be told that i didn't deserve Cock while You were fucking me though.

Master, i think it is important for me to thank You for allowing me to savor the taste of your cum for so long. thank You so much for cumming all over my face and body and then letting me devour all of your cum. it was a great honor for me.

i am grateful to be allowed to watch the porn You made for me once a day. i came extremely hard today while watching the video and thinking of everything You had done to me the night before.

finally, i give thanks to your Cock for allowing me to serve You for so long last night. i pray to your Cock to once again see me as a good slut so that i can earn the collar. i pray to your Cock to earn more cum. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #120 (Earning Cum)

Master,

i thank You so much for coming over and seeing me last night and staying the night. it has been so long since You last wished to do so. i love when You sleep in my bed. i feel purposeful when You do. i also feel that the experience is quite intimate. i am so thankful that You enjoy having me rest my head against your chest and that You enjoy letting me rest close to You. i love to hold Your Cock and listen to You breathe, Master.

whore layla has emailed me back. she said that she did not feel blown off and assumed that i was busy with studying. she said that she assumes that i will get in touch with her when i am done studying. Master, do You mind if the next time i meet whore layla is after december 1?

i thank You for disciplining me with the hanger while You allowed me to suck your Cock. i must learn to show greater trust in You and not to make noise when You choose to discipline me. my ass and thighs still hurt Master, and i thank You.

i am also very thankful that You allowed me to lick both your ass and your feet. i always enjoy serving your asshole with my slut tongue. it is somewhat strenuous to do so as it requires that i open my mouth very wide and thrust my tongue hard, but i enjoy serving You this way because it is such a clear indication of what i am to You. i did enjoy having to bend over while standing in my heels so that i could kiss and lick your feet. i am glad You made me lick between your toes and allowed me to worship your feet for several minutes. i know i did not deserve this privilege.

i am certainly thankful that You allowed me suck your Cock so many times last night and today. i love to be given purpose through serving with my mouth fuckhole.

and i must especially thank You for fucking me so long. Master, i loved every second of it even though You fucked me long enough for me to begin to feel sore. i love your Cock. thank You for allowing me to cum for You and thank You for showing me the importance of your Cock. i agonized every time You withdrew your Cock from my pussy fuckhole and felt extremely thankful when You put it back in.

thank You so much for the porn of me You made for me. i felt that i was the best that i could be when i saw myself look devoted to your Cock and earning Your cum. i now understand what it means to be collared and my goal is of course to again earn being collared as your personal bitch.

Master, i wish i knew what the difference between a slut and a slave was to You. my true answer necessarily depends on what pleases You more.

i pray to your Cock to remember the lesson of what my purpose is. i pray to your Cock to end my internal rebellion so that i think solely of what pleases You. i pray to your Cock to become the best fuckpet. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #119 (Disappointing Fuckpet)

Master,

i will try to take better pictures of me posing to resemble the photograph You showed me. unfortunately, i do not have a real camera, so i cannot really improve the lighting of the flash. i have turned on all the lights in my room and i do not know what else i can do. i will try again later in the daylight. i will have to open my window curtains and expose myself as a slut to everyone. they would watch me through the window as i spread my legs and exposed my fuckholes to my laptop camera with the pen inside. but i suppose i deserve such humiliation for being unable to satisfy You.

Master, i hope i have not displeased You so much so that i will not be allowed to serve your Cock on tonight but if i am to be honest with myself, then i suppose i might have. i feel so wary of asking (or telling) whore layla to pose herself in this way as i blew her off during the weekend. i feel that telling her to do something is tantamount to me offering to be her Domme, which i do not want to do. in any case, i honestly don't think i can find the time between law school applications and studying for the LSATs. my progress with regard to the LSAT is remarkably slow. half the test is logical reasoning and i am finding it extremely difficult to make any improvement whatsoever in this section. i am so afraid that You will "break up" (decollar) me if i do not achieve the goal You have stated for me. i do not mind the fear- i suppose it might help give me subconscious motivation to do well. i just hope it isn't a fear grounded in reality.

thank You for everything Master. i hate to be such a disappointing fuckpet. i don't think our goals are unfair or harsh. i am so thankful that You enforce them for me.

i must remind myself that my purpose is to obey You. now, You have told me to make whore layla expose herself in pictures and i must do it even though i have no desire to interact with her.

i wish to see the strip club with You, if that should please You Master. i wonder if watching sluts degrade themselves before sleazy men would be good for me.

Master, i am very tired. my goal for tomorrow is to be a much better fuckpet than i was today. i don't mean to look like i have forgotten my place or my purpose. i recall that when we first men, You said that your japanese fuckpet used to act up deliberately in order to prod You into disciplining her. i do not mean to ever do such things. i wish only to be good and obedient, completely owned.

i miss your Cock. i need your Cock because i need to serve your Cock. i am thankful about the possibility of serving You tomorrow and i hope i don't fuck it up. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #118 (Losing Your Rule)

Master,

i hope You are well. it is sad for me that i do not hear from You very often these days. i have taken this to mean that november is a trial period and if i can prove myself, You will return to me and i can be happy again.

right now, i suppose i feel forlorn while writing this. i hope i have not lost your attention. i am always afraid of losing Your rule. i just have so much of my life invested into You, i hate the idea of coping without You.

when You disciplined me last week, You noted that i have a tendency to be filled with doubt. i do not mean to be ungrateful. i am thankful to be owned by You, but in times like these, i feel that You are perhaps able to be just fine without owning me.

i am working on improving so that i can earn your Cock again. i should remember than when i feel doubt, i should focus on my goals, repeat the words and remember to be grateful.

but what can i do? i miss You intensely. i will be going to home for thanksgiving from the 22nd to the 27th. i also asked to take three days off work so that i could study continuously for this test. i do enjoy the test- especially the reading comprehension section. i have learned many things from the passages. many of the passages are law related and give a basic introduction of legal theories.

i did not finish my personal statement at work, so i will have to do it at home. this makes me angry because i do not want to miss studying time. but it must be done, so will not put it off any longer.

Master, i thank You for being such a wise and strict owner. i need You so much in order to maintain dedication and succeed. i pray to your Cock for enough focus to remember my place and purpose. i pray to your Cock to have my doubts and insecurities dispelled. i pray to your Cock to achieve my potential as your fuckpet.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #117 (Withholding Cock)

Master,

i miss your Cock very much, but your absence shows me how much i need to do well. i fear being without You. i fear feeling You withdraw from me due to disappointment. i thank You for showing me how important it is for me to succeed at this goal. i thank You for teaching me a lesson by withholding from me that which i need most. i do not like to behave in such a way that my fuckholes are unavailable to You. i hope You are not frustrated.

i spoke to my good friend gina today and she was very positive about the idea of me going to law school. i think ginais one friend that would like You. strangely, inna went on a date with a potential Dom that i never ended up dating- some jewish kid. she had no idea of the things he was into. gina also said she is interested to see what score i get. everyone seems interested in the score i will get. gina said that ron was smart but that i was many times smarter.

if i am a good pet for long enough and You let me have your babies, if You will also place a strong emphasis on getting high scores. did your parents treat You this way or were You always internally motivated?

i have not heard from whore layla, but i spoke to my friend sarah over email. i told her to call me fat since You would not and she said that she would not sleep with me until i went to the gym again. she was kidding though. i was also kidding. i like sarah because of her sense of humor like this.

i am tired now. i thank You for maintaining strict standards with me. i know that they are good for me. when You told me to lose 5-10 lbs, i was able to lose about 10 lbs eventually. i also was able to get a job quickly because of your methods of motivating me. i thank You for using such methods to impel me to a higher LSAT score, which is important. whatever score i get, i could not do it without You.

Master, i thank You for everything and i am thankful that You choose to own me and allow me to revolve around serving your Cock.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #116 (Forced Sex)

Master,

i hope that You have been doing well. i am doing alright. i am working on my personal statement at work and my LSATs at home. i think i should take the two or three days before my LSAT off from work. if i don't get my personal statement done at work by wednesday, i'll just do it at home as well. i have ordered a few more books that i am told are very good for preparation.

Master, i do feel committed to this goal and to pleasing You. i always feel that this goal exists as a method of serving You. whether or not i would engage in this on my own volition is immaterial to me. i feel completely owned by You. wednesday of last week is starting to feel unreal to me. my normal life is so predictable and confined to certain areas that spending time with You in your home sort of feels as though i stepped into a fantasy world. You said that You would view it positively if i doubted my sanity after a hypothetical prolonged absence on your part (this is me writing like a lawyer- not very graceful). why did You say that? if it pleases You to know, i feel that my life has become quite dull in your absence. in some ways, this is not a bad thing as i have done many self destructive stupid things in order to avoid boredom in my life. i thank You for instilling discipline so that i not only do not do stupid things, but also so that my life is actually more compelling this way.

i do feel pressured a bit about the LSAT. my scores have ranged from 164-176, mostly slightly lower than 170. i hope to improve by about a point each week, which means two questions. it is amazing that studying for this test is such a painstaking process. it isn't as though it's based on knowledge of math functions or any general knowledge at all. it's just cumbersome to master formal logic according to the exact specifications of the test.

Master, today i became extremely horny when thinking about how You fucked me hard in my cunt while my ass remained in the air exposed for You. i must thank You for holding me down forcefully by my wrists. this was extremely erotic for me as it resembled forced sex. i am so thankful to have felt the force of your dominance over me through holding me down in such a submissive position.

Master, i am thankful to be your fucktoy and thankful for everything that implies. i am thankful to exist as your cum slut and i am grateful that You have reminded me to repeat the words so many times. i am a cumslut and i need to be trained and that is the entirety of my being. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #115 (The Ultimate Goal)

Master,

today, i spent the entire day studying for the LSAT. i only did the logical reasoning section today and i realized that the tests are getting harder and harder as i take more recent tests. the tests are numbered such that the lower numbers are the oldest. i had started at the lower numbers and am now observing that it is difficult for me to get the same score on more recent tests. i think i improved very very slightly today on logical reasoning. towards the end of the day, i finally felt like i was getting some handle on the section.

november is an important month, Master, thank You for recognizing this and making sure i understand.

as for the rest of my career, i do wonder what You will choose for me. so far as i know, i don't actually want to be a lawyer. i suppose i would not detest the career and i will feel secure in knowing that i can earn a high income if i have to, but i can't say i have any real desire to work as a lawyer. and i am pretty sure i would have very limited endurance for the long hours required by corporate firms. i am thankful that You will make the best decisions about my career and i am grateful that i can trust You.

Master, i thank You for requiring this goal of me. it does stress me and it does daunt me, but i know that is good for me. it shows me what it means to have drive again and what it means to work toward something and make incremental progress.

i wish to do well so that i am closer to my ultimate goal of being your live-in pet, which would make me feel even more completely owned by You. i am thankful that You have ever considered such a state for me.

Master, i miss your Cock and i pray to once again feel my fuckholes filled with the entity i exist for. i am thankful for being disciplined, set in a direction and for being cared for. i love Your Cock. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #114 (Master's Cock)

Master,

i hope that You are doing well. i hope that i have not displeased You. You have not been very communicate with me in the past few days and i guess i worry that i have angered You.

i think sometimes when i have trouble focusing, it is helpful for me to meditate in a sense by reminding myself that your Cock is the center of my life. i enjoy concentrating on your Cock. i remember when You put me under my desk and sat on the char so that the only part of You in sight was your Cock, which i exist to serve. i enjoyed that immensely as i felt purely in my place.

of course, i do like all of You. i certainly enjoy spending time with You eating out or just talking. i would hope that You feel the same way towards me.

i blew whore layla off today. she is time consuming to me. i think i will tell her to leave me alone until after i am done with my LSAT. i really wish i could just not worry about the second goal for a week or so. i will contact rachel about when we are meeting though. i think i will call whore layla on the phone tomorrow. i also will call my dad, my brother, my friend inna- calling whore layla is prioritized last.

i spoke to my ex-boyfriend today- the one that i first had kinky sex with. he now has a partner who really likes pain and he was telling me about the things he does with her. he supports your role in my life although i think he believes that You are my boyfriend as well, not my owner. it is interesting that my ex never tried to push my limits. he always only did things he thought i want, but in truth his treatment of me was somewhat milder than i would have preferred. i love how You fuck me. You really do make me feel like the luckiest slut in the world. i love it especially when You say things to me when You are fucking me. i am grateful that You know how to use me and get my cunt overwhelmingly wet.

Master, i miss Your Cock every second of the day. i am extremely thankful for the discipline You instill in me. i am sure i would not be able to get through applying to law schools without You. some people comment that i do not seem to have any reason or desire to apply to law school and that i should reconsider if i really want to do this, but i trust Your judgment above all.

i am thankful for the goals You require of me. i am thankful for the way You discipline me. i am thankful for the way You fuck me- very very thankful indeed. i am thankful for everything You do, except for the way You ignore me sometimes. i agonize over the withdrawal of your presence. i miss Your Cock. i miss You.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #113 (Clarity from Obedience)

Master,

i hope your week went well and was not too disturbed because You had to cancel appointments in order to discipline me on wednesday. i am still both in pain and very thankful that You chose to discipline me and to spend time with me.

i am still very angry that i missed you call. i must admit though, that i do plan to keep my phone silent sometimes when i practice LSAT. i really feel like it's going to be tough for me to get over a 170, but i will try. there are still three weeks till the test and i suppose i can do a fair bit of stabilizing and improving over this time. i want to make You proud. i know You said that i needed to be someone intelligent and respectable in order for You to be attracted to me. this is my entire motivation for trying to do well.

i am of course thankful that You have instilled this kind of a standard in me. and i am definitely thankful that You chose to implement corporal punishment on me in order to remind me of my place and impel me to greater obedience towards You. feeling obedient to You gives me mental clarity- it makes me feel focused and in psychological control over my emotions (of course, You have control over my emotions as You can easily choose to make me happy or worried or afraid etc.).

today, at work i began to make progress on my personal statement, partially at the behest of one of my co-workers, who seconds that this institute no longer deserves so much as an ounce of my dedication. today was the final straw. there have been weekly lectures given by local academics. the lectures are at 2pm and in the past, i had seen several. today i attended, as usual, as did most of my co-workers and in the middle the old crone office manager pulled me out of the lecture and told me to stay by the phone to answer it and then put out the cookies and drinks for when the lecture was over. apparently, it is desirable for the men to learn but when i do so, i am being lazy and idle and i need to be given some menial task like reception work etc. its insulting enough to be the sole person worth pulling out of a lecture, but to have to set out cookies for those left to listen (and then have to clean the crumbs)- that is more than i care for. i still like the people i work with and they are at least as aware of my ill treatment as i am, but as far as the job goes, this place is getting 0.0 effort from me beyond the bare minimum not to get fired. i suppose that is useful since i can now focus on goals You have given me at work.

i pray to Your Cock to be able to concentrate and improve on my LSAT. i give thanks for the pain that i still feel from the corporal punishment that i am thankful You implemented on me. i am most thankful of all for returning to a more obedient mind state. i love Your Cock, Master. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #112 (Hard Fucking)

Master,

i have been very horny today and would like to request permission to fuck my cunt at some point. i am very horny because i keep thinking of yesterday when You fucked me hard and made me tell You that i was the luckiest slut in the world. i am thankful that You hurt me a bit by thrusting into me very deeply and brutally when You
fucked my cunt. it was good for me to understand that i love your Cock and i love being used to please your Cock even when it causes my fuckholes pain. i was extremely aroused at the time.

i do feel that i am the luckiest slut in the world, Master. i do want to be owned by You and only You. i have no need or want for anything that You are not providing me (unless You have a good reason for not providing it, which i respect and am thankful for).

i hope You were not disappointed in my slut confession #111 as i know You stipulated that You wished for me to regard the number as special. i wanted to show You my change in attitude and show You that i have become a much more thankful cum slut and hopefully a more obedient cum slut. i guess it is important for me to note that i absolutely do not feel that You mistreat me. i am thankful that You are rough with me as i need You to be since i am after all, a depraved cum slut.

i feel that i have not thanked You adequately for your decision to reclaim your position as Master. this really helps me feel secure and to dispel my doubts. i like knowing that You have resumed control over my entire life and will exert control over whatever issue suits You. i am sure that You will rule me as well i as i can be ruled. i enjoy calling You Master and i hope that i am able to merit your willingness to keep the title.

i was in much pain today every time i got up and sat down. i felt that i was recovering from an illness that made me feel weak. my ass does still hurt. even the inside of my asshole hurts as well.

i am going to work harder on going to the gym in order to be fit so that my body is more pleasing for You. i know i must work on the goal of finding a secondary slut. maybe i should just get this over with and dominate whore layla and then share her slut cunt with You. even if she is barely submissive, i am sure that You can and will dominate her. Master, You are certainly the most rough person to ever fuck me. it does make me wonder how You enjoy sex with vanilla partners since i assume they cannot handle the degree of dominance that i enjoy. i suppose it does not matter- the only thing that matters is that i focus on making my fuckholes and body as pleasing as possible for You.

i pray to your Cock for the ability to please You through enduring pain and by showing extreme obedience. i give thanks to your Cock since i am owned completely, which makes me feel safe and secure. i pray to your Cock to learn to become extremely obedient. i pray to your Cock to be able to show You that i am nothing but a nasty cum slut through my slut confessions. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #111 (Corporal Punishment)

Master,

thank You for using corporal punishment to discipline me today. i believe that it has been effective in that it has forced me to think of You constantly, which should in turn help me reach the goals You have set for me. i am thankful that You have forced me to return to a much more obedient mindset. i have stopped thinking of my life and its events as events i feel independent attachment to. i think only in terms of pleasing You. i am happy to be in this mind set again. i was happy all day today. i enjoy spending time with You no matter what You want to do, and i know that "111" is a special number to You.

i have been looking at my ass several times in the mirror. there are patches of red and welts from the hanger as well. thank You for leaving me with this reminder. now, my
entire ass is in sore pain, but while You were disciplining me, the blows that hit my lower back were the most excruciating. i had much difficulty handling those and i regret that at one point i rudely interrupted your process of disciplining me by begging You to stop. the hanger felt acutely painful, while the paddle felt like slightly less localized pain- that goes without saying, i guess. the strikes from the hanger onto the more muscular parts of my thighs were very painful. i thank You for carefully planning and executing this punishment. and i certainly thank You for taking such good care of me while You punished me. thank You for being gentle at times. it is worth enduring punishment if only to feel Your affection between blows.

it was hard not to let the paddle fall as You struck me five final times. those were quite painful blows and i thank You for as painful as corporal punishment is for me, i prefer it strongly over being avoided. corporal punishment makes me happy in the end and i believe it is effective in making me feel very submissive. but of course Master, i wish that You will employ whatever disciplinary means You prefer.

You said that You have a reward in mind for me that i might not deserve if i accomplish my goals. i know i should not need to prospect of any reward to obey You to the best of my abilities, so i will not focus on such things but i thank You for your consideration.

thank You for using my fuckholes today. i am so happy that i was allowed to serve You with all three of my holes. i loved sucking your Cock after You disciplined me as it showed me that my place is always to show enthusiasm and gratitude for being allowed to serve You. thank You for fucking me for a long time and reminding me that i must always express gratitude to You. it was more difficult than ever for me not to cum before You told me to because i was trying to squeeze my pussy muscles in order to please your Cock. but thank You for allowing me to cum so hard while You fucked me. even now, writing that sentence made my cunt extremely wet. i love to cum for You Master. i know i must be a very good fuckpet in order to earn your Cock inside me and also be allowed to cum. do You also enjoy it when i cum? or is this a reward that You allow me that You do not directly derive pleasure from?

thank You for using my asshole after so long. i believe it has been months since my asshole was last used. i believe this was one of the most painful anal fucks, if not the most painful anal fuck, that i have ever experienced. i am quite grateful that You chose to enjoy your favorite fuckhole. it is very painful when You thrust hard and deep into me but it does impress your ownership of me onto my psyche. i will try to work on spreading my legs while You fuck my ass. somehow the weight of your body on me makes it tough for me to spread them, but i really want to keep them spread for You so that i appear most vulnerable to You and so that my asshole is most comfortable for You.

thank You for watching me while i used the toilet. it did make me too nervous to actually relieve myself, but i was quite surprised by how humiliating it was. i have never peed in front of anyone before. thank You for pushing my depravity further and demonstrating your total ownership of me in a new way.

thank You so much for telling me that when someone hurts me that You care because You care about your property. even if You never stop anyone from hurting me, the fact that You care makes me feel really secure and protected. thank You for always looking out for me and taking such good care of me, Master.

i wish to pray to your Cock now. i give thanks for everything You did to me today. i pray to become much more obedient in order to please You. i pray that your disciplinary measures have been effective so that You feel pleased with my progress. i pray to find a better slut than whore layla. i pray that never lose focus on my life purpose, serving You, ever again. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #110 (Lack of Enthusiasm)

Master,

i recall that i am not permitted to apologize for even the worst of infractions. so, i cannot apologize for showing a lack of enthusiasm for serving You tonight. truly, i had been very excited throughout the day about the prospect of serving You with my fuckholes and i am now so extremely sad that i cannot do this because i have displeased You.

i feel now almost exactly as i felt in the beginning of august when You became so displeased with me that You said that i was no longer worthy of being called a cumslut because i could not make You cum satisfactorily. and i felt intensely confused and distraught when You stopped speaking to me completely during that week in august. i felt so inadequate and helpless because i felt that i could not please You even though i wanted to and i did try to be a good fuckpet- in truth, i tried to please You more that summer when You were so put off by me than i did in any other time unless You count to effort i put into my law school applications as a way of pleasing You.

but i really feel awful. i know You often note my errors in serving You including how i kneel, how i smell, how i prepare a selection of porn for You, how i suck your Cock, how i worship your Cock. but today is different. i know that i don't deserve to see You and i feel so helpless about changing it. i hate being delinquent about responding to emails from You at work. i wish i could change this but i feel helpless
in that i cannot. i hate being so overwhelmed by the process of applying to law school because i seem to be condensing what many take months to do into a single month. i hated being generally unavailable for You during the conference.

i am reminded that i should never take You for granted and that i should never assume that i am automatically worthy of being used to please Your Cock. i must always continuously earn the privilege of serving You by showing You how desperately i wish to serve You. but i also wonder if at times when i feel overwhelmed and it becomes difficult for me to show my devotion to You because it comes at the expense of other obligations (in this case both are obligations that You created- my job and law school)- i wonder if at these times i will always have to expect that You will exacerbate my distress by expressing displeasure in me and even worse- by losing interest in me because i am unable to give You enough dedication.

tonight, i have made You lose so much interest in me that You went from choosing to spend the night to choosing not even communicating with me. as for now, this is what it is. i will try to make sure that i am absolutely prepared for your visits on the nights that You choose to see me.

i do not wish to be released, but i worry when i miss You because it makes me miserable. and right now i really really miss You.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #109 (Medieval Perversions)

Sir,

i have often fantasized about kidnapped women in the medieval era. this picture of the two
enslaved women looks like it could be an authentic illustration. i like that they have already been stripped halfway while men in the streets leer at them. they will surely be raped again and again and forced to submit to all sorts of perversions- perhaps they will even be forced to well in a dungeon and suffer torture as part of the inquisition.

i am glad that i did invest in cheesy torture museums when i visited europe as a teenager. the images and devices they used have often inspired my own fantasies.

this picture reminded me of the previous picture of a slut serving a mistress in heels. i am not personally aroused by any image of dominant women. this is why i only like to dominate other women- if i am dominating them then i am viewing their submissive side only and i do not have to witness a woman being dominant. but i did find the submissive slut in that picture quite sexy. i can hardly imagine having a slut of my own. i know i am not working on this goal.

today, i honestly did not have any time. i took several analytical sections and i am surprised at the rate that i improve at them but i am still not where i need to be. i believe it is quite possible for me to totally freeze and freak out on test day. i will do a full test tomorrow in the morning and be as accurate as possible in doing the test within the correct time limits and the correct time limits allowed between sections.

i am really angry at my workplace right now. the other co-workers assured me that the way i have been treated is absolutely terrible. i had been in fact warned about the boss's sister in advance. it's so unbelievably mean. of course, had she been a man who forced me to do extremely menial work simply to degrade me, i would have truly enjoyed it. it's almost a pity that i cannot stand female dominance over me. it is pretty bad though. it's almost unbelievable that a person with any education would ask an employee to clean up after their co-workers (who are sometimes younger and less educated). Alas, they are male and i am not, so somehow i have been denigrated to the most servile and menial of tasks (we previously used to share responsibility of keeping the office organized).

my job now specifically includes several janitorial tasks such as washing the dishes, vacuuming the chairs, taking out the trash. before everyone was expected to do their own dishes, only the cleaning service vacuumed the chairs once a week and we all took out the trash/recycling together by emptying our own bins. my boss's sister seems intend on making my job consist *only* about constantly fussing over the appearance of things. we also used to share the task
of answering phones and i now will do this all day, which i suppose prevents me from moving very far from my desk to attend the meetings where research is discussed. i really don't think i deserve any of this treatment aside from the expectation of being there from 10-6, which i suppose is a legitimate expectation even if no one else has to adhere to it. this evil woman doesn't have any idea of what goes on in the office- she had never observed me until the
conference. but she then made sure that the office manager mutilated my position into that of a household slave (i heard the conversation on the phone). this evil woman says she will come back from maternity leave in a few weeks. i seriously dread the day that will happen.

i am so thankful that You are making me be a lawyer. when i have a jd, no one will ever be able to do this to me again. i hate to delve into details that have nothing to do with my goals and nothing to do your interests, but this situation at work upsets me strongly. the only positive note is that everyone i work with is at least as appalled by this as i am- some of them are even without me saying anything since her treatment of me (and several of my predecessors) is so bad that it is apparent to everyone.

all of this drives me to study constantly for my LSAT. i cannot fuck this up. i have to get out of what i have made of my life. i do not want anyone except You to ever treat me like a servant ever again.

i pray to your Cock for the ability to improve my life. i pray to your Cock for peace of mind in the midst of adversity. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #108 (LSAT Stress)

Sir,

thank You so much for Your calls today. i am sorry that i was unable to serve You today and very thankful for your forgiving response. i hope your presentation goes well on tuesday. i thank You for forcing me to fuck my pussy. i would have liked to reveal my thoughts about it sooner, but You ordered me to write about it at night, so i have complied.

i fucked my pussy with your pen and thought of many of the ways and times You have fucked me: i thought about how You slap my face and force my slut legs apart in order to keep my cunt as exposed as possible to You while You thrust into me. i also thought about the porn i was downloading for You.

i have downloaded several hardcore bondage clips and i really enjoy them. i do not believe i would enjoy serious pain, but i certainly enjoy watching other
sluts forced to endure whippings, canings and severe spankings. i can see that it is extremely painful and leaves deep welts and tears in the skin. i do not believe i am at all masochistic, but perhaps i am wrong. i became very wet for You. and i wish to serve You directly with my fuckholes sometime in the near future.

the LSAT is stressing me out more. this evening i kind of had a mental meltdown in the middle of the analytical section, which doesn't surprise me really. i am honestly sort of surprised it did not happen earlier. i truly hate the section and find it extremely stressful. i think i might get a tutor simply to provide some advice in the back of my mind about tricks and diagramming structure that might be helpful. i hope i can do better than all my friends did in order to please You. i do have one acquaintance that i really will not do better than. she got a 179. she also has very wealthy parents who bought her a large condo in the best part of town while she goes to school.

she is also quite thin and tall and good looking and is married to some guy worth 100 million dollars. you'd think i'd be jealous, but i'm quite happy for her because she is from hong kong and i am happy to see that asian people are taking over america's social stratification. usually, it's snooty white girls that lead that kind of privileged existence. at least i am sure i will do better than every white girl i know. ire ally hope i do well on this test. i can't wait to get it over with.

Sir, i am really truly thankful that You told me You were pleased today. hearing You say those words means everything to me. i pray that i will be able to please You further and not falter in my concentration. i love Your Cock and i cannot wait to kneel before Your Cock again. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut

Slut Confession #107 (Indentured Servitude)

Sir,

yesterday, my co-workers and i went to get a quick meal before i came back home. we went to that vietnamese restaurant that i think we once went to together. i had the salmon and tomatoes, which were good. i mentioned that i was 'seeing someone' and one of my co-workers (one of many that asks me out on dates) said that he thought i would be better off being 'single' for a while. obviously, his advice fell on deaf ears, but i just smiled politely.

inside i was thinking that it was the worst idea i had heard in about a year and i wanted to tell him about my level of psychological dependence on You, which i don't find unhealthy or potentially detrimental. You make me a better person in every conceivable way. and i sometimes feel guilty because even though my stated purpose is to serve You and strive to please your Cock at all times, i feel that my devotion to You is still so selfish.

in plain words, i get so much out of it and i honestly feel that i am not capable of repaying You. even if i gave You everything that could possibly come from me, there would be no real parity between what we offer each other. i know that the clear first step to at least trying to offer You something is to give You whore layla who is gorgeous and a total fucking slut.

and once i get You whore layla or someone else, i do wonder what will happen next. i recall that You had said that You would want to push my depravity further once i was finished with law school apps and i was more settled. i sometimes worry about this because i wonder if we will come to a point that we find that our sexual interests diverge- it would be tragic to come to that point after investing years into a relationship. i guess i am over-thinking a problem that has not occurred, but i just want to make sure we are both happy. as of now, i have no experience in being shared or in exhibitionism and i wonder if i would absolutely hate doing those things to the point where i could not endure them for your sake. it is possible that i would love them if You required me to- i guess i don't know.

i am a bit stressed over law school applications, but in a good way. i am looking forward to applying and seeing what comes of it. i found college applications to be quite stressful and enervating but this i find to be an invigorating task. i do like taking the LSAT. for some reason, i like taking any standardized test. it's such a safe stress- it's not like anything bad can happen because of the consequences of what i do on private practice tests, but it is still a challenge with an end goal in mind. i guess i see them as some kind of cerebral nintendo game. i guess it's my new snood and i am very very happy to be able to replace my predilection for snood with a passion for a more useful game.

i look forward to working further on this goal tomorrow. i have outlined what i need to do and when i need to do it. i am very nervous about asking for letters of recommendation for some reason. i seem to be stuck in a belief that i am a really pathetic person and that no one would write a strong rec letter for me. i'll get over it though. i have to.

i pray to your Cock to be able to soon serve You on my knees. i miss the view of your Cock from under my desk, where i am forced to keep my head lower than where You sit. i give thank to your Cock because You have helped me so much in staying focused on this goal of applying to law school. i pray to your Cock for happiness. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut