Slut Confession #218 (Path to Forgiveness)

Master,

i do not know why i tried to be disobedient and delinquent in writing this confession. i do not know why i would expect any positive reaction for such behavior. kitten slut has contacted me and said she will play occasionally and that she needs to go at a slower pace. honestly, i can understand. i do not think she is lost entirely and i think she will indeed come and serve as our pet in the future if You wish. so i hope that is part of a step towards forgiveness for me. maybe someday in the future i will be able to convince her to become our owned pet again.

today, i will meet with the korean slut as well. perhaps later, i can convince her to play. i do not know if i will go to the party today as there is no point in engaging in sexual activity that does not please You. perhaps i should go to acquire new sluts in case You are still interested? i have also been exchanging emails with some new local people online and hopefully i can make a pet out of somebody as well. it is hard for me to say as i cannot know who is real and who is sincere.

so, please do not lose interest in me as i hope to be able to present You with new sluts and i do not know what i will do with them without the motivation to impress You. it is interesting that You show me tenderness and let me cum really hard when other people watch. likewise, i only show my dominant side and pursue sluts if You are there to watch even though in theory i fantasize about lesbian sex all the time. it is a way i suppose that we are compatible and i know i have to learn to be an effective owner and i think i can.

Master, i am so sad these days because You do not contact me. i am not really close to giving up because my attachment to serving your Cock runs so deep. it just distresses me so much. i know i should show consistent obedience in order to prove that the devotion to your Cock i so often speak of is real to me. i wish i knew what You were thinking and where You are. Sir, is there some goal that i could accomplish which would encourage You to speak to me again? i suppose i need not really ask. i must arrange for a slut to jerk Your cum onto my face, yes?

i hope You consider any alternative besides just leaving me. i am entirely distraught about the possibility of existing without revolving around your Cock. it gets harder to believe that i am capable of independence every time that You begin to ignore me and threaten to leave me. it is harder now because i have felt your kindness again, which is all i strive to achieve. it is what motivates me. this current state of withdrawal of your Cock is the worst possible state for me. it is probably worse that being sent to master erik. i will try to speak to kitten this weekend and arrange a time for her to play again. if she is coming tonight would You want her to spend the night with us? i would guess that right now You still want nothing to do with me because of my inability to maintain this slut.

today, i came very hard while remembering serving You. i thought of how You force me to spread my legs so wide while You thrust into me. Master the slightest reminder of your presence when You fuck me makes my cunt sopping wet. You are so purely dominant in the way You hold your posture and fuck me so hard and hold me down in such painful ways. i wonder what You think when You fuck me. i am always thankful when You slap my face or force me to tell You how much i love your Cock and how much i am a slave to your Cock.

thank You so much for degrading me as i deserve to be when You enjoy my cunt fuckhole and show me that i am indeed a collection of holes to serve your Cock. but when i came, i thought about how You allowed me to drink Your piss and how i felt so intimately connected to You. i loved knowing that You were so pleased that You allowed me such a reward and i loved knowing that this is something that most sluts cannot do for You. i felt good about myself and i felt like a fully domesticated pet. i think about the way You feed me from your hand as i kneel on your floor and how You get so hard and fuck me with such strong thrusts in the few seconds before You cum. i am grateful for all of You. i love all of your movements, all of your bodily fluids and all of Your word. of course above all, i love your Cock and i need your Cock to use me and act as my Master.

Master, i pray to your Cock for forgiveness. i pray for communication. i pray that i find a slut for You and that You accept her. i pray that your Cock still loves me back. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut in training