Slut Confession #238 (Effort Versus Results)

Master,

i love your Cock so much and i am working hard at finding sluts for You. i check my emails for sluts or owners of sluts first thing in the morning. then, i go to work and begin searching BDSM sites for sluts to serve your Cock. i work tirelessly to find new opportunities for sluts or for You to degrade me in front of others. i toil constantly as though i am Your slave because i am Your slave. Master, i suppose this kind of demonstrated effort is the beginning of what You expect from a good cum slut and pet. i hope to put more and more effort until i successfully find the perfect pet for us.

Sir, i feel happy to serve your Cock by pining the online world for sluts as i love to feel that i am doing labor directly for your Cock. i even tell myself to stop to do other things i must do like email my mother and do work my employer would prefer, but now i am so invested and focused on serving your Cock that i can do nothing else. Master, i do hope that You choose to keep me and make me closer to You.

i am motivated when i remember the times You have shown me affection and allowed me in Your house. such times have always been what motivate me. i remember telling You stories while You kept me on the floor and i felt so happy to serve You as a kept pet.

i enjoy being wholly consumed by the task of serving your Cock. i wish You to know that even when my inbox is not filled with evidence of my efforts in finding a slut, i still love your Cock and think of it reverently throughout the day. Sir, i am always obedient to your Cock as You are always my Master. i hope You are less displeased with me than You usually are and i hope to earn your Cock again soon. i would especially love to sleep near You as i was sad that You left after using my fuckholes.

i try not to think of some of the experiences that were so painful for me when they happened but sometimes i cannot help it. it makes me cry when i think of them. i am sad when i remember in august how You did not respond to my emails or confessions for several days. i am sad when i remember how You left me in january to go to the bar after fucking my holes and did not return. i am sad when i remember how You first deleted my emails after using my fuckholes and making me confide my insecurities in You and then ignored me for a little while.

i was not very sad when You left on sunday as i expected You would not stay the night. but now it is beginning to hurt when i realize that You used my fuckholes while i was hooded and left me and that it was the first time i had seen You in about a month. the experience of being used and forgotten as an anonymous set of fuckholes made my cunt wet when it happened but now it makes me sad somehow. i like to be your owned kittyslut far more than i like to be a set of fuckholes You have contempt for and have no interest in taking care of.

those are things that make me sad and make me wonder if You really care about me at all. after all, i don't have any evidential reason to believe You do care about me but i wish You do. i suppose there are plenty of instances which would indicate that You do not care about me. i hope that is not the case.

i miss your Cock, and i miss Your presence. i miss our conversations in person, and i miss Your bedroom. i hope i can earn a chance to be used there again. i wish i had a reason to devote myself tirelessly to your Cock all day long and every day forever because i cannot help being drawn to serving You. i am purely a Cock driven cum slut and i am so thankful that You treat me as so and i am so thankful that You make my cunt wet for so long and at all times.

i pray to your Cock to be used in Your house. i pray to your Cock to earn being used again. i pray to your Cock to find fun experiences for your Cock with other
sluts. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut in training