Slut Confession #130 (Ungrateful Fuckpet)

Master,

i hope your day went well. i am distraught to know that i am the most disobedient and ungrateful fuckpet. it is sad for me to hear this because as time goes on, i manage to revolve around your Cock more and more and on deeper levels. i do think of You all the time. i wish i knew what to do to demonstrate the reverence and affection i feel for You. i understand that accomplishing my goals are all You ask for, but i really wish there were more i could do. for me the worst part about not yet having earned to ability to serve You more often is that i have such narrow opportunities to show my appreciation for You. i see You for only a few hours at a time and my activities during this time are quite strictly prescribed (and thank You for being strict with me, Master).

i was sad to hear that You once had a well-trained japanese slut who was better at anticipating your needs and reacting to them. i feel that it is a great failure on my part for not having done this so far. i feel that while this pet somehow managed to serve You more effectively than i do, i still feel greater reverence for your Cock. Master, it is impossible for me to feel happy knowing that i am such a poor pet. i did not realize that i was so comparatively difficult. i don't know how i manage to think about your Cock all day long and still not do the simple things required of me to your satisfaction. Master, i know i do not deserve it, but please punish me.

Master, i found out that my mom was not upset because i did not want to stay with her, but because she is very worried about a number of issues. she is worried about being alone, distraught that her mother harangues her over being alone and she is getting older and experiencing new health problems. my mother said that two weeks ago she found a large lump in her breast and had it removed. she said that the whole thing was removed (i hope) and that there was a 50% chance it was cancerous. she did not tell me or anyone else in the family this before- not my brother or her mother or her sister. i was the first she told now and she was angry that i have been unavailable to her. i feel that i have been a neglectful daughter. i wish i could help my mom. i think she must be very sad that i am not likely to be able to take care of her the way she takes care of her mother. now that she doesn't have my dad, she has a lot less money and is worried about her financial and emotional future. it's so sad for me to see her like this. i wish she finds someone. as i wish i could serve You better, i wish i could make my mother happier. my mom wants me to do well on my LSAT, but she isn't entirely keen on me going to law school. she was very angry when i told her that i wished to work on asylum law cases. she wants me to pursue more lucrative career options. while i don't really fret over disappointing my father, i am as sad that i have been a disappointment to my mother as i am sad that i have been a disappointment to You.

underachieving is, i suppose, a terrible habit of mine. but i believe that if i obey You and dedicate myself to serving your Cock properly, then i will become a better person and i will not be an underachiever anymore.

thank You,
kittyslut