Slut Confession #119 (Disappointing Fuckpet)

Master,

i will try to take better pictures of me posing to resemble the photograph You showed me. unfortunately, i do not have a real camera, so i cannot really improve the lighting of the flash. i have turned on all the lights in my room and i do not know what else i can do. i will try again later in the daylight. i will have to open my window curtains and expose myself as a slut to everyone. they would watch me through the window as i spread my legs and exposed my fuckholes to my laptop camera with the pen inside. but i suppose i deserve such humiliation for being unable to satisfy You.

Master, i hope i have not displeased You so much so that i will not be allowed to serve your Cock on tonight but if i am to be honest with myself, then i suppose i might have. i feel so wary of asking (or telling) whore layla to pose herself in this way as i blew her off during the weekend. i feel that telling her to do something is tantamount to me offering to be her Domme, which i do not want to do. in any case, i honestly don't think i can find the time between law school applications and studying for the LSATs. my progress with regard to the LSAT is remarkably slow. half the test is logical reasoning and i am finding it extremely difficult to make any improvement whatsoever in this section. i am so afraid that You will "break up" (decollar) me if i do not achieve the goal You have stated for me. i do not mind the fear- i suppose it might help give me subconscious motivation to do well. i just hope it isn't a fear grounded in reality.

thank You for everything Master. i hate to be such a disappointing fuckpet. i don't think our goals are unfair or harsh. i am so thankful that You enforce them for me.

i must remind myself that my purpose is to obey You. now, You have told me to make whore layla expose herself in pictures and i must do it even though i have no desire to interact with her.

i wish to see the strip club with You, if that should please You Master. i wonder if watching sluts degrade themselves before sleazy men would be good for me.

Master, i am very tired. my goal for tomorrow is to be a much better fuckpet than i was today. i don't mean to look like i have forgotten my place or my purpose. i recall that when we first men, You said that your japanese fuckpet used to act up deliberately in order to prod You into disciplining her. i do not mean to ever do such things. i wish only to be good and obedient, completely owned.

i miss your Cock. i need your Cock because i need to serve your Cock. i am thankful about the possibility of serving You tomorrow and i hope i don't fuck it up. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut