Slut Confession #113 (Clarity from Obedience)

Master,

i hope your week went well and was not too disturbed because You had to cancel appointments in order to discipline me on wednesday. i am still both in pain and very thankful that You chose to discipline me and to spend time with me.

i am still very angry that i missed you call. i must admit though, that i do plan to keep my phone silent sometimes when i practice LSAT. i really feel like it's going to be tough for me to get over a 170, but i will try. there are still three weeks till the test and i suppose i can do a fair bit of stabilizing and improving over this time. i want to make You proud. i know You said that i needed to be someone intelligent and respectable in order for You to be attracted to me. this is my entire motivation for trying to do well.

i am of course thankful that You have instilled this kind of a standard in me. and i am definitely thankful that You chose to implement corporal punishment on me in order to remind me of my place and impel me to greater obedience towards You. feeling obedient to You gives me mental clarity- it makes me feel focused and in psychological control over my emotions (of course, You have control over my emotions as You can easily choose to make me happy or worried or afraid etc.).

today, at work i began to make progress on my personal statement, partially at the behest of one of my co-workers, who seconds that this institute no longer deserves so much as an ounce of my dedication. today was the final straw. there have been weekly lectures given by local academics. the lectures are at 2pm and in the past, i had seen several. today i attended, as usual, as did most of my co-workers and in the middle the old crone office manager pulled me out of the lecture and told me to stay by the phone to answer it and then put out the cookies and drinks for when the lecture was over. apparently, it is desirable for the men to learn but when i do so, i am being lazy and idle and i need to be given some menial task like reception work etc. its insulting enough to be the sole person worth pulling out of a lecture, but to have to set out cookies for those left to listen (and then have to clean the crumbs)- that is more than i care for. i still like the people i work with and they are at least as aware of my ill treatment as i am, but as far as the job goes, this place is getting 0.0 effort from me beyond the bare minimum not to get fired. i suppose that is useful since i can now focus on goals You have given me at work.

i pray to Your Cock to be able to concentrate and improve on my LSAT. i give thanks for the pain that i still feel from the corporal punishment that i am thankful You implemented on me. i am most thankful of all for returning to a more obedient mind state. i love Your Cock, Master. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut