Slut Confession #107 (Indentured Servitude)

Sir,

yesterday, my co-workers and i went to get a quick meal before i came back home. we went to that vietnamese restaurant that i think we once went to together. i had the salmon and tomatoes, which were good. i mentioned that i was 'seeing someone' and one of my co-workers (one of many that asks me out on dates) said that he thought i would be better off being 'single' for a while. obviously, his advice fell on deaf ears, but i just smiled politely.

inside i was thinking that it was the worst idea i had heard in about a year and i wanted to tell him about my level of psychological dependence on You, which i don't find unhealthy or potentially detrimental. You make me a better person in every conceivable way. and i sometimes feel guilty because even though my stated purpose is to serve You and strive to please your Cock at all times, i feel that my devotion to You is still so selfish.

in plain words, i get so much out of it and i honestly feel that i am not capable of repaying You. even if i gave You everything that could possibly come from me, there would be no real parity between what we offer each other. i know that the clear first step to at least trying to offer You something is to give You whore layla who is gorgeous and a total fucking slut.

and once i get You whore layla or someone else, i do wonder what will happen next. i recall that You had said that You would want to push my depravity further once i was finished with law school apps and i was more settled. i sometimes worry about this because i wonder if we will come to a point that we find that our sexual interests diverge- it would be tragic to come to that point after investing years into a relationship. i guess i am over-thinking a problem that has not occurred, but i just want to make sure we are both happy. as of now, i have no experience in being shared or in exhibitionism and i wonder if i would absolutely hate doing those things to the point where i could not endure them for your sake. it is possible that i would love them if You required me to- i guess i don't know.

i am a bit stressed over law school applications, but in a good way. i am looking forward to applying and seeing what comes of it. i found college applications to be quite stressful and enervating but this i find to be an invigorating task. i do like taking the LSAT. for some reason, i like taking any standardized test. it's such a safe stress- it's not like anything bad can happen because of the consequences of what i do on private practice tests, but it is still a challenge with an end goal in mind. i guess i see them as some kind of cerebral nintendo game. i guess it's my new snood and i am very very happy to be able to replace my predilection for snood with a passion for a more useful game.

i look forward to working further on this goal tomorrow. i have outlined what i need to do and when i need to do it. i am very nervous about asking for letters of recommendation for some reason. i seem to be stuck in a belief that i am a really pathetic person and that no one would write a strong rec letter for me. i'll get over it though. i have to.

i pray to your Cock to be able to soon serve You on my knees. i miss the view of your Cock from under my desk, where i am forced to keep my head lower than where You sit. i give thank to your Cock because You have helped me so much in staying focused on this goal of applying to law school. i pray to your Cock for happiness. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut