Slut Confession #215 (Slut Role Model)

Master,

i wanted to serve You in a way that i can from afar. i found a porn of a slut who i think should be a very important role model for me.

http://youporn.com/watch/40657

i think she is a very good slut because she makes all her fuckholes very available and displays them to the camera. i feel very admiring of how this slut sucks cock so eagerly after the man shoves it in her asshole in order to lubricate it so that he can fuck her ass hard some more. i wish i could become like this slut. i hope i can learn.

i should be ashamed of losing kitten slut now. on the bright side, i do not think she is completely lost for practical purposes. if we could have her visit on occasion and serve us, then really we would get the same thing out of this relationship for less effort. still, i know that You like to own sluts in their entirety and i am very grateful for this.

i called ddd cup slut today and her story managed to get even worse. she did pick up the phone and speak to me and i get the impression that this story must be true because she simply is not avoiding me. she said that in fact her doctor did not tell her that the disease was scabies and told her that it was some "organism" that infested her skin. he said that she would be itchy even after all the 'mites' died because there would still be dead mites under her skin.

she said that her dom also has the same problem and that they are working together to get rid of it. she also said that she saw her doctor about two weeks ago, which suggests that she had this problem when i played with her and we have already been lucky that we avoided it. Sir, had the problem been scabies, then i would not be so frightened as i know that is benign despite it's repugnance. but an "unknown organism?" this sounds like the start of a horror movie. gosh, exactly whose piss is she drinking?

Sir, now that i am exercising more, i have more energy and i am devoting it finding sluts as that is my most important task. i have messaged many sluts online and i will try and get some numbers on thursday and on saturday.

Master, You once asked me if i wanted to be your slut forever or your equal and You said that it was an important choice that i had to make or that You had to make for me. and i know that You made that choice when we had dinner on friday. i could see that You were at first irritated by my ignorance of personal finances, but then stopped being irritated when You lowered your standards and decided that i was meant to be owned, beaten and controlled for the rest of my life. i am an odd creature because as You have noted, i am missing something upstairs and i fail to notice a great many important things and do frequently get lost in my own slut imagination. but something i am not missing is an ability to read other people and i have some sense of what even You are thinking even though You are one to conceal all of your emotions, especially ones You feel more deeply.

i know that i am meant to be a slave to your Cock, but i would regret if You could never respect me as such and if You truly are in need of an equal. some people can see their slaves as equals even though they remain slaves. i am not sure You are one of these people. i somehow feel the need to tell You that i do not intend on being unable to make major financial decisions and i am not really so inept that i cannot make them. at this point in my life, i have just resigned myself to being broke so i do not put any energy into thinking about how to be marginally less broke. if i had my preference, it would be of course to follow your preference, but independently i would like to be a submissive Cock slave to You forever and i would like to be loved and treated with tenderness for what i am. i know that i must give You what You require to earn such treatment. but if You need an equal companion to feel complete, please tell me. i will never be dominant the way You are, but i am able to take more initiative in general. i guess i am always afraid to infringe on your plans.

Master, i pray to your Cock for forgiveness. i pray to your Cock for severe punishment. i pray to your Cock for forgiveness again because i know You are livid. i pray that your Cock will love me back because i still love so much. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut in training