Slut Confession #211 (Missed Opportunities)

Master,

thank You for your call and please punish me because my phone was off. i am ashamed to even present reasons for such disobedient and negligent acts, because it sounds like i am making excuses. nonetheless, i must reveal the nature of my transgression to You in order to receive the most fitting punishment. Sir, i turned my phone off in class and then ended up speaking with a tutor until about 10pm. then, i came home from the class and fell asleep and did not wake up until now- after 4am. i am at least thankful that i awoke in time to write You a confession before You awake, but i am quite displeased with myself for missing calls from You and kitten slut and for failing to call ddd cup slut for tonight's playdate.

i understand that i must pack everything and bring it to work. i planned to do so before You told me, surprisingly. and i also was already pondering how i would bring a riding crop to work. had You not given me explicit orders, i would have avoided packing it since it is too long to fit in a bag and i fear i will not be able to hide it in my coat all day. i am still not sure how i will bring it. i hope You are safe as it says we can expect 3-5 inches of snow.

Master, i am so impressed by ddd cup slut's timely and sensible responses to my emails. it is clear how owned sluts are much more competent sluts. kitten slut does not understand what it is to be owned yet, so her responses are not as good as ddd cup slut's. i am not sure if ddd cup slut's responses are the result of her being owned by someone of competence or if she is owned because she is capable of providing useful responses. i am somewhat impressed that she has maintained steady interest since first time we played. kitten slut's interest has been strong, but i feel it is based in her "clingyness" and need for attention rather than her capacity to make a rational commitment.

it is useful to me to see how other sluts react. i want to be the best slut. i wish we could own ddd cup slut. i will keep in touch with her to see where her relationship with her dom goes. in the end, very few owners mark their sluts as permanent property.

owning kitten shows me just how much work must be put into making sure a slut knows that she is owned. i will not be a valley girl any longer and i will not give easy permission to sluts to give their holes to others. i was quite foolish to do so as i become almost heartbroken when You do not seem possessive of my fuckholes. i love feeling owned and i like feeling that You have some territorial feelings towards me. i bet that kitten slut also feels rejected when i do not take possessive ownership of her slut body.

it is both hard for me to understand that kitten wants to me owned and for me to plan how i should treat her and what i should make her do. but i am learning and i am quite motivated by the fact that i want o avoid being secondary material in your eyes. i am thankful that You would not outright reject me and that You might offer to keep me as a secondary if the case is that i cannot keep sluts and train them, but i cannot bring myself to being secondary to any primary. i am some kind of a greedy slut. i should revel in the fact that i am both kitten slut's primary and your primary in the relationship between the two of us. it is the most favorable possible arrangement for me and it is one that i have fantasized about.

Master, You said that primaries were sluts who submitted because they chose to and not because they are too helpless to choose to govern themselves and others. i admit that submission can't exactly be called a choice for me. being your submissive slut is my intractable nature, but i do not want to be submissive because i can't take the reins, so to speak. i need to develop my dominant side, Sir and i thank You for noting this. i need it for reasons that extend outside the bedroom.

Sir, i pray to your Cock to keep kitten slut. i pray to please You well with ddd cup slut. i pray to earn your Cock tonight. i pray for forgiveness. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut in training