Slut Confession #212 (Atonement Requirement)

Master,

thank You so much for using my cunt fuckhole last night. i have so much to thank You for of course and so much more to atone for, but i think i should always take care to express special gratitude when You choose to use my wet cunt fuckhole and then jerk cum all over my slut body.

i suppose we are fortunate that ddd cup slut chose to warn us of her scabies condition (yuck!) before we used her. she is a true slut by nature though, so i hope we can soon use her anyways when she recovers.

Master, i must also thank You for telling me to fuck my cunt for Your entertainment while i lay exposed in slut position at your feet. i was so thankful to be able to watch the bulge of your balls in your boxers as i fucked my cunt vigorously for You. i became extremely wet and horny that way. thank You for allowing me to cum for You as well as i know i do not deserve to orgasm before You. i was so thankful that You required me to tell You how i would become more obedient to your Cock as You fucked me hard. i am sincerely very thankful that You fucked me hard until You came because i am so afraid that i will lose my title of cum slut again because i fail to be able to make You cum through my extreme disobedience.

thank You so much for requiring me to present myself on all fours many times so that You could observe my ass. i am grateful that the shape pleases You. i love to lie at your feet and i am very thankful that You do not object to me kissing your feet on occasion. i am a cuddly slut and i am thankful that You allow me to show You this affection.

Sir, i was sad that You had me sleep on the floor and not on your bed. it was cold and hard and i did not sleep well at all. i was very thankful though that You gave me your socks and then a sheet and then turned the space heater on in the middle of the night and then gave me a nice blanket which finally allowed me to sleep. and i became so happy when You told me You would take me out for breakfast in the morning. i felt thankful to know that You were still interested in my company even though i had not met Your standards this week.

i thank You for allowing me to speak to Your esteemed colleagues on the phone. i am so happy to be slowly integrated into the rest of your social life. i hope that i would impress Your colleagues if i ever meet them. i want them to think that You own a slut to be coveted. even if i am often a disobedient slut, i want others to envy You as if You own the most perfect slut in the world.

Sir, i am puzzled about what to do in that You do not want to use corporal punishment on me. i understand that it is frustrating that i do not improve as You would like when You punish me, but am confused about why You generally dislike punishing me. i recall that the first time i served You as your slut more than two years ago, You beat me with your strap and paddle quite brutally and at the time, i had not even earned the punishment. and i know that You were pleased while watching me whip kitten until her ass was red with welts and that You enjoyed making me give her spankings from You.

thus, i assume that You do enjoy administering whippings. yet, You seem to avoid whipping me as much as possible. i have become confused about what i should do. i know that as Your owned slut cunt, i desperately need discipline and i crave the stings of your whippings even though i am far from masochistic. i sometimes consider begging frantically for a whipping while presenting You with an appropriate punishment tool, but i am always afraid of acting or moving outside of what You order.

i think my fear of acting outside your orders is part of what drives my inadequacy and disobedience. when i heard that your former slut arranged slut a pleasant evening for You, i was so sad because i could not think of serving You in such a way. aside from not having the resources right now, i would have been too nervous to make any kind of plans for You. and i was sad last week when You asked why i did not give You back massages. i would love to serve You in that way as well, but i am nervous to ask to touch your body in ways that You do not invite.

i also had been nervous to speak to my sluts for fear of saying something beyond what You would desire, but now i think it is better for me to make some attempt at communicating so that You can best train me by pointing out my errors.

Master, it was too bad that i was not able to kiss You goodbye today. i hope You have an excellent and successful week and i hope that i will impress You with my conversations with sluts from afar.

i pray to your Cock to be able to hold your Cock all through the night while i am collared in your bed. i pray to earn your cum again. i pray that ddd cup slut gets better and really wants to serve. i pray that i stop acting like a secondary. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut in training