Slut Confession #194 (DDD Cup Slut)

Master,

i am so happy that You see me as more obedient now and that sluts are seeking to play with me. i am eager for You to discuss your will with me so that i can properly realize what will please You.

i will train the enormous-titted ddd cup slut to entertain You. i can understand that her dom will need what he lends to be requited, so i must volunteer to play with him as well. but the idea of letting him fuck me makes me cringe. ddd cup slut's dom can rightfully be called a dom, but he is an actor. he only plays the part of a role which You naturally define. his dominance is so studied, so affected and at times even theatrical. he is attractive, technically, but such means little to me. i am purely driven to serve as a slave to your Cock. other men are pieces of meat to me as far as sex is considered.

Master, i could not avoid thinking about how terrifying You can be sometimes. the way You fucked me on sunday morning was perhaps the most sexually intense experience of my life. i am still really scared of it. i am so scared that i fear what will happen the next time that You use my fuckholes.

i believe You when You say that You will show me that i am more depraved than even i know and i know myself to be a pure slave to your Cock. it makes me nervous about what i am and what You have in store for me. i notice that You only allow me to reach deeper levels of servitude when You are pleased and i am thankful for that. but with this, i see that the more You are pleased with me, the darker the acts i must perform for You will become.

i am once again reminded of the complexity and depth of your psychological sadism. sometimes, i forget because You do not express that much physical sadism, which i am thankful for. i do want to please You by enduring pain and showing You obedience, but You know that i cannot independently enjoy pain. in the way that your former slut pines for the genuine fear and awe that You induce, i am thankful to belong to someone whose dominance and sadism is so formidable.

Master, yesterday You said that your dominance runs through every fiber of your being, which it clearly does. is that a state You aspire to or something You simply have to accept? i wonder because before You asked if my true slut nature impels me into a life of under achievement and thwarted ambitions. i believe that indeed my true slut nature makes me punish myself, seek out circumstances which oppress me and live in the bottom of a totem pole of society. i would guess that an advantage of your truly dominant nature is that it pushes You to be successful. but i wonder, does your nature come with its drawbacks? the dominants of my fantasies in childhood were aware of their barriers. my fantasy doms feel lonely even when they are with someone they are obsessed with owning.

they wonder why they cannot bring themselves to open up to their partners. they tell themselves that someday they will open themselves to freely love and wonder if one day they will regret the cold and controlling presence they can't let down. i wonder if that is just my imagination or if true dominant people actually feel that way.

but in any case, i worship You for who You are and for what You are. i love your Cock and i love to obey You. i pray to your Cock to please You well with ddd cup slut. i pray to continue to be your special pet and good pet for the rest of my life. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut in training