i am so upset with myself for coming back too late to serve your Cock tonight. i look forward to nothing more than worshiping your Cock and hope that You will allow me to atone for my negligence soon. i am both sorry the bus took longer than i wanted it too, but i suppose my real error was that i incorrectly estimated the time it would take to come to home so i could serve your cock in person and that is a way of conscious disobedience, perhaps. i do not wish to make this type of mistake anymore. Really, there are these loose ends i tend to be imprecise about that most visibly hurt me when it comes to You. But i feel that if i learn not to make mistakes in order to serve You, i will make fewer mistakes when it comes to everything else as well.
my friend who got married is an extraordinarily kind person. he is very waspy and his family holds there cord for the most siblings to attend the same ivy league college (her mother and 4 brothers). he and his wife met in college (now, she is in law school).
dan has just finished a pre-med degree, and i met several of his friends from college who travelled abroad, doing good works. they told me many sad stories of their clients including stories of immigrant women with traumatic pasts as many come from countries like thailand, cambodia, vietnam. where they had been raped, tortured, etc. yes, it was true that these terrible stories later made me horny because i am a sick depraved person, but i did think it would be valiant of me to act as an amnesty lawyer to such women. it was probably the first time i ever looked positively on the idea of being a lawyer. i know there is a domestic violence shelter for asian women who suffer from such violence. perhaps i should volunteer to develop my interest in this work. i would certainly like that more than paralegaling, which involves filing and crossing out words on documents.
the story i was told was of a girl who was forced to watch her brother rape their mother at gunpoint before he was forced to chop off the hands of his uncles. she was then taken to UN refugee camp where a corrupt UN worker raped her repeatedly and abused her continuously- basically kept her as a
sex slave. she escaped with her mother to the US and now has the child of the rapist. she is basically insane and dysfunctional and cannot get out of bed. i wouldn't say hearing the story made me wet, exactly, but i must admit i've spent many hours fantasizing about parts of it. this makes me feel guilty since she is a real suffering person. i feel guilty so i want to help her.
thank You for allowing me to worship your Cock through a written prayer every night- it is my favorite part of the day. i pray to your perfect Cock to provide me with the discipline not disappoint You with my distracted stupid slut mind. i pray to your Cock to feel satisfied with me so You do not remove your Cock from the center of my life. i pray to your great Cock to allow me to please You so that You wish to control more of my life and make more decisions for me because it is all i need to be fulfilled due to my depraved slut nature. Amen.
thank You,
kittyslut
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