Slut Confession #84 (Captured Princess Fantasy)

Master,

i had an excellent time at the wedding and was happy to see my friends again. weddings do make me a bit jealous, i suppose, even though i am just starting my 25th year and i am hardly an old maid yet. i don't know if that comes from parental pressure either. i think part of it is actually based in my internal fantasies.

when i was a child, my influences were fairy tales and disney movies where the princess is usually about 16. from there, i began to fantasize about medieval princesses being captured, raped and tortured by the villain. my villains were never ugly and old, but instead youngish and handsome. and i tend to fantasize about the same heroes for years at a time.

my first fantasy crush might have been prince Erik from little Mermaid. when i was about 11, i remember switching to the model from a preferred stock cologne for men ad. he had shoulder length blonde hair and that sat well with my fantasies of a medieval lord (i did not like knights in shining armor- i liked oppressive feudal lords in black armor). when i was 14perhaps, i believe i switched to the man in the Aquadi Gio ads as my base for a number of fantasies.

since i am somehow monogamous to my male fantasy characters,my fantasies generally involve one submissive female (an idealized version of myself that looks nothing like me). and in my fantasy, there is a committed monogamous relationship even though my imaginary Master may have multiple slaves. he likes my idealized self the best.

in my fantasies, the hero kidnaps the heroine and keeps her for himself in a dungeon or tower or confined to his quarters. but he does like to keep direct and obsessive control over her. she has to run away to get away from him (and then i get to fantasize about her be in kidnapped again, yeah!!).

real relationships with their uncertainties do not fit with my fantasies. i like marriage because it actualizes my fantasies in the sense that marriage had traditionally bound the wife to a subservient position to her husband for life. that turns me on.

dear lord (You), i fetishize marriage! no wonder my therapist thinks i need to come in 3 times a week.

Prayer: Sir, thank You for accepting me as your pet even though i am not worthy of worshiping your Cock. i pray to your Cock for the strength to obey at all times and serve to the best of my abilities. i pray to your Cock to force me to accept my cum slut nature so that i am more purely focused on serving You and feel nothing but gratitude when doing so. i pray to your Cock to give me strength so that i am able to find You another submissive who will entertain You by allowing a hierarchy. i pray for these things so that You will be fulfilled and use my fuckholes to satisfy the Cock i worship.

thank You,
kittyslut