Slut Confession #41 (Cumslut Failure)

Master,

i am both excited and nervous about the gift You have planned for me. i know that this means i must make sure to be extremely good this week and make progress towards all of my goals. i am so happy that You are going ahead with this major plan for me as i see how much effort You do indeed put into me and how seriously You take me. it is romantic in a way.

i felt remarkably high energy today from working out as a habit. i didn't even drink any coffee today and normally i don't really have any energy if i do not drink coffee. i am now going to "cook" for myself this month in order to achieve a maximally healthy lifestyle. for some reason, when i go out, i have no sense of eating healthy. but when i shop for myself, i never buy anything unhealthy. i know if i can quite achieve eating six small meals a day, but i know that i can cut out all unnecessary fats and oils, avoid meat and eat lots of fruits, nuts and veggies. the good thing about not knowing how to cook is that salads and vegetable wraps become default.

i can see my muscle tone improving just a little. perhaps it will be even better by the 7th. on the workout goal, i seem to do better than average as i definitely work out more than 3 times a week and i think i might have started to see weight loss from it. but i know i am slow when it comes to the girl partner. truthfully, i am usually slow when it comes to men too. i think this is why we have always had a compatibility issue.

You are not slow or tentative at all and i never jump right into sexual acts or relationships. i don't know why. it makes me feel gross. i like to make sure i really like a person before i do those things with them. i like to exercise because i should want to be a pretty cumslut, but right now i feel sad whenever i think of that word. i used to love to think of myself as cumslut and it really made me wet around your pen. but after You said that i couldn't really be a cumslut if i couldn't make You cum, the word just makes me sad. i would be sad to add "cumslut" to my list of failures in life. i want the words "cumslut" to once again make me so wet that i cannot think. i think i need your permission for that to happen.

thank You,
kittyslut