Slut Confession #58 (First Girl Date)

Master,

tonight, i went on my date with a girl, a first for me. margarita has a decent body as she is quite small. it was sort of odd. since it was her first time dating a woman, i expected her to be bi or straight- feminine, but as soon as i met her, i could tell she was a lesbian. it's not that she is boorish or butch looking- she just has a really lesbian demeanor. so, we went through the mall (and i saw the best little black dress) and we got to knowing each other.

she told me that she had always been attracted to women, hadn't been with a man in about a year and that she never did anything about this because her family is strictly catholic and she didn't want to disappoint her mother. she does seem shy and is very nice. she says she doesn't know many people in the city outside of her 4 siblings and their spouses. we sat down to eat.

this is where she started to tell me about how she didn't like men and latino men especially because they were too controlling- telling her what to do, where to go, what not to wear, being macho. she says she is done with men . it was kind of hard for me not to start laughing. all i could think of was "this is rich- she's really going to *love* Master" ...or not.

i asked her about sex and it seems she has no easy reference point. sex with men is surely not her thing even if she doesn't know it yet, so she doesn't know what she likes. she wants to try a girl and have fun- go out, dance close and eat pussy. she maybe could be my submissive, but she is never going to be someone i can present to You. sigh. it's the problem with lesbians. a few submissive ones might not be fat, but if they are bi, why aren't they with a guy already? a guy that prevents them from seeing other guys.

maybe i'll start to have sex with girls and decide i'm a lesbian who will never see guys myself. stranger things have happened! like...um... nevermind then. another funny thing was that i realize that i am such a chick and that it is extremely unnatural for me to assume any dominant posture in normal interaction. margarita opened doors for me, led me around the store- her personality is more forceful that way and she probably isn't as acclimated to dated men as i am (this seems to destroy the habit of taking charge on dates).

in any case, i was still more aggressive when were kissing in the car. surely this is partially because she is shy, but i get the feeling that in that arena she needs someone to show her what to do and also is just the type of person that can be told what to do. she would probably enjoy it, actually. i find her somewhat dull although extremely nice. i will go out with her tomorrow- maybe to the local lesbian bar and i will try to dance with her and whoever else i can pick up. i have learned that while getting my pussy eaten and kissing a girl might be fun, i really could do without the dating part and that i miss You, Sir. i just want one of these bitches to eat me so that i can see You.

thank You,
kittyslut