i am so sorry to have been such an incredibly bad pet today. maybe i am pms-ed. i do not know. but i am so sorry i am whining and making so much of an issue over the goals You have given me.
yes, they are simple goals that average people can do. thank You for continuously motivating me to do them and thank You for not giving in to my confused whining. i guess i just miss You so much that i want to somehow get partial credit for my goals so that i can see You. but i know that arguing with your judgment is not a proper way of doing this and that i must sincerely accomplish your goals as You have stated them.
i think of You when i am in pilates class and the positions are difficult. it is like being posed with a spreader bar, but i keep them for You because i know You would be disappointed if i didn't. i also recall that if i can accept physical punishment for You then i can withstand hard workouts, which are less painful.
i didn't expect it, but i was really depressed today at work. i cried several times at my computer. basically, because You weren't talking to me. i didn't really know what to do about it as i didn't want to pester You if that was how You felt. i really do want to develop a better attitude towards the goals You tell me to work towards. i do not want to feel resentful / daunted / tired / etc of goals- I just want to feel happy that I am serving You by obeying what You say. no matter what, i think about You most of the time during the day. i haven't really accounted for the dependence i have on You just being there- somewhere- where i feel that You are thinking of me too sometimes.
tomorrow is my root canal. i have to go to work early in order to make up for lost time. i hope my tooth can be fixed and then remain problem free.
thank You,
kittyslut
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