Slut Confession #50 (Master's Strict Standards)

Master,

perhaps You requested an insightful confession as this one is the 50th and that is considered a special anniversary number of sorts. i actually cannot believe it is only 50. You have become such a predominant presence in my internal life that it is insane to think that i have existed as long as i did without You.

as i reflect on your presence in my life, i know i should again thank You for every positive thing You have brought to my life. i think i should look forward to revealing more about myself to You because You would probably have a beneficial effect on any part of my life that You took interest in. of course, that isn't what i should think about. it is selfish. i really just want to focus on pleasing You in every way You desire, not about how i want to change for myself. most men i think are satisfied it a girl spreads her legs, but You set your standards much higher and thus i am required to put long term effort into serving You properly. i believe that i can only feel worthwhile if i am given such goals- goals that require effort and concentration from me.

i also should apologize for all the frustration i cause. i am quite aware of how difficult i have been. in a way, this shows me why my life is the way it is- i do seem to be an extremely disorganized and distracted creature. i am quite glad You are the opposite of me in every valuable way. thank You for continuously keeping me on track by telling me to concentrate on my goals so many times. Master, i do believe i need to be repeatedly told to focus. but perhaps as i internalize how You like things to be done, i will not need to be told to concentrate all the time. i imagine i would be a very productive person in life if this could happen.

would You like to see me sometime this weekend? i wish to be available for You. i think i am achieving one of my goals now and perhaps i will have found a girl that will eat my pussy for You (i am hoping). as always, i am so horny for your Cock and i wish You will use one or more of my fuckholes and allow me to earn your cum. i really crave being stuffed with your Cock. i am addicted to the way You fuck me,\n even when it hurts because you fuck me in my tightest hole or because You fuck me so hard. if i do not deserve your Cock in my fuckholes, then i beg You to consider punishing me through pain. i feel that receiving corporal punishment from You is also a special honor and i desire this if You deem i have not been a satisfactory pet.

Master, i hope You have a pleasant day and i hope You are pleased (at least a little bit) with your kittyslut. i think of the times we have been together in person and i desperately wish to see more of You, as our time together is really important and meaningful to me. i think about how you Cock feels inside me all the time. it always makes me want to fuck my pussy but i cannot do this this week as i cannot insert the pen. still, i look at pictures of me serving You as your pet and look at your Cock inside my mouth and see how my holes have been displayed for You after You stuffed it with plugs. i wish i could always be displayed for You, waiting to be used, unless i am filled with your Cock. when i think about how much i really need to be filled that way, i know how much i have to accomplish my goals in order for my life to feel complete.

would You like to see? i wish to be available for You. i think i am achieving one of my goals now and perhaps i will have found a girl that will eat my pussy for You (i am hoping). as always, i am so horny for your Cock and i wish You will use one or more of my fuckholes and allow me to earn your cum. i really crave being stuffed with your Cock. i am addicted to the way You fuck me, even when it hurts because you fuck me in my tightest hole or because You fuck me so hard.

if i do not deserve your Cock in my fuckholes, then i beg You to consider punishing me through pain. i feel that receiving corporal punishment from You is also a special honor and i desire this if You deem i have not been a satisfactory pet.

thank You,
kittyslut