Slut Confession #57 (My Own Worst Enemy)

Master,

my personal ad is not working for me, but i don't expect these things to work anyways. men ruin girls4girls online.

why is it so easy to get every dick out there except for the one i want? i don't know what to tell You now. i am sure that You will be frustrated/disappointed etc. with me. i am trying to think of something that can at least distract You from your frustration...not really. fat chance of that happening. i am going crazy.

if i just do this one stupid thing then we both can have so much sex. i stand (kneel more like) at this constant gate of all or nothing. like in some movie where you sell your soul to the devil and you get everything or refuse and get nothing. not that you are the devil. sorry. yesterday i called You cruel and today i compared You to the devil. errr, i meant You sexy devil. (hey, if i can' turn You on, maybe i can try making You laugh).

Sir, i know this confession is retarded, but i am enjoying writing it somehow. at least it makes me laugh. anyways, sorry for my strange and somewhat non submissive outburst. what can i say- without You i am crazy. and i really cannot have a wannabe Dom. it can't happen for me. i need You because You are real. and i- i really wish to be real. well, actually i wish just the opposite.

i wish to be the creature of my own fantasies. tonight, i fucked my pussy so much. i do not know why but i was incredibly horny. and more and more, i can only think of You while fucking myself i can't rub my pussy to porn (i tried) or to thoughts of any other man or woman. i always come back to You.

i have fucked my own wet cunt probably five times tonight. my sex drive is through the roof. i feel guilty when i fuck myself too as i know i don't really deserve even the pleasure i can garner from imagining You. but there i am, addicted.

i wish i could kidnap some sexy girl off the street and keep her in a cage as my slave. i would make her eat my pussy while video taped and i would show it to You just so i could earn the privilege of You using any of my fuckholes again. but that's illegal. stupid laws! stupid boys on the internet! stupid me because i don't have a tongue inside my pussy right this instant.

i am going to bed. i love your Cock.

thank You,
kittyslut