Slut Confession #40 (Midday Masturbation)

Master,

it is interesting to see the slut confession number increase. how high do You expect it to get? 100? 10,000? only time can tell. well, i suppose its technically within our control.

i also often write emails to other people in all lower case. it is interesting that even after years of education and habit, the writing style You have required of me has already become the dominant paradigm. i am excited to experience whatever You have planned for me. your ability to inspire so much devotion out of me with even an occasional gesture of approval or acknowledgment is amazing. i have always been a rather high maintenance and time consuming partner. well, You put an inordinate amount of time into me considering how busy You probably are, but i don't see You often.

Master, why do You think it would be good for me to have a girl of my own to experiment with? well, i know You don't tend to answer the why questions. even for that i would ask why, but...anyways. sometimes when i don't understand You, i remember that my father does the same thing that You are doing that i don't understand. somehow this comforts me. because i know my father is a reliable person despite the fact that no one gets him. and because it reassures me that You are not uniquely psychopathic because there is at least someone else that operates somewhat like You do (and sometimes i worry, still). not that it keeps me from obsessively thinking about You.

i still keep the pen inside me throughout the day. sometimes, i go to the bathroom to play with it a little. everyone must think i have bladder problems or something. but no. i just have a really wet pussy. i sometimes go through two pairs of panties a day because i soak them so much. soon i will not be able to email You at work because my supervisor will be sitting right next to me and that just will not work. right now the physics nerd that sits next to me doesn't really matter, but my supervisor matters. i will be sad when this happens.

thank You,
kittyslut