Monday, June 18, 2007

Slut Confession #28 (Jealous Slut)

Master,

thank You very much for pointing me in some direction in my search for a submissive. i am not sure why i seemed to give up before even trying. i apologize for my reluctance and lethargy on the matter. please punish me for my problematic behavior if that would please You. tomorrow, when i have more internet access, i will try and make contacts and take steps forward to finding my sub.

do You think it is possible that You will like her better than me?

i imagine it is very easy to like someone else better than me. i am not feeling well. i am sorry. i’ll stop babbling.

i know i have both fat and skin folds and i will try to get rid of them as much as possible although i have never been completely free of these things.

i fucked myself with the pen today and thought of You. i now think of You whenever i look at my bed and it compels me to lay on it and masturbate. i repeat the words as i do this. i feel myself breaking as i say the words recently. before they mainly excited me and motivated me to become what i chanted. but now the words frighten me again. i am fearful of falling into Your disfavor again for any number of reasons. as i come to feel more and more like Your cumslut, i feel that i am not anywhere near what You deserve in a slave.

i think i very desperately wish to be trained. i agonize over the feeling of being such an
unworthy cumslut- an incomplete cumslut. i fear what i am right now.

thank You,
kittyslut

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