Slut Confession #177 (First BDSM Party)

Sir,

the bdsm party was amazing!

i am an idiot because i signed up for the party's mailing list in july but my email address was illegible. i would have easily easily easily been able to find a slut a lot sooner had i been invited to an earlier party.

i saw many naked bisexual subs, girls wanted to serve me left and right and i even saw two dommes fuck each other with a double ended dildo. one of the girls who hit on me was an 18 year old high schooler and was a serious beauty. there were indeed more females than males and indeed all of them were bisexual.

this party was within walking distance from my house and many of the sluts live or work very close to me. host sammy must not be a dim bulb although he's not quite what You are. so, i think You would like spending time with such people.

this could have been extremely easy. i know You probably have no interest in me right now and do not really want to be my owner, but please punish me severely and physically for managing to overlook this slut goldmine of opportunity for so long.

i feel that i at least owe You a replacement slut since i have thus far been such a disappointment. the next big party is in february, and i hope You are in town. otherwise, host sammy knows dozens if not hundreds of sluts and can offer You one at any time.

You still have control over something he seems to want. he keeps expressing interest in me but so far i have shown him no attention. i did not even let him massage me. i was the biggest prude at the party. all i did was bite some slut's nipples.

host sammy acts as though he is really interested in me. he might be. probably because i am svelte and attractive compared to many but not all of his sluts and because i am not that easy. in fact, i am not easy at all for anyone except You because in spirit, i still crave your ownership of me. it is my slut nature.

host sammy asked me to have lunch with him on monday. i will tease him with my stories, i think. i will show him how depraved my slut mind is, but i will continue to disallow any touch at all. and i was not born yesterday. i believe that if sammy had my slut cunt, then he would throw me to the gutter in the next second. i never trust men.

Sir, i apologize for placing a type of ultimatum on our relationship. children are not something i can have for about five years and perhaps i will change by then and perhaps You will change by then. i miss your Cock so much and i am loathe to remain inflexible about your opinion on marriage and children.

i know nothing of marriage. i know nothing of child rearing. what i know is that i love your Cock and miss You and i miss existing as kittyslut, your special slave. Sir, i would still love to see You and serve your Cock sometime this weekend, if You are not too put off by me.

even if i never become your pet again, i feel that i owe You two things as part of my debt to your Cock.

i owe You a slut, and i owe You the fun of fucking me while i am exposed to onlookers.

thank You,
kittyslut in training