Slut Confession #165 (Human Piss Toilet)

Master,

i wish You a happy new years. my only resolution this year is to become an obedient pet for You. i hope your year will be fortunate and enjoyable.

thank You so much for your message to me. i will try not to be afraid of serving You as a toilet. i do look forward to serving You this way, especially since your piss would be assimilated into my body. when i thought about this, i saw something romantic about your sentiment. i saw serving You in this way as a way to become joined as one. i think i have always seen this act as special.

i feel that since i already regrettably gave up my virgin fuckholes, that this is one of the few main frontiers i have left. i want to serve as a toilet first for You because You are so important to me. it will be humiliating for me and i do worry that i am sinking so far that i will begin to resent myself.

today, skinnyslut called me during work, but i did not pick up. i spoke to babyslut briefly and have not explained the goals and punishments i have in mind for her. i believe that punishments should actually be undesirable to the slut. since babyslut is a masochist, i think that punishments for her should tend to be based in humiliation and not physical pain. perhaps she could be forced to suck a stranger's cock or forced to perform in front of an audience. i do not think she would be very keen on these things.

Master, i thank You so much for your interest in my slut mind. i keep myself so sexually repressed that i avoid my most depraved fantasies even in my mind. as a child, my fantasies were actually more extreme. they became more tame as i sexually matured because i began to see myself in the role of sluts. because of this, i would always restrain the Masters in my imagination from excessive cruelty. my fantasies always focused on a relationship in which the Master loves the slave.

this has been true throughout my life. i conceive of two types of ownership of sluts:

1. one is where the Master is territorial and keeps a slut only for
   himself. in my mind, this happens when the Master loves the slave.
   
2. the other type of ownership is where the Master shares the slut with his friends and uses her as public entertainment. in my mind, this happens when the Master cares nothing for the slave. the Masters of my imagination own a slave they love but also sometimes own slaves they do not care about.

for me, the loved slave is often captured and locked in a dungeon, kept isolated from other human contact so that her only window to human interaction is serving the Master. the loved slave is often raped and expresses agony from acting as an unwilling participant. in my mind, rape is a form a flattery that shows that the Master is unwilling to go without the slave and desires her so strongly that her consent does not matter.

the other slaves are always willing slaves and part of the reason the Master cares so little for them is because they are one dimensional sluts who crave nothing besides serving cock.

fantasies about the loved slave include themes of rape, bondage and corporal punishment as she is an unwilling one that needs to be broken. i also fantasize about the Master making love to this slave and treating her with affection at times.

while fantasies about the other slaves involve gang bangs, exhibitionism, incest (between sisters) and willing lesbian sex.

that is the basic structure of my slut mind. thus, there are a number of concepts i can theoretically see as arousing, but have no emotional desire to participate in. non-monogamous relationships would be amongst the things that i do not ideally seek but am hopefully capable of appreciating.

Master, i pray to please You through revealing my slut mind. i pray to become a much better pet in 2008. i pray to show You enough gratitude to please You when You allow me to imbibe your piss. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut