Slut Confession #169 (Search For Sluts)

Master,

i made a date for french slut to come visit and she says she will come up for breakfast on sunday.

i also got amateur slut to voice verify and she is female. she is also quite possibly most sexually uninhibited of the sluts i have so far spoken to. she is not as kinky as many, but she became really excited when i told her that i wanted to paddle her while she sucked on your Cock and when i told her i wanted to train her to jerk your cum onto my face and then lick the cum off of me.

she said she has no interest in drinking my piss though. she is not a masochist and does not have a true interest in submitting completely in the sense that she does not really care to have someone to make decisions for her outside the bedroom.

it seems that amateur slut is so far the most sexually compatible of the sluts. she lives in the midwest though and says she would need to know me and You much better before relocating. she said that she has a place and a job where she is and is not looking for someone to take care of her. in a sense, i do not think she needs to be a live-in slave although she probably wants much attention. she also knows about You and knows that You are my Master.

meanwhile, babyslut was exceptionally distraught today. it is the major indication to me that she is at this point untrainable. she was apologetic about not being able to handle the phone conversation, but was very worried about her ability to handle men in general. she was very depressed today and seemingly fearful of everything because of yesterday's exchange. i now realize how needy she is. she had thus far been the most dedicated pet in terms of the time she was willing to put into me and her follow through with instructions, but it seems that she really might be very inhibited. i see that there is now a major trust issue between us that will be hard to repair.

i will continue to look for a slut who is more conveniently located. i will try to find one who lives in the area so that we can use her often. i did not prepare my sluts properly to speak to You. from now on, i will try to be more diligent about that. i know i seem almost hopeless now, but i think i can improve enough to find sluts that will cuddle me and perform basic services for your Cock.

i have kept your present here unwrapped and i do not wish to wrap it until i at least am allowed to serve your Cock again. i miss You and do hope You chose to use me soon. i am trying to be obedient as i know that is the only way of arousing your interest.

i thought about how You said that You believed intelligence equated the ability to dominate others. i found it strange that You would think so. i also wonder if You believe the converse; that submission comes from a relative lack of intelligence. it is interesting that i cannot submit to someone i feel is less intelligent than me, but i do not see my own desire to submit as a direct result of lesser intelligence. i have no desire to submit to more intelligent women either.

like the way beauty does not guarantee self esteem, i find it difficult to dominate women because of lack of confidence. i think that no one would really want me imposing on them and that doing so would be me being an insensitive jerk. i do not mean to sound ungrateful but its just that i see myself in the sluts shoes and i see how i would want to please my potential owner and i know how distraught i become when i make sacrifices for a person but that person then ignores me, rejects me or just not own me with the totality that i need.

i miss You as i miss You all the time. i pray to your Cock that i learn to train sluts for us. i still pray to your Cock to become your forever slut. i pray that you punish me soon as i must atone. please Master, i really need to be punished.

thank You,
kittyslut