Slut Confession #340 (Fleeting Happiness)

Master,

thank You so much for Your call today. i am very thankful that You were so honest with me today. Sir, since You are such a responsible Owner, i do not usually feel the result of Your conflict between seeing me as an owned pet and as a person that You feel complex emotions towards.

it is true that i experience a range of emotions beyond what a pure slave chained to Your basement would feel, but i have never felt that being Your pet constricts my development as a person. i am now so happy that i have the opportunity to learn the skills which elude me the most such as domesticity and sports. i know that i would not learn these thing if not for my service to You. but Sir, if it pleases You for me to be able to achieve independent happiness, then i must try. i think this will be far more difficult for me to do than it will be to achieve happiness which is dependent on Your will.

Master, i have hardly experienced consistent happiness during my adult life. i somehow did have an extremely happy childhood though. for years afterward, i clung to my memories of childhood in order to rekindle the feeling of what happiness felt like. but after years of misery, even the memories of my childhood seem tainted and while i can remember all sorts of objective details of my early life, i can no longer really recapture the feelings of bliss i often felt before adolescence.

i cannot really explain why serving You provides me with a consistent source of happiness while nothing else seems to do so. i wish i knew the answer because then perhaps i could provide You with some useful insight about the nature of happiness. my co-worker says that happiness will always elude those who attach it to external goals. alas, i do not really understand how one can experience happiness as some consistent internal state which does not depend on external achievement.

i can see that it is especially important that missyslut and i remain as obedient as possible. i know that we sluts are not entirely like You, but i still hope that we can provide You a fulfillment.

Master, i pray to Your Cock that You can resolve Your internal discomfort. i pray that missyslut and i can become more and more obedient so that You find something near perfection in us. i pray that i become a woman You can be proud of in addition to a slut that You enjoy owning. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut in training