Slut Confession #314 (Slut Contemplation)

Master,

i am so happy now because i will see You tomorrow. i am so hopeful that the asian slut i have acquired will be somewhat satisfactory. i miss You in some ways lately even though i am now seeing more of You than i ever have before. i feel your physical presence, which is wonderful, but i always feel a distance between us. i wonder if You feel it too, and i wonder if You are content for that distance to always remain between us.

do You have any interest in meeting the other sluts i might be able to get to serve your Cock? there are two others that may be willing but i know that You are very busy and may not have time to accept them. i am thankful that You asked me if i was comfortable with the tasks You have assigned to me and reminding of my option to be released. Sir, i am excited to give You financial control of what will be all of my savings. it is not much of course, but it is symbolic of the depth of Your ownership of me.

indeed, i am not really enthused about acquiring bitch boys to train. i do not hate it but i am not sure that i would not rather be doing something else. since serving your Cock is everything to me, i feel a little guilty when i put my efforts into something unrelated to serving You when i have not accomplished my goals. i do not buy anything that You would not care for. even though nothing stops me from purchasing books or jewelry or the keyboard i have wanted, i do not invest myself in tasks that unrelated to what You have assigned to me. i feel that doing so would be procrastinating.

it is true that i perhaps do not spend all my time on serving You, but i seem to wish to spend all my effort to serve You. i no longer work on my stories and i miss them. i was hoping that i could work on them this summer as i feel i may not have time to work on them for several years. but stories take hours and hours. my published co-worker spends four hours before work writing, a few after work reading and several hours socializing with people in the field. You now own so much of me. You have chosen and now rule over my job, my career, my weight, my exercise and eating habits and my romantic and sexual life. my social life now inadvertently belongs to You as well.

i no longer see any of the friends i used to see so often and instead spend my weekends at fetish events so that i can recruit sluts for You or at least write to You about how i behaved as a depraved dominant slut for You. it is fitting that soon You will have control over what i wear and my finances and possibly where. i wonder both what it would feel like to be entirely owned and what it would feel like to be free again. i wonder if i would be able to function. i wonder if i would be better or worse than i was before.

Master, i pray to your Cock that You are pleased with this confession as "314" is a generally-accepted special number with mathematical significance. i pray to your Cock that You need me. i pray that You are satisfied tomorrow. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut in training