Slut Confession #266 (Anal Self Help)

Master,

i was so happy today all day because i was so recently allowed to serve your Cock with my mouth fuckhole. Yet, i grow increasingly angry with myself and disappointed when i recall how disobedient i was with my anal fuckhole. Sir, i wish nothing more than to be the sum of my fuckholes, so if i am lacking a trainable fuckhole then i am a paltry sum for You and You deserve much better.

i know that the only way of redeeming myself to your Cock is to accomplish my goals. Sir, thank You so much for allowing me additional goals for this gives me the opportunity to prove myself to You as a truly obedient, depraved and grateful slut. i also know that You make presentations in your life about important matters. Sir, i wish to make a show and tell presentation of my cum slut body and behavior for You. i wish i could have made such presentations as a child and i thank You for being my audience in this endeavor.

today, i felt so guilty about not serving your Cock properly with my anal fuckhole, and i resolved to try and practice training my asshole so it will be better prepared for your Cock. Master, i recalled that at the gym i sometimes take weeks to be able to succeed at a pilates move or lift a certain amount of weights. sometimes, i have to try many things to get into the right mind set when i work out in order to endure pain and exhaustion. i thought that perhaps i became a confused slut when receiving your Cock in my asshole. perhaps i did not know if i should concentrate most on obedience, gratitude or my extreme depravity. i thought that through practice, i could gain the mental discipline needed to serve with this terribly disobedient fuckhole.

i lubed my asshole and first twirled my fingers in it to stretch it. i then tried to stuff my big pink dildo into my asshole but i was cowardly and could not take it. so, i grabbed the nearest phallic object which happened to be a yellow marker:

i shoved it into my asshole even though the edge felt like it tore the skin and was able to fill my asshole with the yellow marker. when i pulled the marker out, i saw that i was bleeding. You can see some hints of blood:

i was very thankful to know that i endured such deserved pain in your honor. i must become used to the pain of being brutally fucked in my asshole.

Sir, i then tried to stuff the big pink dildo inside my ass:

at first, i only got the head in before recoiling from pain like a slut without dedication. then, i told myself that i needed to try as hard as possible to deserve your Cock, and i did not give up on training my asshole further.

i lied down on the bed and stuffed the strap on cock as far as i could. but i knew that this would not be adequate as You enjoy fucking my ass from whichever angle pleased You. Sir, i kept the cock in my ass and practiced being anally stuffed while on all fours:

i took dozens of pictures of myself behaving like a depraved anal slut in honor of your Cock. i wanted to keep the pink dildo inside of me so that i would be more fully trained:

Sir, i still need improvement because i must be able to take the cock completely on the first try from any position, and i should be able to take it completely.

i will practice until my anal fuckhole is fit to serve You.

Master, i pray to your Cock to show that i am obedient at all times. i pray for my anal fuckhole to please You as it should. i pray to become nothing but the sum of my fuckholes at all times for You. Amen.

thank You,
kittyslut in training